XIAO SHUXIANG'S

435 - Disruption III

Xiao Shuxiang never regretted the crimes he had committed in the past. It's just that he is always uncomfortable and often imagined when there is someone who cares for him.

All along, the most memorable among humans was Zhou Yuan. Although the Alchemist knew what Xiao Shuxiang was like, he was still well received.

Honey, in the end he's still alone. Zhou Yuan, the senior he so respected stood at the very front to oppose him. The hatred of the Alchemist was clearly the greatest, moreover until now Xiao Shuxiang could still feel the disappointment of the Alchemist to him.

He breathed a heavy breath and then smiled. There was nothing to explain about Zhou Yuan to Lan Guan Zhi, his senior was completely innocent. It was precisely a good thing for Zhou Yuan to tell Lan Guan Zhi to always be vigilant and stay away from him.

Xiao Shuxiang's hand seemed to tremble slightly as he held the ledge's edge, his feeling was really uncomfortable, he wanted to get out of here immediately.

If Lan Guan Zhi alone could behave this way to him, he would no longer need to take into consideration the opinions of others towards him, all of them were very clear.

Xiao Shuxiang felt a pain in his throat, he was the one who was wrong. To think that if you keep moving forward and realizing the wishes of Shouxing who asked him to live well will make others accept it.

In fact, if he says he really lives life well even though his past remains unacceptable. He took many lives, separated the child from his parents, and separated the teacher from his students.

Thinking more and more, he really shouldn't be in this kind of environment. Her biggest secret has not even been revealed, and if it gets discovered even-impossible her friends want to stand next to her.

".. Your kindness can't even cover up the fact that you've taken their innocent lives..!"

"I lost my parents and teachers because of you! Even if the world ends, I will never forgive you..!"

"The monster that killed his own parents has no right to live, you must die Shuxiang..!"

"I never want to live under the same roof of the sky as the slaughterers of my entire family. Today too, between your death or mine..!"

Xiao Shuxiang's head was a little sore, his ears were buzzing with sounds from the past that he shouldn't have remembered. He was shocked when he felt a touch on his hand.

!!

Xiao Shuxiang was as if he had just woken up, he looked at his good friend's face filled with calmness. He slowly withdrew his hand but the grip that bound him felt even stronger.

"Lan Zhi's.."

"Your voice is shaking, are you okay?" Lan Guan Zhi was sure that this good friend of his had not listened to his story about Zhou Yuan since earlier, Xiao Shuxiang was as if immersed in his own thoughts.

"not good.. I have never been this bad before," Xiao Shuxiang said honestly, he exhaled and started looking straight ahead.

".. Zhou Yuan is my senior and best friend. We didn't have much time together, but you could say I believed him. Only one mistake made us face to face at the tip of the sword.. Differences of opinion."

Lan Guan Zhi listened to Xiao Shuxiang's story carefully. He unhesitatingly said that he agreed with Zhou Yuan. His good friend wanted to kill all cultivators in order to bring about peace was unjustified.

Xiao Shuxiang also agreed, after all realizing peace was just an excuse and that was what he believed. At that time he did not know the truth, that his figure was nothing but a tool for the creatures of the cursed world.

At first he wanted to live life well with his friends, but then Lumiere came and reminded him of his identity. No matter how much he tried, he could not deny the fact that he was not part of a human being.

Xiao Shuxiang tried not to be affected, but upon seeing his good friend's attitude - something in his heart started to waver again.

".. Lan Zhi, the more I think about it.. I am the worst person. Even at this point, I still haven't found anything I can be proud of as kindness. It doesn't feel like anything at all,"

Lan Guan Zhi looked at the black-clothed young man beside him. He felt his best friend was drunk until he started talking. He reached out and pinched Xiao Shuxiang's cheek hard until the friend whimpered.

!!

Xiao Shuxiang was completely shocked by the attack just now. He could feel the heat and pain on his cheeks, it was unexpected that Lan Guan Zhi could behave like this.

"Are you satisfied?"

"Lan Zhi's.. You're so fucking. I thought it was a bee sting.. Ssh.. Ouch.." Xiao Shuxiang rubbed his cheeks, he was sure that his cheeks had turned red.

Lan Guan Zhi snorted, "You have great regeneration, the pain will soon disappear."

"Huh, so you used that to torture me? Greatable.. That's grand.. I didn't think a Lan Guan Zhi could be this subtle,"

"You start again. You shouldn't drink much. Now get some rest,"

Lan Guan Zhi held onto Xiao Shuxiang's arm and pulled the young man inside. It was late so they had to go to bed.

"Lan Zhi, I'm not drunk at all, not sleepy. I don't want to sleep yet, I still want to talk to you." Xiao Shuxiang rebelled, but still he was forcibly withdrawn by his good friend.

