A Pair of Lotus Flowers

Mother Two Child

"No, Ra.I can't separate from you anymore, until whenever I won't divorce you" Beni said as she held my hand in panic.

"If you don't want to separate from me, at least you give me certainty until when I have to wait for you, but even you yourself don't know when the time is" I said annoyed.

"Nara, I promise that the Princess will recover later we can definitely be together again.Or not, I will divorce the Princess after she recovers so that we can return."

"If the Princess is healed, are you sure she will accept you for divorce?It's not that easy Ben.Now it's up to you to go to Singapore, let me keep Zio here" I said to Beni.

"Thank you, Ra, I'll try to make it home soon"

"Yes that's what you should do, if until you don't come home I can make sure when the Princess is healed I'm also a widow.Because if I want, I can take care of our divorce, Ben."

"Sir Ra, I can't wait for me, Jakarta-Singapore is also not too far away.I might be able to take my time to go home for a while."

I was just silent, indeed he could occasionally go home to Jakarta because it was not too far away.But the problem is that Princess would want Beni always be there beside him and would not allow Beni to go home.

After a big enough fight finally Beni still decided to leave.She left me and her children like without burden.Although indeed Zio also has his own nanny, nanny,but still I can't bear to see him left alone with his sister.

"Nara, aren't you having trouble taking care of two kids at once?" Ask papah.

"Actually Nara is troubled pah, but fortunately there is Sister Nadia, she will also help Nara to take care of Zio."

"Hopefully Beni can come home often to nengokin you and her children huh?"

"Yes pah" I answered.

Time just passed, it has been almost a year since Beni went to Singapore.And everyday my work now only takes care of my two children.Azzura now has started to be able to walk, he said,so I can monitor him while holding Zio.Sometimes if they are both fussy, I and Sus Nadia also have difficulty handling those who have started to be active.

Especially when Zio does not want to drink milk formula anymore, you do not want me to also have to give him my ASI and finally I myself who have difficulty because they have to give ASI to them simultaneously or alternately.

"Sus, I want to rest for a while.Please take care of Azzura with Zio?" I said to the nurse.

"Yes ma'am, I must take care of them kok.Mommy rest in the room" said Sister Nadia.

"Darling, did you play with the sisters first?Mama is very sleepy" I said to Azzura and Zio

I went straight into my room and fell asleep because I was very tired.It turns out being a mother is not easy, especially the mother of two children.By the way I already consider Zio is my son,I no longer think it's the Princess's son with Beni.So when others ask questions I will answer if Zio is my son.

The next night I only realized that I did not see papah all day.Because papah was rarely at home so I felt no need to look for papah.But now papah has retired from medicine and spend more time at home, because it is often sickly.

"Well, is Papah inside?" I asked from the front door of Papah's room.

There was no answer from inside the room, but because I was curious I went straight into the papah room.And I was very surprised when I saw the papah lying in pain in his bed.

"Well, why reward?" I asked papah.

"But papah's face is pale, papah is also rich who is sick.Why didn't papah tell Nara from this morning if papah is sick?Bi Asih also didn't say anything to Nara."

"Father do not want to make you worry, especially all day you are busy with children" said Papah.

"But if rich gini instead Nara is more worried about pah.Kita now to the hospital aja ya pah?" My persuasion.

"Gak u.sah hah hah.." Papah said with a loud breath.

"Well, why?papah asphyxiate?Nara's taking Papah to the hospital right now."

I screamed for help to Sister Nadia and also bi Asih to get my papah to the car.The papah condition seems quite serious,I immediately gasped for the hospital and left the children at home with Sister Nadia.

(Went to the hospital and had a check-up)

"Doctor what's the state of my papah doc?"

"Pak Budi has complications, so it can be said that now his condition is worsening.Mba better do a lot for Mr. Budi's recovery" said the doctor to me.

I just fell silent while holding back my tears, I don't know what to do because now I'm really alone.I'm also very afraid of losing papah,moreover, seeing his condition now that must lie in the ICU room with various medical devices attached to his body.

I finally tried to contact Beni, we still often communicate by phone.But for almost a year Beni has not once returned to Jakarta to see me and his children.

"Hello Ben" I said in tears.

"Yes hello baby, why are you?How are your voices hoarse?" Ask Beni.

"Ben, you need to get home right now! "

"What's wrong Ra?"

"Father, you're in Ben's hospital" I said, crying.

"Will I go to the hospital?So how's it going now?"

"Ben's critical papah condition, said our doctor can only pray for papah's healing.But I'm afraid Ben, I'm afraid papah..."

"No, you don't think there.Papah must be cured, tomorrow I go straight home.You can wait for me."

"Yes Ben."

After contacting Beni, I also contacted Nurse Nadia to tell her that I can't go home tonight.I'm actually worried about the kids, but I'm also more worried about having to leave Papah alone in the hospital.

Tonight, I continue to hold the hand of papah.I also continue to try to stay awake because of fear of something happening to papah.