
"Bima," heed Yudha hoped Bima would not continue his speech.
"Why, Yudha? I'm just telling you how strong I am .. In fact, I can hold my hunger in locked rooms and papa enjoys time with stepmom when he promises to go with me."
Long time no see, once met an Atmadjaya made silent by his son. Bima little who never had time to Bu Seruni kiss before leaving and did not have the power to shout asking his mother back is now the most dangerous enemy for Papa Atma.
Hatred seemed to have fused in Bima's bloodstream, especially after the incident that morning. The morning they fought and Papa Atma dragged Lengkara which was considered as a trigger for the change in attitude of his two sons.
"Don't pretend to worry, Pa. I'm amused, so Papa just go home."
That is the sentence Bima said when Papa Atma asked about his condition. Maybe because it is used to being ignored, Bima became uncomfortable when Papa Atma showed attention.
Honestly, his son's response made Papa Atma's eyes heat up. His heart was pounding incoherently with a tightly clenched hand. He was angry, but where? It's clear it's all his fault.
For the first time after decades of fatherhood, Papa Atma felt devastated by the rebellion of Bima. Not so obvious, there was no Bima who shouted or snapped, but Bima who looked cold was so painful.
No power continues to be there, Papa Atma passed out on the grounds of wanting to find the wind, while looking for a place to arrange himself. All these years he had educated Bima so hard, he who was busy and had only so short a time sometimes missed a lot about his son.
Including pain that is left, without effort to the hospital. Not what he wanted, but at that time Papa Atma knew his son was very well. All his mistakes were too trusting in Gilsa to often ignore Bima just because of the woman's speech.
"You really hate papa, Bima?"
In solitude, Papa Atma asked while staring at the nanar without direction. Hearing his confession earlier, time seemed to bring Papa Atma into the past. The time when young Atmadja who often sigh long because it is always late again.
"A late one more time? Bima has slept .. We are both just walking!!"
"yes talk? I was faster than yesterday" said the handsome man, staring at his wrist, reneging on a promise with his son.
"Hm, a little late."
"Tomorrow how? Poor Bima sleep .. I try faster tomorrow," said Atma who then made his wife's face suddenly changed.
"I'm ready, Mas, already beautiful like this why fail anyway? Not necessarily mas tomorrow is not busy, Bima next time yes," whine Gilsa wrestled spoiled in the arms of Atmadja until finally collapsed as well.
For years Bima was silent and he seemed to not care, today Papa Atma knows that the night Bima did not sleep, but held hunger and the memory was embedded in the memory of Bima.
Not for a moment, decades he was quiet and stupid Atma just believe. It's a shame he doesn't have a face in front of his ex-wife. In fact, to go back into the nursery room Bima he was no longer powerful.
He will repeat even if he is not on the side of Bima. Previously he had uttered, and Bima just stared flat as if not sincere, yes he knew Bima was unusually angry.
Still with a million regrets in his heart, Papa Atma closed his eyes and regulated his breathing. He fell asleep, the obedient Bima turned out to hold a million resentments, very clever Bima hide those feelings.
"I'm sorry Bima said, I hope you don't hate my son more and more with his attitude today."
That voice, Papa Atma's eyes opened slowly when he heard a familiar voice in his ears. Although he had not heard for a long time because he continued to avoid, now Papa Atma again heard his ex-wife talk a little long.
Just like Bima, her way of speaking seemed cold and a little unfriendly. Papa Atma ventured to look at the beautiful eyes of Seruni, eyes that had once given him coolness when tired of arranging the future.
"My five sons too, where may I hate him, Runi," Papa Atma replied sounding lethargic.
"But it seems like a person like you really doesn't deserve to be called a father. I told you right from the start that I brought them, but your haughty attitude is too demeaning to me," said Bu Seruni staring intently at the eyes of the eagle Atma who was once he dreamed.
"I don't know if it ends up like this" replied Atma so quietly as she rubbed her face rough.
"I'm the fool!! Why did that time believe you. If only I had been more stubborn, maybe Bima would not have been a victim and stuck in the hell you created with that woman."
After Bima, now his mother attacked Papa Atma so that the man was difficult to talk. Not only did Bima seem to pull out her fangs, the woman did too.
"I didn't create hell."
"You don't think, in fact it's different .. but I can understand that, because it's a demon like the two of you that might create a paradise for my son" Bu Seruni concluded later, he was satisfied to see Atmadja who had thrown it away for a while after giving birth was now silent as if it no longer had the slightest power.
"Yes, you're right!! A demon like me can't possibly create a paradise for anyone, including you .. I'm sorry, Seruni." The words flowed, but he had no plans to apologize.
"I'm sorry to Bima, not to me."
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- To Be Continued