WHEN I MISS PRAYER

Episode 69 - Determination

It is not easy to make your heart believe that you truly love. In the midst of anxiety, you affirm about the content of the heart that I am not in. But in calmness, you teased with a reassuring attitude as if you accepted my existence.

In the evening Asham met Salwa in the house, with the intention of giving the file that Nadia entrusted.

"is there again, bang fun ?" Ask Salwa.

"ngga. Mhh. you have not taught. these few days." Saying, nervous.

"i've told the zidan who is in charge of the teaching attendance." Evidently.

"oh, yasuda. Then I'll go home." Asyam.

"please." The reply.

Asyam turned around and set foot to return home. Salwa left without waiting for Asham. Before opening the door, Asham once turned to Salwa. But no longer found the person he wanted to see. Not a hint of Salwa's gaze was left to Asham that night.

"what is it with my heart ? like there's always something pulling me closer to Salwa." Ashyam.

Either guilt or indeed the heart that began to be interested in the figure sought. When the heart has found but cannot have, will not the heart begin to seek a substitute. Asthma is love at first sight that Asyam has ever felt. But Asyam cannot have it.

Tok..

"yes for a minute." Asham rushed to open the door that was still locked.

The beautiful girl in front of her door became her morning welcome. There was a happy face and a big smile when he found Salwa in front of him.

"bu'e there, bang assyam ?" It was the question that broke Asham's daydream.

"yes, there's." The answer.

"uh. cah ayu." Said Bu Nurlela approaching.

"mom, there's a mother's seat." Said Salwa who gave the Arrangement to Bu Nurlela.

"what is this ?" Ask Bu Nurlela happily.

"Oport is fried." Answer Salwa.

"thank you, kid. Ngerepotin early in the morning." Said Bu Nurlela.

"are you cooking ?" Ask Bu Nurlela.

"the mother who cooks." Answer Salwa.

"lie, you must be the one cooking, right ?" Bu Nurlela's words made Salwa smile in embarrassment.

"Assyam likes your cooking. It's good to say." Said Bu Nurlela who made Salwa raise his gaze to Asham.

"mother.. " Sayam, shame.

"i'm going home, Mom. Go to work." Salwa.

"thank you, yeah." Asyam.

Salwa replied with a nod.

"so don't be rude, don't mess with someone who's good to you." Said Bu Nurlela while arranging the bushel on the table.

"yes, ma'am." Answer Asham.

"from mba salwa huh, ma'am ?" Liya asked while taking the fry.

"mba is good, the cooking is good." Nuhah said while eating fried food.

"uh, your sisters just like it." Said Bu Nurlela.

"when ? bu'e's getting older, want to see the kids bu'e marry, want to have grandchildren." Said Bu Nurlela.

Asyam just fell silent, bowed while enjoying his morning breakfast. The more you give up Asthma, the more Asyam thinks back about someone who will settle down in the heart. There was no girl who could really move her heart to resolve.

While walking leisurely towards his workplace, Asham thought about the words of his mother. A soul mate is a secret of God, but that does not mean just waiting quietly. Efforts must still be deployed in order to get maximum results, but there must be no coercion. Prayers that must continue to be extended, efforts that must be maximized, and mental that must be prepared.

From today, Asham will establish the heart about the love that will be sought.

"in any case, why is also far away looking. There are also those near." Said Nadia while glancing at Salwa.

Nadia was enjoying the meatballs at the roadside with Salwa, Liya and Asma.

"yes.. Not to be rushed, mba. But maybe so that the mas asyam prepare and think about it, mba." Liya.

"believe me, your brother must have thought about that. He must be preparing, too." Asthma Vocabulary.

Salwa immediately raised her gaze, as if Asma knew all about Asham than anything else.

"is he the same story as you ?" Ask Nadia.

"for what ? who am I ? until he has the right to know all his business." Reply Asthma with a smile.

"Liya's been thinking about going that way ?" Ask Asma.

"not yet, mba." Answer, shame.

"Marriage is not just about having a partner, it's not just about beautiful things. Married that, a lot of twists and turns. Even if you feel that your marriage is calm. Waves can come at any time to strike." Asthma was staring at her food.

"So, you should prepare yourself is very important in welcoming the wedding gate. Because that's the beginning of your real life." Continue while looking at all.

"young, liya was scared." Liya.

"don't be afraid dong. God is always with you." Smell with a smile while holding Liya's hand.

"Salwa and Nadia also seem to be ready. You can apply to Asyam's bang." Canda Asthma.

"asmaaa. You know my heart already holds a name." Said Nadia while holding a fork in her hand.

"haha.."

"if mba salwa how ?" Ask Liya.

Salwa fell silent and looked at Liya.

"salwa will open your heart to those who come to ask for it." Smoke dilutes the atmosphere.

"liya. Without you asking, you would know the answer." Salwa.

"but you have to know, the heart is not the place for a game. I won't hurt my heart with the same wound the second time." Rigorously.

"my wish to be loved by the one I love, I have buried deeply. I will not be consumed by her sweet attitude without certainty." Evidently.

Liya was surprised to hear Salwa's explanation which seemed to vent her anger that had been stifled. Asma felt guilty about her words that triggered tension amid casual chatter this afternoon.

"mmh. sorry yes. I didn't mean to." Asma said, hesitating while staring at the bowed Salwa.

"mmh. yaudah continued. This Abis we buy ice let adem. Hehe.." Nadia said, nervous.

"sorry, yes. Mba Salwa's." Said Liya who directly ate meatballs.

Responding to something you want to be buried in and forget. It feels claustrophobic. When you want to forget, but as if the universe does not support through the people around you. Either this becomes the answer or just a test to shake.

Although honestly the heart is determined to mengikhlaskan not forget. Be sincere with all the provisions that will either be happy or painful. Receive with a new sheet or release with the rest of love still embedded. Just waiting for the time to get the fate that awaited.

"weekk.. "

"Asma ? why ?" Ask Nadia.

"don't know, suddenly nausea." The answer.

"are you filling in again ?" Ask Nadia.

"fill what. I catch a cold this time." Asthma Vocabulary.

"i'm coming home, this is over. No more walking with you." Her speech.

"want me anther ?" Ask Salwa.

"do it, sal. I'll have to pick you up here." The answer.

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