Wife Unvalued

CHAPTER 29 - Not All

Starting from his request to be given time alone at the hotel, it turned out to continue for days after they returned home. Not playing riled up Bima saw Lengkara who was silent and cold to her.

There was nothing Lengkara did, but her eyes explained that she was really tired. Since that day, the day he met Yudha, there was no longer Lengkara who always commented on the warm smile if he came home, there was no laughter when he saw something funny on television.

In fact, something that managed to make Bima laugh even in the eyes of Lengkara was not funny at all. Several times Bima noticed, Lengkara often deliberately closed himself even ignored the voice call from anyone.

When asked, he answered, but only two words. His lips pale as if lacking blood, Bima did not have the heart and felt guilty seeing the change of his wife. Yes, however, at this time Lengkara is his wife, although Bima does not know maybe an hour ahead his status will change.

"You sick?" bima asked slowly, just wanted to ask must be so careful because he was worried that the woman suddenly cried like yesterday.

"No."

His voice was hoarse, sounding weak and he shook his head slowly in front of Bima who was now asking him. Since morning, the position of Lengkara remained there, what head does not hurt, Bima thought.

"I met papa this afternoon" said Bima as she loosened her tie.

"Then?"

"He asked about you ... Papa's worried, Ra."

"I'm fine, no need to think about it" said Lengkara moved up and reached out to ask for Bima's dirty clothes.

Only to that extent, I don't know what makes Lengkara still survive related obligations. It looked so forced, but it did not leave him. Bima did not know how much she was crying today, but clearly Lengkara's eyelids were so swollen.

"Don't force it, your heart hurts more and more."

Tonight Bima refused Lengkara's hand, the man passed away leaving Lengkara to the bathroom. Back, Bima's speech made Lengkara's heart more chaotic. He made a mistake like that, the fact that the advice of his Friend when he contacted at that time could not be done fully Lengkara.

Her heart was still heavy, Lengkara knew Bima's status was her husband. He understands that the father has the right to be completely, but living this kind of thing is too hard and he cannot lie to himself.

"Yudha is the test of love, not your soul mate, Lengkara."

"Marriage to a loved one is a dream, but loving a married couple is a duty."

Sounds easy, very easy for those who do not experience it. That advice does not mean that Lengkara does not listen, for the past few days he has tried. Trying to accept Bima as her husband, but still Lengkara's little heart is a little hypocritical about this.

All at once, without approval he had to accept his destiny. As someone who is heart clear he is powerless, the soul of Lengkara may indeed need time as Yudha said, as long as he is not sure. Just as Yudha was not sure she could recover, so was Lengkara.

You can imagine how sick he is, he will live alone with a man who has a face like Yudha. Moreover, during the relationship Yudha never hurt, even their beautiful ideals were in sight, clearly his heart was broken when the facts were not as beautiful as his shadow.

Lengkara did not even have time to take care of his skin in front of the mirror like before. How long will he be, three weeks? Three months? Or the next three years? Bima did not know how strong Lengkara forced his heart.

Just like Lengkara, Bima's mind is also not in accordance with what he does. His eyes were indeed staring at the monitor, but Bima's mind was not at all. Since then he stole Lengkara's eyes through the tail of his eyes, looking at the wife who was sitting on the edge of the bed while playing the tip of his hair.

"Mas Bima ...."

"Hm? Why, Ra?"

Very rare, Lengkara called the name Bima clearly. The man stopped his activities immediately, as Bima approached Lengkara who was sitting on the edge of the bed. Either Bima's eyes were wrong or it was, which clearly the woman seemed to tremble as she sat in front of Lengkara.

However, it only happened briefly because a few seconds later he was made to vibrate. It was the second time, but this time he realized who was in front of him. Obviously, Bima's heart beats twice as fast when Lengkara put his hand on Bima's neck.

"Lengkara ... realize what you're doing?"

"Hm, you know, you have full rights over me, don't you?" Between conscious and unconscious in fact, his wistful eyes and Lengkara's quivering voice can explain if he is very sick.

Lying if Bima does not pound is treated like this, his heart is not scratchy, especially when Lengkara erodes the distance as if allowing Bima to touch it.

"Isn't this what you want? Papa, Yudha and the others did too?" lirih Lengkara still with tears that he could not bear.

The alignment of Lengkara seems to be disturbed, Bima's eyes bulged when Lengkara landed a kiss on his lips. The salt that Bima felt was the tears of Lengkara, as fast as possible Bima pushed Lengkara's body before it was carried away by the atmosphere.

"Why? Don't you want me too?"

"Just leave Alexandria .. Can I have a minute to talk?"

"Hm, talk."

"I thought a thousand times, even if you are like this but you will never be whole, really," said Bima for a moment to cut off, he needed more strength to continue.

"For that, from this second ...."

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- To Be Continued