100 DAYS OF MARRIAGE

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"Divorce, or you want to be second!"

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I pecked with a heartbeat that I felt stopped beating.

Brother Arsen gave me two equally painful choices, and of course I will not be able to choose one of them, or if it must be for sure because of force.

My hands shook as I reached for a glass of water on the dinner table, we were having breakfast together, but Brother Arsen suddenly gave me a deadly attack that I could not have expected.

"Javab, Elena! I don't have much time to wait," Brother Arsen was obviously impatient.

I put my drinking water glass back to where it was, taking a breath that felt so tight.

"Who is he?" I just want to soak the wound, let a drop of tears just like that without me preventing it.

"That's none of your business" replied Brother Arsen, continuing to eat his breakfast.

"Nindy?"

Brother Arsen stopped moving his knife and his fork heard me guessing, then he roughly put the two things on the plate to make a clinking sound.

"Say what your answer is! Divorce, or be second." Arsen's sister looked at me sharply, a cold gaze that I had begun to get since Nindy was present in her life. Brushing aside the warm look of friendship I had at the beginning of our marriage, I began to fall in love with her and she kept her distance from me, as well as her indifferent gaze.

"You have the heart, brother. I've been waiting for you for two years now, and now you're just gonna want to fuck me?" my tears were completely overflowing, I could not cover how sad I was, how painful my heart was, and how devastated I felt.

"You're wrong, Elena. It's not you I'm talking about, but you're going to be number two."

"Whatchu mean? How could that be? I married you first,"

"But I never wanted this wedding" Arsen shouted as he stood pounding the table violently.

"And don't forget, we're just marrying siri" she continued.

I was shocked, feeling so much pain that it was even deeper.

"No objection, Nindy will be my first, so tell me quickly do you want to be second? Or we're divorced."

Silent. I closed both my eyes and passed the clear circle wet the cheeks. Take a deep breath in preparation to answer what I think is the best option.

"Second."

***

Arsen and I got married because of the friendship our father had promised us when we were young, to match us up as adults.

At first we both refused, but after my father died while I was still in the 11th grade - making me an orphan - Kak Arsen agreed, by his father's coercion of course. And I was forced to accept the match because of papah's last will so that I could marry Arsen.

Arsen and I learned to accept the situation, but we hid behind the bonds of friendship, Arsen loved me like a friend, a sister, and he took good care of me.

Slowly my feelings began to change as time went on, I fell in love, I loved Kak Arsen and I wanted him to see me as a woman.

Until one night when Arsen came home late and I found lipstick marks on his shirt collar, I felt jealous, sick, and then foolishly and without consideration, I expressed my feelings to him, I express my love in anger. And what can I expect?

Brother Arsen doesn't love me, he just thinks of me like his sister, his friend, or the son of his father's friend. Not more.

He started to change, not talking to me, no longer caring about me, starting to get cold and indifferent. He only fulfills his living to me materially. There is no love or love.

But would it be wrong of me to love him? If I had fallen in love with her? To my own husband?

***

I didn't realize I was daydreaming for long, Sisca came to surprise me who wasn't aware of her presence.

"Elena, nglamun, what will be the time?" Sisca patted my shoulder while thrusting out a paper containing notes. Shopping notes.

"This is everything, Sis?"

"Already, if there is less, just say it. I'll add it."

"Yes, you went shopping for Yoyo's anterin, huh? I'll transfer the money."

"Ready...."

Sisca was an officer of the cafe owned by my father-in-law, and since my father-in-law died, I managed it.

The cafe is quite crowded this week, like the usual weekend. And there, at the glass door in and out, I saw that beautiful woman who was the main reason I was heartbroken by Kak Arsen, stepping into the Cafe with her three friends, it seems like they were indeed loyal customers of this place, perhaps even before I existed.

Nindy, she is a schoolmate of Kak Arsen, a beautiful woman who has just returned home after completing her education abroad. And he works at Kak Arsen's company, as his secretary.

I didn't know her at first, but as time went on, I memorized her name and pretty face, which filled Kak Arsen's phone screen every day while he was contacting his boss. And one message that made me almost dead stood up as I read from the top screen notification display.

"Arsen, what if I'm pregnant?"

My God,,, they have even had a husband and wife relationship, while I who became his legal wife have never touched Arsen. We are only married religiously.

"Servant! The waiter!" nindy's friend raised a hand at me while calling me a servant. Every now and then he patted both his hands and threw me out of the daydream.

I realized again, how much influence Nindy had in my life until I lost concentration every second.

Curse pen and notebook to meet them immediately.

"Mom, let me just." Hadi prevented me but I shook my head.

"It's okay, you just continue with your work, let me take note of their orders." I refused subtly, after which I took a quick step to their table.

Here it is this it's the order they mentioned alternately. I moved my fingers nimbly writing their orders, but my gaze was on Nindy who was busy with her phone, a very bright sweet smile curled on her thin lips that described her as being happy.

"Here you go" said one of Nindy's friends, moving his hand to throw me away.

"Well, wait a minute." I said politely, then turned around.

"But,, who's getting married soon, smile to herself!" seloroh one of Nindy's friends who successfully hit my heart like pierced by a sword.

"Just like the boss again, who wouldn't want to try?" sahut another friend of Nindy's. Their echoing laughter made me unable to bear, I stepped quickly towards the pantry while holding back the cries.

Brother Arsen will even marry Nindy openly, and will probably legally state law, while his marriage is with me? We had to hide it from his friends until two years ago.

Pain, tired, disappointed, sad, angry, that's what I feel but can't express, and I can only hold in silence.

Not infrequently my friends or close people like their cousins who know my marriage to Kak Arsen and how our relationship tells me stupid, stupid, stupid, unhelpful, and many more, he said, because it still survives today in this very torturous bond of our marriage, I admit that I am indeed that naive. That's stupid because of love.

I love Arsen too much, I'm afraid of losing him. If we go our separate ways, to whom else can I complain? To whom else can I hope? I no longer have anyone in the world but him.

***

"Tonight I'm not home, until the next three days, I'm going out of town." one message I received from Kak Arsen that made me think, is he going with Nindy?

I put my salary on the nightstand after the reply I sent only ticked one, indicating that if Arsen's phone was inactive, I then curled up pulled the blanket immersed myself crying without a sound.

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***Hi, friends readers...

This is not an update of Namira's chapter, yes! But I want to ask your opinion, about this story I go public or not, huh? Is this a good story in Chapter 1? Readers' friends like it a lot. I'm going to start 1st next month.

And I accidentally spill the ending at the beginning. This story will be written sad ending. What do Readers' friends think? Don't like? Remember, sad ending. 🥺🙏***