TWILIGHT

12

Being someone who is admired by many people is not an easy thing. There needs to be a real proof to be said as someone who deserves to be admired. And according to some people there are several criteria that must be met to become a dream figure. Like a term that we often with in the community, dream man or dream woman. The purpose of the term is a figure who is used as a person who is desired or as a idol by others. Then, is someone like what can be called a dream man or a dream woman ?

Having someone you crave means that you have certain aspects of judgment that form an interest in that person. There are certain points that make us make a judgment. However, in addition to an assessment, there will be a thing called thinking about the person we are judging. Sometimes when we are doing an assessment, what we are thinking at that time is not in line with the assessment we give. The point is to judge someone it is not an easy thing to do. There needs to be a balance between thinking and judgment itself. But believe me, everyone is capable of doing it. However, everyone does not have the same measure or criteria in making an assessment of someone.

Then what about me, have I had good enough value in the eyes of others, or vice versa. And what about the figure of Ica, as big as whether the assessment he gave me, or even no judgment in the slightest. A figure like what He said as someone who deserves to be a figure of dreams....

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Figurine

What kind of defense Ica would mention if I said the phrase, Idaman Figure. Then, someone like what he thinks deserves to be called a Idaman Figure. And do I deserve to be called a dream figure for him?

The past and the present are very different. Change after change made by someone, will also change the pattern of thinking and judgment of each person. In the past and in the present, I am a different person, with a different personality. Everyone's thoughts and judgments about me will be different. Whether good or bad I am in the eyes of someone, it will certainly be a benchmark for me against the judgment of everyone. I want to know what I am like now.

Sunday, 09 February 2020

I wanted to tell you before that I have one younger sister. Before the story goes, my younger sister, Siska Amanda, was named, aged 13, in 1st grade Junior High.

That afternoon my sister suddenly came to me. I was reading a book on the terrace right in front of my room. It turned out that he had trouble doing his schoolwork, then asked me to help him finish it.

"Don't help dong..." Siska.

"Help what on deck?" My saute.

"It's a hard task." His complaint.

"Where? here try brother see."

Siska's giving her book.

"Ah this mah beans, while the bristling can."

"Yeah, you're a pro, I'm trying!"

"Haha..."

"Yeee, it's meltedekin.."

"Hehe, yaudah about brother help you..."

"Yess, thank you, brother."

"Yes are the same."

Seen by me the face of Siska who was so cheerful. It feels good that he can still smile and can forget the dark moments of the past.

"Yaudah, I tea back to the room firstwell, my beloved brother bay..." Siska said, waving her hand.

"Ehh, wait a minute!" My saute.

"Cunaon?" ask siska.

"Sir tea wants to talk to you.."

"By what?"

"Nobody, just a normal conversation.."

"Oohhh..."

Finally Siska was ready, and came back to me.

"Hmm, how do you think big brother's tea is?"

"Why tea, why is it so suddenly?"

"Nobody, just want to know."

"Hmm, complete tea brother anyway.."

"Well, how does that mean?"

"Yaaa komplit, that brother is already handsome, pinter, tall, white, sholeh, the head of the osis is the best anyway, the dream of women, hahaha.."

"iihh, seriously or brother, yes I sayin girl who like tea big brother really lucky, try it I'm not brother, surely I've ajakin soan, hahahaha..."

"Hahaha, there's-there's a you Sis, tea boy can't date sins.."

"Hehe, yes yes..."

"Learn the real first, such a problem is a matter of awe.."

"Yes my dear brother..."

"OK on.."

"Udah right?"

"Yes, that's..."

"Well, let me go back to the room, don't call again.."

"Hahaha, yes yes.."

"Bay bay.. don't forget the Pr yaa...."

"Hahaha, yes, if you want to..."

"Well, if you don't want to! I'm jailin.."

"Hahaha, forgive my boss..."

"Hahaha, good good..."

Laughter lit up that afternoon. The little joys I rarely encountered seemed to slowly treat the old wounds in my heart. And the colors that have graced my life are now one by one beginning to return.

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According to Siska I am the perfect man. So, he thinks whoever I'm going to give love to, he's the luckiest guy in the universe. Then, whether I am in the eyes of an Ica is also a perfect figure. And if she finds out that I love her so much, she'll think that she's the luckiest person in the world ?

This love story has not yet begun.

The judgment of every human being on this earth about ourselves is important. So that we can find out how much good and bad is in us. However, do you believe that the real judgment we should get is not the judgment given by man, but the judgment given by God Almighty. How behavior, nature, morality, speech, all that is the most important that we must get the assessment, is from Allah Swt. Not from humans.

When a person wants to be a dream figure for others, then he should be able to get the best judgment from Allah Swt. It is from his creature that is man. Logically, this is the right thing. For everything in the world, the Creator rules it.

Then, have I managed to get his appraisal? And what about the assessment Ica gave?

There was really someone who arranged it. And we are only trying to be good in the eyes of God and good in the eyes of men.

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My Fiction

Grey cloud

Now the heart is silent

In my mind dancing

Enjoy all over the sun

When your shadow approaches

It is so peaceful inside

When the delusion has penetrated my soul

Restless anxiety has now also penetrated

Where are you

O God's creature whom I have always longed for