This Is It?
Chapter 11: Attitude
First love is like an adrenaline that burns the spirit in the soul. It was the first time he introduced his liking. He also introduced the word possessive.
Many say love should not have. As long as he saw her happy, it was already incredible. Nah! I disagree with that expression. This was my first experience loving the opposite sex. For me, my happiness is to be with the heart charmer.
I will fight for my love until I understand what it really means to love. This adventure has just begun. Although I can pluck a thousand stars, all I want is the moon.
“Gas, what are you doing?” Andy's voice was in front of the room. His arrival paused my delusion.
“Include, Dy!”
Andy immediately took a sitting position beside me.
“Mama you called her said you from yesterday look dreamy" he said. Then, he looked seriously. "Why the hell are you? You have any more problems?”
“Gue fine.”
Andy pulled the sleeve of the shirt I was wearing. “This is what you said all right? Clock this time you haven't taken a shower.”
“It'll be morning.”
“It's ten o'clock, Bagas. That's why, Mama you called me so you can look at you. Mama you were worried to see your attitude that since yesterday looked glum. Try my story what's up!”
I'm waiting for Mutia's testimony regarding the medicine and the cake I brought. But until the night changed in the morning, not a single word of message came from him.
Should I tell Andy about it? Huh! I don't know him very well yet. It took me longer to instill confidence in the people around me.
“Nothing, Dy,”.
However, Andy was getting serious about looking at me. “Lu can tell you that you're okay. But, you can't lie to me.” Then Andy lowered his hand. “Gue noticed over the last few days your attitude is very different, Gas.”
What does Andy mean? Lying to him about my feelings for Mutia? That's absolutely true. I can't tell him yet. But, he said there was a noticeable difference in attitude from me.
I must not be provoked by his statement. Maybe he was trying to lure me to honesty. The point is, I can't rush to conclude he knows my secret. The secret about this body exchange.
However, I cannot control the mind completely from anxiety. “Be.... different how do you mean?”
Andy shone my eyes. The danger! I immediately slammed the gaze into the other edge.
“Gue never saw you like this before. This is not the Bagas I know,”.
I also continue to pump the brain to stimulate calmness in all organs of the body. “Times anyway, Dy? We've only known him for a few months. Wa... natural times that you know I am always cheerful and pede (confident). The name of man must be his life fluctuates, up and down at any time. Sometimes we just need me time (spending a short time with yourself) to set a mood that suddenly sfor.”
Andy gave a sharp look. “Newly known these few months? Lu amnesia, Gas? We have known him since Junior High. We used to play together a lot. We also often go to school together even though not one High School.”
Lothawat! Why didn't I realize that Bagas' life memory wasn't left in this brain? The mind and the ability in the body are two different things. Not connected even though the bodies exchange. How can I avoid the confirmation Andy gave me? You idiot!
“Oh it... haha...” I try to neutralize the situation by laughing while the brain searches for the appropriate distraction sentence. “Gue ngetes ingetan. We have been together for a long time. Yeah, it's been a long time. Haha…. Yesterday I forgot my best sohib.” I pat Andy on the shoulder.
“Lu exactly who?” Andy's gaze did not change in the slightest. He didn't even encourage me to laugh.
I guessed wrong. I don't think Andy is an observer. Apparently, he was the most thorough of the others.
“Gu... I? Yes. yes. Your time doesn't recognize me. Lu amnesia, Dy? Haha...”.
I kept trying to divert Andy's suspicions. But he was just looking at me more and more. He studied my appearance from foot to head carefully.
“Lu can fool others, but not the same me. I've known you for a long time. You can't pretend in front of me.”
Andy's words caused me anxiety. Cool out! I need to stay calm!
“Aa... What the hell are you, Dy? Yeah... the weird one is lu.” I pushed his face that kept shadowing my face. “Lu see I gini very anyway, Dy? I'm going to be just like you.”
“Gue again mastiin lu Bagas or not.”
He looked back at me with a look that made me shudder in horror. I'm not ready if my identity is revealed so soon.
“Ya.. yes.. This is me, Bagaskara Permana. Don't look at me with this look. Who do you think I am?”
“I think I know who you are?”
I got up from the couch and walked to the window. Andy stirred up panic in the mind. Ardi may not tell Andy about this body exchange. It's rude if it's true Ardi did.
That is very likely to happen. Yesterday, Andy said to meet Ardi at his boarding house to pick up a flash. It could be an alibi. Ardi may have coded Andy about this secret.
My accusations are very reasonable. During this time no personnel 4 Commander wanted to talk to Ardi. In fact, they never thought Ardi existed.
The ardi! He who invites to exchange bodies, he also divulges secrets. There was no agreement at the beginning, but I will teach him a lesson after this.
“What did you mean earlier, Dy? You are not clear.”
