
Two weeks have passed. I haven't even been in a literature club room since that first day of school. Ai kept asking me to join the club but my laziness has taken over again.
I'm just afraid, I'm afraid if I fail again like before. Destiny always thwarted my efforts or even my plans. I'm tired of trying again. Whatever my future will be like.
{Kaito do you want to enter the club today?}
{Kaito are you sick?}
{I wait ya Kaito}
{Kaito why not sign in again?}
A series of chats from Ai that I did not reply to. I just read it and don't know what to type. Now I'm just a tree growing in the middle of the desert. Just waiting for the time, I will definitely die.
Occasionally, I have the intention to commit suicide. But I'm still too scared to die. And also every time I see Hanabi's face, I always lower my intentions. This morning the feeling of laziness still hangs in my heart. I just want to skip today.
Whatever I want in the future ...
"Sister!!!. .. wake up *****!!!",
Plaque~
Hanabi yelled and slapped my cheek many times. In the end, I had to open both my eyes.
"Hmm .. yes ...," I rubbed my eyes and sat on the bed.
"So don't want to skip it? .. If today's brother truant I also truant!" threaten her with an upset face.
"Gak stunt also left ...," I looked at the clock on my phone and tried to give a reasonable excuse.
"Sample******!!. .. no need to have breakfast ... The important thing is to leave first!!" Hanabi kept pulling my hand and forcing me to go to school today.
"Cepet cepet cepet cepet!!" Hanabi pushed me and continued to force me to immediately enter the bathroom.
Bruak!!
"I wait in front of the bathroom door .. If you don't come out I won't go to school either" he said after I entered the bathroom.
In the end, I took a shower and put on my school uniform and there was no reason for me to skip today. Because it's not too cold today I'm just wearing a white shirt and a tie to school.
"Nih ... I made sandwich ... eaten on the road!!" Said Hanabi while giving me the sandwich she had just made.
"Heart up!!" Hanabi then ran towards her school.
I directly devoured the sandwich made by Hanabi and continued my steps to go to school. I'm a little upset about not being able to skip today. Not without reason, I skipped school to continue the online novel on my personal website.
Yes .. maybe tomorrow I can skip ...
A few minutes later, I arrived at the school gate. It turned out I wasn't too late even though I left a little longer. I tried to throw away my laziness and put my foot forward and into the school building.
When I just passed the entrance of the school building. I saw Ai walking a few steps ahead of me. I'd better not call him, because he won't hear me.
"All deaf girls pass through the tuh ..."
"Basic cewe defect ..."
"Free too .. he will not be horrified"
"Hahaha .. yes ... is he a budek ..."
Conversation of a group of third-grade girls standing in the school corridor. They knew Ai was deaf. People like Ai will not be able to live freely in this school. Ai will not be free from the bully of a naughty third-grade child.
It's up .. It's not me they're teasing ..
Ai did not respond to the insults at all. So she's a really deaf girl. Where there may be people whose facial features are not changed at all and still smile when they hear themselves humbled.
Ai stopped in front of the classroom door and turned towards me with that smile.
"For Kaito!", he said kindly.
Again, I was glued to that smile. Even so I still tried to ignore him and just nodded in response to his greeting. Anyway if I answer him he won't hear me.
We both went to class together. The class conditions were already very crowded and I again heard this noise that my fake hated.
"For Kaito!! ... Did you go together?" Ask Raku from his stool.
I ignored him and immediately sat in my chair. Without a word, Ai also sat beside me. A boring day is about to start in a few minutes.
I'm still confused thinking I'm going to join the club today or not. Yeah, let my heart decide later.