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Hi guys ..

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You guys, have you ever felt empty ? Not sad and not sad either .. Rich bland so, afternoon twinkling but nemu malem overthinking lonely restless.

11 Years ago, I was still a 3rd year Junior High School met doi who finally became a husband and became a father for my two children. Feels ? Nano nano asem sweet bitter, the first 5 years I still love dead just as doi crazy. The next year my feelings faded with the trust I had in my heart. Doi cheating, doi justi I slam bones for a living, doi rarely help me take care of children² who are toddlers.

I am now 24 years old. I'm an ambitious girl, a lot of dreams, and maybe insightful enough for one thing that I'm proud of haha. I feel that because I used to be accepted at the Faculty of Medicine, Health Analyst and Faculty of Law but because of economic factors parents can not be biyain because my sister² also ngadepin graduation at that time. I quit for a year to go to college on my own. I work while married.

At first everything was fun, doi hardworking, do not choose work that is not important halal prestige. But since I work doi more arbitrarily because I feel my income is enough to meet the needs of the family. Though if I clearly I was flabbergasted every day .. Tired !

After a long journey, I finally get to study again at one of the private universities majoring in public administration, deviating from the ideals that I have pursued since childhood, namely work in the world of health. At that time I just hoped for a degree to improve my life. I am tired of being a salesman, every day the heat of the rain on the streets riding a motorcycle alone until the placement that I sometimes stray.

But my struggle for the title only lasted two years, Allah SWT love me trust, I have a beautiful little angel. MashaaAllah since I had him work harder, he survived me work until 9 months because I took leave exactly 5 days before the birth. Thank you, already strengthen mami in a way

I think after having a baby, my relationship with doi will improve in fact even worse until the stage I turned bright. She cheated on me from my 7 months pregnant. He makes me twisted millions of rupiah debt to help his business capital that turns out to be nonsense because he abisin make jalan² as a girl when I take care of babies while working.

After all I sold him, I worked until 9 months pregnant, after 3 months I immediately worked again to meet the needs and pay the debt, after 3 months, I can't go to college because I don't have any more fees. My dreams, my ideals, I GRAVE to replace the position he should make a living. And he even happy² huray² out there happy other women with the results of my jeripayah. Pain .. !

I often ask where I am lacking ? Physically I'm quite attractive, I'm independent, I'm quite a pinter, I'm a fighter, I love doi descent and I'm sincere.

Next, I feel like I'm all alone. I got pregnant without attention, I had a baby she lived-living when honestly I cape really, I have to wake up early for work, I came home late afternoon just to take a bath already have to take care of the baby again. My energy is drained, my mentality is shaken. Really thought I😭

The peak, doi bring run barang² I continue to doi sell for whatever. Finally I can not stand, I sued doi right in January this year at the age of my baby who was just 14 months. Funny again native🤗

I think after this, I will be happy. Reaching a dream that I postponed for a long time, I want to live like a time plan I have not been the same doi. Actually .. I walk but I'm empty.

Every malem I look at the face of my son, I want the time when his father is there although rare but my son can mgerasain in kelonin the same father in the east invited hahahihi. I feel guilty for not being able to attend a whole family for my son.

Sometimes there are also nights that I keep every time the same doi. When we were in the city of people, doi became a cleaner² garden people paid 30 thousand a day back bring wood to make a campfire in front of the contract. We chat nggalor ngidul until the middle of the mallem while looking at the plane in the sky that wants to take off or just fly because it used to deket the airport. Or I inget doi buyin I pickled fish that I know doi have not eaten until I sisain half. Simple things are rich, in difficult times but I am happy.

11 Years, not a minute for me. Although there are people who fill my days after him, but there is always a separate room where the figure of him I concluded there along with all our pleasant memories from starting a boy until having a boy. Honestly until now I still nangisin him, I cook me inget him who often masakin I fried rice, fried rice, I drove me inget him who was angry² when I learned to drive pas doi so driver because of the principle of doi although my girl should all can, doi, until fitting tantrum child I want him even though we never past this time together but I want because my mind says "Where Lo ? I need Lo. See your fussy child may miss the same Lo "I think he is on my side helping my son, yes play the role of a father.

As it turns out, every choice always has its consequences. What I see is beautiful, not all is beautiful. Apart from him, one of my burdens was lost but part of my heart was also lost .. He made such deep memories for me. Even with a million mistakes I could never hate him.

Maybe someone immediately thought "reverse again if there is still a sense .. "

And for this one thing with confidence and firmly I can not and will not if not true² destiny that brings me to him again.

If you ask why ? I can only answer, I'm sorry he I don't hate him but just as rich as he is good memories of me that I can't forget, so also with my bad memories about him.

In a gini situation, I can only enjoy every break and wound. I hugged what still survives in me, I have to keep 'inner' for my son. For me, love does not require me to survive in a toxic relationship. Maybe after I'm out of the comfort zone, I feel empty but this is better than me dying slowly in an already unhealthy relationship. I'm alive, I'm still working, I can still take care of the kids. That's enough .. At least though destroyed I can still survive whereas if I forced with him I am not so sure I still have hope for life.

Why am I telling my life story here ? Because I still want to be healthy, I have to spill my head, I still have to work hard to pay the debt that is still as small as possible which hopefully God can make next year can be paid off so I can go to college again. After that, I want to live let my dream become a doctor disappear let me be rich giman later that is important I want to be useful for myself also for children for the family. I want to enjoy life, enjoy the results of my own dried rich others who can just take an annual vacation or a walk to the playground every half payday. I want it to be simple but heavy for me.

For those of you whose fate is more fortunate, given a loyal and responsible partner or given more sustenance to be enjoyed. Don't forget to always be grateful .. The author always prays that you always succeed through dark times because this is the world, as rich as any human being will definitely find darkness in his life. I pray you always find light in the dark, find the way even if trapped, and happy always in any state of affairs

Greetings and thanks readers.