A Story of the Haram Child

Part 36 Fear

The chirping of the sparrows welcomes the sun that comes without a barrier. The warm rays of the bagaskara gently touch the skin, there is no complaint from a single creature upon its presence.

Activity at the hospital that morning had already begun, officers in white uniforms had begun to enter the inpatient room for control before the shift shift change.

Lasmi awakens when a nurse comes to check on Resti's condition and changes the bandage. The woman's net last night was gripped by fear seemed so sunken with a black circle forming a panda's eye, tired of emanating from the face that was tangled in masai.

Somehow he fell asleep last night. After tired of holding all the fear and getting upset, he was only able to hide behind the blanket he brought. The hurt and feeling of being dumped still remains perched in the heart, unable to get rid of it.

Lasmi is scattered, silent a thousand languages. The net returned to circulate the entire room. The last words of Daneesa's spirit are still clearly in the ears until this moment.

It still feels like a dream visited by a figure in the past who greatly hated, between believing and not. At first he thought it was all just Daneela's play, but regarding the events when he pushed Daneesa from the stairs only he and his former in-laws knew.

Curiosity makes the mind of Lasmi began to analyze and guess. The first guess is her former mother-in-law, prejudice also drifted to the woman who used to always support all her desires.

"Mama who told you? But ... If Mama told me, it felt impossible. He certainly would not dare to tell the incident to anyone let alone to Daneela," he muttered while biting his lips.

"Cannot be. Mama must know the risk she'll take if the story about Daneesa comes to light. A woman like her would be afraid to spend the rest of her life in prison."

Lasmi kept busy with her prejudiced mind. Several times he tapped the temple, indicating that he was thinking hard.

"But .. was last night the spirit of Daneesa?" His gaze was fixed on the door, the place where Daneesa had appeared.

The feathers of Lasmi tetiba back bristling. He could not imagine if the spirit of Daneesa appeared again or was sitting nearby. Moreover .. ah, remembering Daneesa's words made Lasmi like a depressed person.

Currently Lasmi is at a crossroads, between trying to reclaim Anarya's love or succumbing to circumstances. On the other hand, he still loved the man who had made him go crazy to the point of being desperate.

"Mom, Mommy ...." Resti's voice that called out many times finally broke the chaos of Lasmi's brain atmosphere.

Without saying anything, Lasmi stared fixedly at the little girl. Back Daneesa's ghost speech echoed in his ear, still clearly heard the request that he stop throwing tantrums. It seemed that he would not be able to use the little girl as a tool to force Anarya back into the embrace.

"Mom, today Resti can go home, right?" Resti repeated the question that did not get a response from Lasmi, the woman was still stunned with an unsettled look.

"Yes, wait for the doctor to come first." Lasmi finally throws a smile, then gets up from her seat and gets closer to the edge of the bed.

"Dad here to pick you up, ma'am?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"Hore ... Nessa's father and sister are coming again!" serami Resti is full of joy, happy twinkle once seen on her beautiful face.

Lasmi just smiled knot. His gaze again circulated to the door, imagined when the figure suddenly appeared there. The feather immediately bristled back, he swept the entire room with a look full of fear.

"Hih ...why did I become a parno like this, anyway!" lasmi said while rubbing his neck that was still goosebumps.

"Mother why?" tanya Resti while reaching for Lasmi's hand and making her stunned.

"Well! What, anyway, you! Just surprise me!" lasmi shouted in shock, with a reflex of his hand brushed aside the tiny hand.

Instantly heard Resti's hysterical cry, there was blood pouring from his hands. Seeing this Lasmi even more panicked, he did not know if his attitude had made the infusion in the hands of Resti regardless.

"Sorry, Honey. Sorry, I didn't mean it." Lasmi still frantically tried to grab Resti's hand, but the little boy was getting louder.

Lasmi quickly pressed the button to call the nurse, not long after the daycare officer and swiftly helped Resti who was still sobbing with pain.

Luckily the female nurse was able to calm Resti down, so the little girl stopped from crying even though there was still a bit of rest. Highlight fear of the figure of the mother is now incarnated, several times he whines asking the nurse to keep looking after him.

"Ehm ... Resti, the nurse must be on duty again. Sorry, yes ... I was not intentional." Lasmi tried to touch the top of Resti's head, but the little girl was already frightened so she pulled her head away from the reach of Lasmi's hand.

"Wicked mother! I don't love Resti anymore!" yelled Resti while jumping from the bed and running out even with a body that is still not fully balanced, almost the small body fell while trying to run from his mother.

Lasmi immediately panicked and ran after Resti, but her steps stopped when she saw Anarya who was lifting Resti to the sling. Beside him stood the figure of the woman who had been interfering with his thoughts since last night.

"Da-Daneean ...." Lasmi took a step back, suddenly her gaze clouded and ....

Bruk!

Lasmi's body was limp and almost fell, but Anarya immediately lowered Resti and the burly hand managed to catch the body of his ex-wife before falling to the floor.

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Slowly Lasmi opens the net, her eyelids dim to regulate the intensity of light entering the retina. Several times he opened his eyes to make sure that he was in the real world.

