Widow Flower Season 2 (Tarnoda )

Self-conscious

In the afternoon.

Zahra blinked her eyes as the door to their room was knocked from the outside. He was still sleepy and forced to wake up.

''Hem... What time is this??'' muttered Zahra while releasing Rayyan's embrace from her body.

Slowly Zahra lowered Rayyan's hand, but Rayyan was surprised. He opened his eyes. ''Uh ''eh? Are you awake? What time is it?'' ask Rayyan.

He sat up at the head of the bed. Zahra passed by to open the door. ''Mama?''

Mama Rani smiled, Just woke up?''

Zahra nodded. ''Yes, I'm so sleepy Ma. What's wrong Ma? need something??'' zahra asked with a confused look on her face.

Mama Rani chuckles. ''No. ''No.. My mom needs nothing. Just ngingetin you two just so that. wake up, shower and pray ashar. It's five o'clock past thirty. Ashar's hunt is over.''

Zahra surprised. ''Iyakah?? Abaghfirullah!! Yes, Zahra took a shower, Ma? Brother Rayyan just woke up.''

Mama Rani chuckled and nodded. ''Yes already, take a shower. Remember Mama's message, son??''

Zahra nodded, after which she immediately went back to her room and did not find Rayyan in their bed. Zahra breathed.

''I took a shower in the room next door. All ashar prayers. It is not appropriate that I who are despicable should pray with Kak Rayyan. I'm self-conscious. I can't be touched by him.'' Lirih Zahra was so sad.

There was a sense of tightness in the heart when Mama Rani last afternoon remembered her about this. It hurts so much. Sleep together but can't touch more of the husband.

Zahra took a towel and a change of clothes. After her, she came out of the room to coincide with Rayyan who was just ready to take a bath.

He was looking for Zahra. Though earlier during the bath, still heard the voice of Zahra talking to Mama Rani. ''Where is Zahra? Did you come out with Mama Rani?? Uh, where the hell is he? Prayer in this house musholla? All right, I'll just go there.'' he muttered to himself.

In haste he wears clothes and sarongs to perform the ashar prayer which is almost out of time.

Rayyan came out of the room and headed to Mushola Zahra's house which was at the left end of her house. Sticking with the wall space Opa Angga and Oma Dewi.

Arriving at Zahra's musholla house, there was no one there. He's just alone. Rayan immediately performed the Ashar prayer. He knows, if Zahra's not going anywhere.

He can guess. If not to the kitchen, definitely to the garden behind their house which was deliberately made koalm koi fish by Papa Reza to Stop by Rani. A mini garden for the wife.

Fifteen minutes passed.

The girl did not see the nose. I wanted to ask, but I was embarrassed. Better shut up, thought Rayyan.

Zahra was in the next room. The guest room. From the Ashar prayer to the Maghrib prayer he did not come out of the room. He was very fervent in praying and asking forgiveness for all the sins he had committed with the young man.

Zahra was there anyway. Just try, Zahra insisted on refusing and kicking the heirloom of the man, surely he would not be tarnished.

Zahra was crying bitterly. The prayer rug where he prostrated was wet with his tears. Zahra cried. His story and Rayyan's are just beginning, but with her state of being imperfect.

''Hiks... hiks.. Who am I for him? I don't deserve to be with her. Let alone to be his wife, even touching her he refused. I'm self-conscious. I am dirty. Not worth it to you. Hiks.. if .. hiks. I don't deserve to be with her. But I can what? Aaaaa...'' Zahra was sobbed in her prayer mat after she both prayed Maghrib.

Rayyan is looking for Zahra. Until dinner, there was none. Just panic. But Mama Rani calms her.

''Zahra, how come there's no Ma? Rayyan look for it first huh?'' rayyan said to Mana Wednesday so worried.

Papa Reza smiled, Zahra is not going anywhere. She is only repenting to be worthy and worthy to be your wife. Be patient waiting for her, son. Just take the food to the room. Force him to eat if he doesn't want to. This week, his eating is erratic. Go awayl. In a moment, he'll be back in your room. Zahra is not going anywhere, said Papa Reza deliberately to calm Rayyan's mind.

Papa Reza knows that Zahra is in the next room. Because he had heard a sobbing from behind the tightly closed room.

Rayyan nodded obediently. He left with a tray of rice for Zahra's dinner. Go into their room and put the tray on the nightstand.

While waiting for Zahra to come, Rayyan opened the school bag and repeated the lesson for a retrial tomorrow. Given about the repetition, there was someone who always criticized him about the answer of the repetition.

But .. for tomorrow, Rayyan doesn't guarantee. If the young man goes to school. Considering that he was so badly injured. I don't know what's going on with that young man now, Rayyan doesn't know.

Rayyan was busy with her schoolwork. Zahra is busy crying over her destiny.

Suicide but fear of sin. Why die so soon, if given the opportunity to live and repent? This is what happened to Zahra today.

Rayyan did not realize, if she fell asleep again after the prayer earlier. He was tired of waiting for Zahra. But Zahra never came.

Zahra is currently in the kitchen. He was having a late dinner. It's always like that. It's not that he doesn't want to eat together. It's just that, he realized he did not deserve to sit with his family again after he was found not holy anymore.

All week. Zahra only eats once a day. That was when his stomach was really hungry. Otherwise, he would rather sleep on his alphabet until tomorrow.

''Forgive me, brother, from tonight on, I will not sleep with you again. I have to be self-conscious, if I don't deserve to be with you. You accepted me because you had to. I know it's brother. And I totally understand. I will learn to live without depending on you. Because, when I leave later, I don't want to leave a wound in your heart that is so deep because of my actions. I'm sorry Rayyan, this is the best for us. Let it get like this. To the point where, I was proven pregnant. It contains flesh blood.''