"I will say frankly, this will be my longest speech so listen well." Lan Guan Zhi's voice was still calm, yet contained firmness and full of dignity in it.

Xiao Shuxiang no longer rebelled, especially when he was sitting on the edge of the bed.

Lan Guan Zhi sat down next to his friend and spoke again. His facial expressions and eyes were very solemn.

Lan Guan Zhi patted Xiao Shuxiang's arm and continued his remark. He said that no matter what his good friend's past was like, Xiao Shuxiang was still Xiao Shuxiang. A precious friend to him.

".. You don't know what good you've ever done, but you seem to forget that many people have confessed to you. They consider you part of the family, so don't think you're a stranger."

"Lan Zhi's.."

"Immortal.. Senior Yuan does hate you, he is vengeful because you have slaughtered all members of his sect. However, he could never hold a grudge against you for too long. Especially after everything you have done together, a grudge in his heart.. Slowly fade away."

!!

Lan Guan Zhi gasped when he saw a drop of water falling on one of Xiao Shuxiang's cheeks. He didn't say anything sad, but somehow his best friend was shedding tears.

"Shuxiang, please,"

"What..?" Xiao Shuxiang rubbed his cheek with the finger of his right hand, he also gasped at the sight of his wet fingertip. "Why am I crying?"

"If you don't know why you're crying, then how can I give you an answer?"

Xiao Shuxiang nodded slowly, he himself did not know what was happening until his eyes suddenly dripped with water.

There was no way this monstrous Dragon Emperor Arak influence could make him cry, he had even just drank a few gulps.

"Then you don't have to care, continue your story. What else did he tell you?"

"He asked me to take care of you. You can't be left alone. No matter what happens, I have to stay with you."

Xiao Shuxiang looked at Lan Guan Zhi's face carefully. Although now the age in his life is younger than his best friend, but the truth is he is the oldest. Lan Guan Zhi was still the kid yesterday who had only known him, but the constancy of the youth was already too great.

"Lan Zhi, you don't have to do what Senior Zhou told you. He gave you a very hard task, you don't have to.."

"Although without being asked, I will still be with you. You're worried about getting married. Miss Ling alone, can't handle you alone."

Xiao Shuxiang wanted to protest, he was not a child to be guarded let alone not to be left alone. But the speech of the young man beside him was too serious and was really not joking.

"This time you did talk more Lan'Er.." Xiao Shuxiang smiled, ".. What if I have a child and I'll betrothed you? You want to, right? So we can stay together. You can call me 'Father-in-Law' from now on,"

"I'm not polite. You better get some sleep," Lan Guan Zhi got up from her seat and noticed her good friend who started to lie down.

"I still want to talk.." Xiao Shuxiang muttered, he kicked his leg until his shoe came off. His manner made Lan Guan Zhi shake his head.

"Lan Zhi, why don't you sleep. Come here," Xiao Shuxiang patted the other side of the bed, he asked Lan Guan Zhi to lie down beside him.

"No need, the bed is too narrow for two people. I can occupy another room,"

"But this is your room. And again, I don't move much while sleeping. So come here, don't tell me you're afraid of me hugging?"

Xiao Shuxiang started again. Although he had closed his eyes, but still he was able to search for topics of conversation with his best friend.

Lan Guan Zhi's two hands clenched as she tried to calm herself down. His ears were hot when he heard Xiao Shuxiang who was so chatty while keeping his eyes closed.

"Lan Zhi's.. Sure you don't want to come here?"

"No. Lan Xiao is not there."

"You only want to sleep with me when there's that Moon Tiger..? Well yeah.. Lan Xiao indeed had soft fur,"

"Your snoring is slightly reduced when Lan Xiao is around."

Xiao Shuxiang nodded slowly. He did not move much while sleeping, you could say his sleeping position was always on his back like a dead person. It's just that his snoring is often very loud and disturbing.

"Don't talk anymore.." Lan Guan Zhi helped envelop his good friend, ".. You have an appointment tomorrow with Miss Ling. The sword hasn't you returned it yet?"

"You're right. I have to get up tomorrow. But are you sure you want to sleep in another room? I really won't hug you, really. You don't be afraid.."

"It's not you, I'm afraid to hold you." Lan Guan Zhi covered Xiao Shuxiang's face and smothered him with anxiety. He then walked away after mistreating his best friend as a shameless person.

Xiao Shuxiang had just flicked his blanket when he heard the sound of the door being shifted. Lan Guan Zhi had already come out and left himself in this room alone.

He stared at the ceiling of the room while exhaling softly, "Lumiere's words were very influential. Ever since I met him, my mind started to get a little messed up. He's bullies. Almost, I don't trust my own friends."

Xiao Shuxiang yawned while going back to sleep, he was unwilling to think of anything for now, let alone grieving Lan Guan Zhi who had previously pressed down on his face in dismay.

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