His consciousness gradually returned, the bead ball continued to circulate unsettled. As her eyepiece recorded the figure she was afraid of, Lasmi immediately got up and got out of bed.

The fear plagued his mind until several times he mentioned the name Daneesa and many times he asked that the figure in his view go away.

Seeing Daneela who just flinch, Lasmi desperately pushes the body that she considers Daneesa. He hoped that the figure would disappear from before him.

Daneela who felt disturbed actually retaliated, she encouraged the pregnant woman to fall to the floor. "You're crazy, Lasmi!" daneela shouted.

There was a triumphant smile that Daneela was hiding, only her heart knew at this moment she was cheering at Lasmi's condition. He was satisfied to make Lasmi forget his intentions.

Anarya who saw Lasmi's behavior was confused. He looked at the Daneesa as if asking for an opinion, but Daneela just put her shoulders down.

"I'm out first, Mom. Looks like Lasmi doesn't want me here, I'm taking Resti out."

"Official, relax. What's the matter with you?" asked Anarya while helping the woman who was pregnant with her third child to stand up.

"Daneesa, Mas .. He came last night."

Anarya frowned, she still did not understand what Lasmi said. "You mean?"

"Yes, last night Daneesa came. He's bothering me, I'm afraid he'll get revenge." Lasmi's cry broke, her hands hugging Anarya's arms as if asking for protection.

"Officially, I think you're just dreaming of the late Daneesa."

"No, Mas. He's actually coming."

Anarya. He took a look at Lasmi's face which still implied great worry and anxiety. Not usually Lasmi behaved like that during her life with Anarya first.

"I know this is beyond reason, Mom. But seriously I'm not lying."

"Maybe you're currently exhausted, Lasmi. Now you rest, let my blessing take care." Anarya led Lasmi to the bed.

"Mas, I don't want to die silly because of Daneesa's spirit."

"Daneesa is calm in heaven. He couldn't have come for revenge."

"But, Mas ...."

"It looks like you're time to change, Lasmi. Come to Daneesa's grave and apologize."

Lasmi. How could he possibly apologize to a corpse that had been gnawed in the ground? It was hard for him to do that.

"I knew you wouldn't be able to do that, Lasmi. So, now you better rest and calm your mind. Poor baby in your stomach."

"Since when have you cared about this child, Mas?" Lasmi was bowed while stroking her stomach which was already seen bulging.

Lasmi's words made Anarya unable to say, he did not deny Lasmi's accusation that he had always preferred to drift in happiness with his new family.

"Oh, now you rest. I want to see a doctor first and take care of the administration."

"But I'll be here again, right?" lasmi's hand quickly grabbed Anarya's arm.

"Yes. Now you're the calm one, okay?"

Lasmi nodded, slowly releasing her hand from Anarya's arm. There is hope that he still hangs on to the man who has separated from his life.

After Anarya came out, Lasmi tried to neutralize every fear that enveloped her heart and mind. He tried to close the netra, hoping that when later he reopened it the situation was back to normal.

It had been more than fifteen minutes he closed his eyes, but not even that calmness he got. The greatness of events in the past actually passed by presenting regrets that began to wander the heartstrings.

Mistakes that he once considered a love struggle, now turned into a boomerang for him. The principle of pride that he once maintained, now he must press deeply.

Should a Lasmi admit defeat after struggling for so long?

Should he come begging for forgiveness from a spirit that is considered a rival that he has managed to get rid of?

All of this feels impossible. A Lasmi wouldn't do such a lowly thing. Struggle is struggle, principle is principle.

"No I'm gonna give up just because of Daneesa's ghost. I have to keep going, I can't lose!" Lasmi strengthened her heart, trying not to become weak because of her fear.

With confidence that re-awakened, Lasmi let out a long sigh. He is ready to face whatever happens. Steadily, he reopened his net and ....

"Aaaa ..." Lasmi's hysterical scream echoed throughout the room.

Seeing the figure that from night inhabited his mind, suddenly he was surprised and rose from the bed. He jumped and ran out of the hospital room, running without direction while shouting indistinctly.

He ignored the call of Resti who saw his mother running scared. For him now away from Daneesa is the best thing because he does not want to die strangled by the ghost of a woman in the past.

"Tante, Mother why?" tanya Resti when the shadow of Lasmi disappeared at the end of the hallway.

"Ehm .. maybe Lasmi's mother was a nightmare, so when I woke up I was terrified." Daneela tries to explain to Resti not to worry.

"But I'm coming back here, right, Auntie?"

"Yes, Honey. Later if I'm Lasmi's conscious, it must come back here."

Daneela tries to calm the little boy who already has feelings of worry for his parents. He grabbed Resti's shoulder and invited him to sit down with Nessa.

There is an unbearable swish that infiltrates the recesses of the heart. Honestly, he did not want to see a small child feel the consequences of adult feuds. Daneela did not think that what she did actually had an impact on Lasmi's psyche.

Daneela was satisfied with what happened with Lasmi. He hoped that Lasmi would not do the same as what he had done to Daneesa. But all that was unexpected, precisely fear made Lasmi like a madman.

Huh huh? Is Lasmi really going crazy?

Daneela's face instantly changed when the assumption was present in her mind.