100 DAYS OF MARRIAGE

There's a father beside me

The balcony remained the most comfortable place when I was alone in the quiet, whether it was the balcony of my room in the apartment, or now when I was in the luxury room Emil. The balcony has always been a silent witness to my suffering that not many people know.

I always cry at times like this. Lamenting the silence of the night as Emil is back to go, where else if not have fun with Sexyola, or Stevia, or any other woman, perhaps. Cause I don't know for sure but I'm pretty sure.

I lowered my head sobbing, my eyes closed trying to hold back the crying but I failed, my hands clinging tightly to the balcony wall looking for strength to survive.

"I hate you, Emil. I hate." I'm out of my deepest heart. But another feeling that also stopped majestically in my heart could not be said when I felt very sad like now.

A beautiful feeling that made me suffer, miserable, and bear lara so badly, a feeling of love. I love Emil so much. Apart from him who has hurt me so amazingly, insulted me, demeaned me, and betrayed me. That love still grows unwilling to pass.

"I really hate you, Emil. Hate, I hate you so much" I repeated that sentence hoping to ease my pain. But I knew it would never work, only a drink could save me.

Well, drink, I need a drink, but now I'm at the O'clan house. I can't drink here, I have to find a way to get out and find the drinks I need.

After checking the state of the house and making sure it was safe, I went to sneak out of the big house using Emil's car, it looks like Emil is using another car because in the garage there are so many luxury cars.

I drove Emil's car at high speed to a club. The club? This is the first time I'm going crazy out there, I'm going to reveal to the world that my heart has been broken so badly, I'm suffering and I'm not happy, then I'll make myself happy in my own way.

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I sat on the chair facing the bartender's desk. At least 2 bottles of Soju in front of me were empty, and one bottle that stayed half was in my grasp.

I wasn't drunk, I'm sure I wasn't drunk, I was still conscious and could see everything clearly even though my head was very heavy and collapsed on the table, I put the drink into the glass in this position.

My drink was 3 bottles clean but I can still remember how much my heart hurt Emil, I screamed, got angry, cursed, cried and then laughed.

Many men approached me but I easily chased them away because I threatened to hit them on the head with a drink bottle if they didn't leave.

My phone rang, I saw it because the vibration made my thigh uncomfortable, I kept the phone in the pocket of the jeans I was wearing.

Emil Calling,,,,, uh,,,,

"Hahahahaha,, did he call me? Wh why? Is he home yet? And lost the car I stole? That so?" I opened up indistinctly, then came back crying and cursing. I emphasize, I'm not drunk, only affected a little by alcohol.

I let the phone ring from Emil stop, then I went back to enjoying my drink and I put the phone on the table.

'Drtt,, drrtt,,,'

Emil came back calling, I was upset, why is it that when I try to have fun, he keeps bothering me? While he was having fun, I never bothered him. It's not fair, is it?

Never mind, I've finished three bottles of Soju, the maximum limit when I drink, let alone I still have to drive back home. The clock on the phone screen also showed at 3 am, it was time for me to go home.

"Okay, well my husband, this wife of yours is coming home now," I muttered the call from Emil without lifting him first.

I realize my path is a little shaky, maybe I'm a little drunk, well, just a little. I put the phone in my pants pocket and I took the car keys, walked towards the parking area with a heavy head. Then get in the car and fast forward it to get to the big house immediately.

'Shelf!'

'Berrreemm!'

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Can you feel where the wind is?

(Can you feel where the wind is?)

Can you feel it through

(Can you feel the blow)

All of the windows

(Through the windows)

Inside this room?

(In this room?)

‘Cause I wanna touch you baby

(Because I want to touch you, baby)

(And I want to feel you too)

I wanna see the sunrise

(I want to see the sunrise)

On your sins just me and you

(On top of your sins are only you and me)

Light it up, on the run

(Light on, on the run)

Let’s make love tonne

(Let's make love tonight)

Make it up, fall in love, try

(Do it, fall in love, try it)

But you’ll never be alone

(But you will never be alone)

I’ be with you from dusk till dawn

(I will be with you from dawn to sunset)

I’ be with you from dusk till dawn

(I will be with you from dawn to sunset)

Baby, I am right here

(Honey, I'm here)

I’ll hold you when things go wrong

(I'll hold you when things don't go well)

I’ be with you from dusk till dawn

(I will be with you from dawn to sunset)

I’ be with you from dusk till dawn

(I will be with you from dawn to sunset)

Baby, I am right here

(Darling, I'm here)

A song by Zayn called Dusk till down accompanied my journey. I also shouted following the lyrics for the sake of the song, ignoring the vibration I felt on the thigh because my phone was ringing again, surely Emil.

I reached into that phone because I couldn't take it anymore, I'd climb on him and I'd beat him up if I met him later.

I saw the screen on the phone, right, it was Emil. You maniac, when I'm not at home at this hour he's so excited to call me continuously, but if it's him who's not at home, then all he thinks is fine, all right, without thinking about my broken heart so badly, oh, maybe because we are currently living with the big O'clan family in that palace-like mansion, and Emil didn't want his family to know that I wasn't his family's dream daughter-in-law, a woman who drank and got drunk, or because of the car I stole? Aaahh,,, it seems like I am really drunk, why do I think of so many things just to take a call from her?

I was about to move my thumb on the phone screen to shift the green panel upwards, but my movement came to a halt when the light beam suddenly dazzled my eyes, making me lose focus and control, accompanied by the sound of a horn from a large truck and suddenly all became faint after I had heard a sound of a collision that hit the car that I was riding very hard.

It all happened suddenly.

I couldn't hear anything, there was just a deafening buzzing sound, I felt the thick liquid pass through my eyes and drip into my nose and mouth, my vision started to blur and there was a smiling father beside me, father? Why is Dad suddenly here? And he's sitting in the seat next to me? What the hell is he doing? When did he come?

"Dad,,," I'm weak. I didn't answer, just smiled warmly at me. He stretched out his hand, and I threw myself into my arms, and then I fell asleep quietly in his arms.

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