“Lu actually...”.
Andy approached me. My heart is beating fast.
“Not clear you. Mending me shower.”
As the move was able to find a direction to end the conversation, Andy pulled my right arm tightly.
“Lu is actually the God of Love that goes into the body of my best friend, Bagas, right? Why you?”
“Neither funny, Dy,” lamented while sighing in relief.
Andy laughed nonstop. “Lu why the hell? Your face is so tense. Gini turns out to be the one who fell in love. It's easy to do the work. Haha...”.
Huh! So, Andy was just fucking me. I was worried about half-dead.
“What the hell is you, Dy? Joking you're not funny. I thought you were kesambet.”
Andy! I almost told her my true self. I felt my position was desperate so I could not dodge it. Apparently, he just took me on a roller coaster ride.
“Since when do you like Mutia?”
Andy stopped laughing.
“Almost aja I fist your face.”
“Sorry, Gas. Seru also turned out to be ngerjain lu. Since when do you like Mutia?”
“Entahlah,” my response ketus.
“Lu want to play secrets with me?”
Is correct. If I don't answer Andy's questions, it'll create the impression that we're not close friends.
“Since...” I can't say since SMA. He can interrogate me again. “Em.. since these few weeks.”
Andy nodded his head. “Pantes I noticed there is a different from you. I'm sure your attitude lately is a bit strange, because you're in love with someone again. My guess was correct.”
“Why can you know I like the Mutia?”
The atmosphere becomes more relaxed. Conversations are like heart-opening sessions.
“Gue knows you outside of Dalem, Gas. Pas yesterday suddenly you said you want to pick me up, keep you giving medicine and cake to Mutia, I already know there is a hidden purpose. If it wasn't for you liking her, keep going because of what?”
Next time, I'll be a lot calmer with Andy and the rest of my friends. I don't have to panic if they say I'm different. Like Andi, in fact, he was just throwing pranks at me.
“Lu true. But, I don't know whether Mutia likes me or not.”
“Lu have realized your feelings to him?”
“Not yet. I want it all to go first until I know he has the same or not the same taste I.”
“Indeed yes, the playboy can actually bend his knees to a pendiem and mysterious girl. The girl who when other girls see you hysterical, she's normal. Ah, it's like a drama anyway lu, Gas,” said Andy. He seemed to understand what I was feeling.
“Udah, already. Anyway you don't tell anyone about this, including Leo, Tommy, and Revan.”
“Ready, Young Master!”
Fear disappeared. My anxiety subsided. We also went to campus to attend the afternoon classes.
As soon as I was about to get out of the car, I saw two women with different characters. Right, Mutia and Dita.
How'this? The opportunity to approach Mutia was in plain sight. However, Dita walked closer.
“Dy, please you halau Dita first yes,” my door. It's time I started using friends.
“How to do, Gas?”
“Terasuru! Anyway you should be able to block him because I want samperin Mutia.”
“But, Gas.” Andy put on a confused look. “Gue no experience chatting with girls outside talking about lessons.”
“Yes, that's good. You invite him to a discussion or give him English lessons or something. The important thing is he didn't bother me first today.”
Dita's getting closer to my car. I pushed Andy to get out.
“Cepet out!”
Andy stopped Dita's steps. Once Dita's sight was blocked, I immediately went out and ran after Mutia.
“Mut…. Mutias…. Wait, Mut!” seruku after a distance of only about 2 meters with him. “I want to say something to you, Mut. Please, give me a chance to explain everything to you!”
Mutia did not want to stop her steps. He kept moving forward as if he hadn't heard my words.
I quickly positioned myself in front of him. “Mut, please catch me first!”
“What's the matter, Gas?” Bak has been cornered, Mutia would also give a response.
“Why did you from yesterday keep avoiding me? Give me a chance to explain everything to you, Mut.”
“Ngejelasin what the hell, Gas? I don't understand.”
“On yesterday's incident. I'm the same Dita tuh no relationship anything.”
“Keep the same relationship with me what?”
Mutia was not as usual. He did not even slightly develop lips, giving a smile.
“Thus why are you avoiding me?”
“Udahlah, Gas. Five minutes to start class.”
Mutia's attitude completely changed to me. In the meantime, I can't conclude she's jealous of Dita either. But if there is something underlying his change of attitude, what is it? It was hard to predict the meaning of his residence.
Huh! Whahuh? Mutia is jealous of Dita? While all this time only Mutia who seemed not fascinated with the perfection of Bagas.
“Met, Di, wait dong!” Mutia waved to Metha and Ardi.
He walked away leaving me with a riddle. I can't prevent his departure. Only, why is the name Ardi also echoed by Mutia? Metha and Ardi do not walk together. They are in one line, but quite a distance.
The ardi! He's pissing me off.
