This Is It?
Chapter 53: Confession
Mutia was not present on the day of farewell. I tried to send him a WhatsApp message, but it was not answered. I was worried something might happen to me. Ah, hopefully my worry is just a drop of miss – does not turn out to be a bad thing.
Dita and Metha asked to be dropped off at the Pakupatan Terminal. Metha wanted to go straight to Bogor, and Dita was with him.
Good riddance! I can enjoy the ride in peace. As the two of them became more familiar, I was not interested in looking.
After taking down the Poison Duo, I asked Andy to take my place in driving. I'm still getting carried away with the breakup that just happened. The faces of Father and Mother engraved clearly loomed before my eyes.
“Gas, I'm still curious about your main destination to the house Ardi?” ask Andy to turn on the chat.
He struggled again on the question before leaving. In fact, I have given various reasons. He can't be brainwashed.
Actually I was lazy to talk about Andy's question again, but like there was an urge that made my hunch not calm. Not about the answer to Andy's curiosity. It's about such crucial honesty.
“Dy..”
“Heem.”
I hold my sitting position. “Lu believe not if in this world there are humans who can exchange bodies with others?” I returned with a cautious tone.
“You mean to exchange life with others?” Andy hummed short. “No need to stop, Gas. The human spirit can only escape if it dies. Life is not fiction. If humans are able to exchange bodies, there will be no such thing as plastic surgery to enhance the appearance. There will be no fatigue, because everyday life can be changed at will. Just look for people who are in the same condition as us - want to feel a different life. Right, right?" behold.
"Yes, I get it. Just, what do you think or your view is related to the possibility of this happening in human life?" I confirmed my question.
"Thankful with the life we have now is a powerful way to repel saturation in life,”.
I set the tempo first while condensing his statement.
Apparently, my suspicions about him were wrong. All this time, I thought he was investigating my identity bit by bit.
However, I have already delivered the opening sentence. Liability if not continued.
Tomorrow is the 100th day I will be Bagas. The dream of returning to the origin of the day flashed in my mind. What if it really happened? Can dreams sometimes be a sign of the future? Ah, that's so horrible!
“But a body exchange can happen, Dy. Perhaps the person who experienced it never told others because of the abstinence from the exchange of the body itself. There are many mysteries in this world that go beyond human reason. It is also possible that only a small part of it is revealed or can be validated scientifically.” I hummed the introductory paragraph before the confession.
Whahuh? A confession? I tried to discuss it again with my conscience and mind.
Yes, I'm sticking with my decision. If tomorrow my story as Bagas is really over, then – at least – I have a friend.
But what if my confession in favor of my fear becomes reality?
“Lu has said several times that my attitude is strange," I explained. Then, I tried to lure more in the logic of his thinking. "Was your time saying it actually you were prejudiced that I am who is now someone else?”
Andy laughing. “Gas, you why the hell? If you are tired of being handsome and rich, you run to the forest. Lu lived there as Tarzan, befriending the animals. Beres, right? No need to develop assumptions that only exist in the imagination. Um.... But I so know that the reason you ngajak nginep a week at home Ardi, that you want to spend a different life.”
I looked at his face. “Dy, answer my question.”
Andy pulled over the car before entering the freeway. He seemed to be turning into serious mode as per the body language I was pointing at him.
“Gas, I don't know what movie or story you ate. But that's clearly this way..” Andy clapped his right hand to the steering wheel. “Gu says you changed, the emphasis on your opposite nature and attitude - in less good terms. I'm sorry if I'm impressed to manage your life you should always be your straight self. In that case, I'm just trying to live out my role as your best friend. A friend who should be able to be a good alarm for his best friend,” explained Andy.
I was paranoid that Andy was collecting evidence to reveal myself. Apparently, I guessed wrong.
Even so, I have already discussed the topic regarding body exchange. He might be hard to believe, but he would definitely be stunned if I spelled out one by one this profound fact.
All righty! I ready.
“Dy...” One breath I took for a moment. This was more thrilling than expressing love for Mutia back then. “Lu don't believe that I'm actually..”.
Andy decapitated my sentence. “Gas, stop! Mending we continue the journey so fast until Jakarta. Let you quickly also rest in your room. I think your mind is saturated. Do you want to make a snack first on the trip?”
I shook my head. “Gue permission to sleep yes, Dy. If you feel a little tired, wake up I will."
It seems that the timing is too ill-suited to convey a confession to the only person I trust right now. Free to force him to accept this miracle I experienced when his thoughts had indicated rejection.
I close my eyes. Andy continued driving while echoing his spirit with rhythmic words.
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I kept watching the clock turn as if slowing down. It's 23:55 on Saturday. That is, another 5 minutes into Sunday aka the 100th day of my new life.
My eyes are asking me to sleep. However, my mind was very worried that something unwanted would happen when I woke up later.
Dream oh dream! Why not get tired of flirting with my days?
I went to the kitchen to make coffee. Anyway, I have to get through this day without closing my eyes. As powerful as any drowsiness attacks, ‘kan kulawan by all means.
After making coffee, I walked to the terrace. I sat looking at the cloudless sky. How quickly time passes. Last night I was still pitting stories with Dad. Now, everything becomes a longing.
