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Contract with God

True, love and hate her distance is only blocked one thin thread, we can love people today and then hate her right then and there .When Charli says he hates me, I can see the flames of anger flaring in his eyes and when he says I'm disgusting, he's not lying, I know from his painful grip .I thought things would go back to how they used to be after everyone found out about how I was, I thought she still loved me when her hands were still warm,on the night when I woke up from the accident, I wished he was just bored and immediately returned to me .

Been fell into a black hole made by himself, the hole that drew him to the bottom, he loved someone wrong for the second time and then returned to treatment like this ,be it Charli or Sano they both once loved her then ended up calling her disgusting, different now the pain of the treatment is more poignant than ever , she loves Charli too much, ' he said ,he was too good to then be evil and he hated .

"Quickly eat your food Been will be cold "

He just stared at the bowl of rice that Dori gave a piece of meat on top of him

"Aren't you disgusted with me ?"

Dori and the others still in the dorm continue their dinner plans despite the absence of Charli .

"She's angry don't take her words too much "

Minki tries to win Been's heart even though she's not so sure of her own words .

"He's never been like that for 10 years we've been together, he hates me now "

Been lowered his head and began to criticize again, they did not know what to do, which Been said was right this was the first time Charli was angry like that ,repeatedly they try to let Been let Charli go with Lura but their efforts are always not considered Been ,he believes with his feelings he is sure that the relationship will not be easily destroyed just because of a new person like Lura .Been never realized that Charli was never the same as her .

After that day everything changed, though they were working normally back , but in contrast to Charli's now cold attitude towards Been ,in fact she never again spoke directly with him if even she was being sweet it was just her acting on the television screen , ' she said ,the resentment and disappointment Charli felt could not be lost from his heart, just as he realized this was not only the fault of Been, his past as gay was his choice first, he said, no one forced him to do that, but the past is now like a boomerang when Charli wanted to throw him away he came back and stabbed him back .

Beautiful autumn night, the ceiling looks clean there are no clouds there just the air is getting drier and cooler, Charles did not bring his car today ,all the members of DUX have just finished filming an event , he chose to go home on foot from the building where the show was ,Charli wanted to be alone tonight , spending his time as if slow and increasingly boring , ' he said ,he was walking on the sidewalk of the highway that night was jammed by a vehicle, he was wearing a black sweater which was then covered in a long brown coat ,both hands he put into the coat pocket to keep warm, kuluk sweater that he put on the head, do not forget the mask cover part of his face, a perfect disguise so that not recognized people .Throughout the journey his mind was empty & he could not feel any emotion at this time other than being quiet and empty .After walking far enough Charli stopped his steps in front of a mini market, then went inside his , bought some beer cans for him to drink in the apartment later .

"I'm sorry "

If she is not selfish and wants her back Charli may still be able to smile and not hate her , they may still be together even though only limited to friends and family , '' '' they may still be together ,look now even he was nothing more than a stranger who had ruined his life, perhaps Been should never have been present in Charli's life.

"Are people like me trashy in this world?, the feeling I have is not that I choose, if God is here, why he is not being fair to me ,I also want to be normal like them, but I can't control my heart not to love her "

After making sure Charli was in his apartment Been turned and walked home, he did not immediately go home to Dori where he now lives, Been chose to stand on the bridge crossing just above the Han river, ' he said ,his powerful hands clutching the iron fence of the bridge's barrier, he kept staring at the perfectly round reflection of the moon above the river's surface, his light so dazzling made a feeling of peace in his heart .

"Can I be reborn to be him, the girl he now loves so much .I'll give up everything I have, just make it mine .Even if you ask for my soul, can you do it God "

Been wiped away the tears on his cheek, he was sobbing alone there, everything was too heavy up to now ,all that has been achieved as if it has no meaning without the presence of love in his life, Been felt never loved sincerely all this time ,all one sees is the poignancy of her body and her beautiful voice she wants sincere love in her life .Been wanted to be like before this all happened.

"We make a contract tonight, I'll give up my life to You, in return you'll have to give me what they call normal human love "

Been climbed over the guardrail and stood on the edge of the bridge, a perfect moment with no one nearby , he would now make a deal with God and risk his life .

"I'm sorry, I love you all "

His hands he stretched, the wind of the night blew more and more strongly up there, then without any burden the body was floating through the cold air that night ,all the burden seemed to fall along with his body which then split the surface of the river calm .