A Pair of Lotus Flowers

Sorry Deon

The next morning, Beni did not rebuke me in the slightest.The countenance was flat and cold, like a person who already had no concern for the surroundings.

"Where are you going today, Ben?" Ask papah.

"Today's art will take the order of the engagement ring with Princess Pah" Beni replied.

"It is good if that is so, so little by little the preparation is ready.If you are Nara?Are you going to college today?"

"Yes pah, today Nara wants to go to campus" I replied.

It's true today I plan to go to college,but not to study but to apply for leave.I also have to meet Deon and explain all the things that happened so far.And I also have to say goodbye to Xana my best friend.After arriving at the campus, I immediately met the two of them.

"Xana, today I want to say goodbye to you" I said.

"Pamit?Pamit where?" Xana asked in shock.

"Today I've been away from college, because in a few days I will move to Bali" answered me lightly.

"This means what is Nara?How to move to Bali?You never told me anything?" Deon asked with a disappointed face.

"I'm sorry I just told you today, later from college you come with me to my friend Siska's house" I replied.

"As for you as Ra, you never thought I existed all this time" Deon said as he left me with Xana.

"What problem are you guys having, Ra?Lo dong story to me, do not suddenly you want to go that way" said Xana.

"Actually I really want to tell the story to Lo Na, but I don't know where to start.It's not a problem I'm the same Deon, but it's purely a problem of myself.It's also hard for me, too,but I hope you understand."

"Well if that's your decision, you can only support you doang Ra" said Xana while hugging me.

Until the class broke up Deon did not enter the class, I knew he was very angry and disappointed to hear the news of my sudden move.Finally finished the class I looked for Deon around the campus,after I met him I immediately took him to Siska's house.

I think Siska's house is the safest place to explain everything to Deon, because no one else can hear our conversation but Siska who already knows everything.

"We want to do something here Ra" asked Deon.

"I have to tell you something and there's nowhere safe but here" I replied.

Siska who knew I was taking Deon to her house immediately left us both in her room, so that Deon and I could freely speak.

In front of Deon I took out the results of my uterine ultrasound and the results of my pregnancy test while in the hospital.

"This is what Nara means?" Ask Deon.

"Deon, I'm pregnant" I replied.

"Ka...You pregnant?Ta. but we've never gotten to that thing Ra" Deon said stammeringly in shock.

"I know, 'cause this isn't Deon's kid."

"No way, you're not that rich Ra, you must be lying about the results of this test?" Tanya Deon still could not believe it.

I finally took off my shirt, I showed her my growing belly which I had been covering up all this time.Deon's face looked desperate, she couldn't hide her sadness.

"No Deon, I'm not betraying you.But this happened before we dated."

"Who is the father of the baby?"

"I can't tell you, but as you know that person who has been grieving me all this time Deon" I said, looking down guilty.

"Heuh, it turns out that even to the end you have not fully opened your heart to me.Although I do not know who the man is but I really have lost to him, he said,because even now I can't change her position in your heart."

"Sorry Deon I'm sorry, I was wrong.No I should have started a new relationship before my heart was finished loose from the previous one" I said as I began to cry.

"Udah, you do not cry Ra.Toh everything has happened, I also have no right to responsibility or tell you to abortion.Now live life according to your choice,if indeed you have to move from Jakarta hopefully you can be better there" Deon said while hugging me.

My cry broke even more, I did not expect Deon to feel as big and sincere as it was.Maybe in the future I will continue to be haunted by guilt in Deon.

Deon wiped my tears, he also helped me put my shirt back on.He then kissed me on the forehead,wish I was always happy with my choice.Finished our relationship for a few months.A short time but incised such deep wounds for Deon.

"You must be happy Nara, wherever and whenever.I know you are strong, I know you will also be a good mother for your child later" Deon said before leaving me alone in Siska's room.

After Deon left, I was relieved that I had been honest with Deon and I was also relieved to stop lying to myself to pretend to love Deon,my heart also ached to see Deon who left with a sad and desperate face.I hope Deon can also find his own happiness.

After knowing Deon was gone, Siska went back into her room.She saw me who was still sitting dreamy on the bed.

"Lo's okay, isn't Ra?" Ask Siska worried.

"Gue's fine Sis, but my heart aches when Deon is so sad rich."

"That's a sign you love him even though it's not until it can really replace Beni in your heart, Ra."

"Yes can be rich that Sis, now I want to one by one solve my problems before leaving for Bali" said I with a smile.

"When do you plan to leave?"

"Gue left on the day of Beni's engagement with the Princess" I said.

"Waah lo crazy, there will be people busy nyariin lo not focus on the event fiancee."

"No way, I will definitely pretend to calm down first and finish the show.Because if the show is canceled, I'm also embarrassed."

"As far as you go, I'll just let me directly pick you up to the house"

"Okay.Eh yes I have to go home now" I said while getting ready to go home.

I then say goodbye to Siska, but just about to go down the stairs to the bottom suddenly my stomach feels cramping.

"Aarggh, my stomach hurts so much Sis" I said, holding my stomach.

"Lo why Nara?Your feeling was okay.Yes we've been to my room again huh?" Take Siska with a panicked face.

I finally went back to Siska's room and did not come home because of my pain that did not go away.Siska asked me to check it into the hospital,but I refused for fear of suddenly meeting someone I knew again like when I met the Princess.

After the pain in my stomach subsided, I decided to stay at Siska's house, for fear of something like that happening again on the way home.