This Is It?

Chapter 12: The Struggle

Love must be fought for in order to get a reply or simply an answer to an embedded taste. Indeed, the feeling cannot be forced. It can grow because it is used to it. Persistence, perseverance, and sincerity are the initial foundation to show the seriousness of – relationship building.

I know, my life is long. There will still be a lot of romance stories that may be more challenging. Unfortunately, I haven't thought so far. I just want to focus on pursuing Mutia's love.

“Gas, you from earlier I noticed that Mutia continues to worry. I'm so suspicious yes,” said Leo ruined the design of love that I was imagining.

I hurriedly fixed my position of view. “Suspected what the hell, Yo?”

“Lu likes Mutia?” ask her in a soft voice.

Andy knew enough of this. Leo, this Garbage Mouth, if he knew it would spread to the other friends.

“Gue from earlier focus concerned Bu Siwi who again nerangin.”

“Masa?”

I'm actually lazy to respond to Leo. “Mutia is sitting in front of us. Want to not want my view must be melewatin him.”

“Lu don't want to open with me? I am your best friend.”

“Focus!” I ordered Leo not to talk to me.

“What the hell did you see from Mutia? I think he is ordinary. If compared to Dita, yes more class (mending) Dita. Unfortunately, Dita is too petty. Try him a little graceful. But, you can get other girls more than them too, Gas,” Leo half-whispered.

I'd love to kick Leo out of class. The chirping was very disturbing to my eardrum.

“Leo!!” Suddenly, Bu Siwi shouted. “If you want to chat Bagas, it will be later after this class is finished.”

“Ma. I don't talk to Bagas. I just...”

“Please get out of my class! If you don't like the courses I teach, don't bother your friend!” resolute Bu Siwi with a thunderous voice.

Leo left the class with a grouch.

You're fucked, Leo! My name is in my heart.

“Bagas, if there is a friend who bothers you to study, tell me yes,” said Bu Siwi in a soft voice. It was a stark contrast when he asked Leo to leave the classroom sooner.

I chimed in on every statement from Leo. However, I was instead given calmness by Bu Siwi. Yes, privilege without effort is real. Simply add a smile as a garnish of appearance.

I understand now, why did I used to be so jealous of Bagas? He never was guilty in the eyes of others. When he makes a mistake, the blame comes to him.

After the class breakup, Leo immediately legalized. He keeps abusing me because he feels discriminated against.

I want to laugh at the complaints of Leo who feels treated differently. Hasn't he been with Tommy and Revan all along? He treated others as if they were inferior to him. But he is the same. He just barked at Bagas.

Karma is real. Although some people call what is planted what is harvested, but I prefer to say that life is full of vengeance. Replies can come from unexpected people, places, and times.

Whatever! Today I try to spend time with my generals first. I need to neutralize my thoughts while thinking of a way to grab Mutia's sympathy. My days will always be lacking if he is still indifferent to me.

***

Andy reported that he would be doing group work at Mutia's boarding house again later this afternoon. It was only Andy that I seemed to be able to consider becoming a friend forever. Without me explicitly asking, he knows what I want.

While the other 3 Cecunguk, I will definitely kick it. When will I do that? Just wait! Right now, I still need them as entertainment. Simply fed, they kept their heads down like pet chickens.

Do I sound cruel? Ah, I just want to teach them a lesson bit by bit. Sometimes, people will understand the mistake of unkind behavior to others when he is in the position of the person being bullied. Patience and waiting for him to come to his senses, was just a waste of time. Okay, wait for the appropriate moment to arrive.

Once I knew Andy, Mutia, Metha, and the Disruptor Ardi would start working on group assignments at 10:00, I immediately contacted Leo.

“Halo, Gas. It's Sunday and it's morning. What's the matter you call me?” leo welcomed my call.

“Yo, tell the others we did role play Speaking this morning at 8am at Cafe White Horse.”

“Hah? This morning, Gas?” He made sure in a surprised tone.

“Iya. It's about noon I have an event.”

“Gas, that's not what you want to ask. Here I see the clock in my room showing 7 o'clock past 55 minutes. You right, Gas? What do you mean by 9 o'clock? But, last night we agreed to do the task of the group at 10 even.”

“Gue is waiting now. Another cabins soon! I love time tolerance 5 minutes.”

“Gas…. Bagas...”

I just turned off the phone with Leo. Even a second is precious to me right now. I've found a way for Mutia to no longer shy away from me.

Actually, I could have exchanged with Andy so I could have a group with Mutia. In fact, asking directly for an exchange on the mandate of the lecturer can also be. However, I don't want to be impressed using all the privileges at once.

Mutia was not a woman who could be approached with power. The incident some time ago when he made a statement Dita was enough to give an affirmation.

Mutia was indeed a figure who did not speak much, but she would not stay silent when getting humiliation. Very different from the old me who can only be pensive when the world undermines my appearance.

Huh, my memory was immediately turned to Ardi. I'm still very curious about the reason behind her and Mutia's closeness. Hopefully not because there is a foundation of love.

Is it possible that Mutia will like Ardi? But, what if Ardi was more aggressive than me in establishing closeness with Mutia? Plus they are often a group in doing the task.

One cup of cappucino is gone. Leo and the others still did not show the nose. Damnit damnit! He makes me wait when I'm taking time into account.

I picked up my phone lying on the table. The time tolerance I gave had increased by 3 times. This made my mood start to get infiltrated with annoyance.

“Again, Young Master!” Leo exclaimed as he waved his hand.

“Again, Gas!” saya Sandi and Lia who came with Leo.

“Morning too. Let's just start the technical discussion of making this role play task. If you want pesen eat and drink directly pesen yes,” explained me.

“Gue breath first dong, Gas,” said Leo asked for a moment's pause.

“Emang you now can't breathe?”

“I mean rest first, drink first, eat first cake. You don't see me breathing hard gini”.

“Gue have given you more time. Why are you just coming now?”

“Gue waiting for them both, so long!”

Good and Lia glanced at me with a sinful looking face. “Sorry we yes, Gas! We promise not to make you wait for kayak gini again next time,” said they both chimed in with each other.

“Nothing. I mean, Leo was supposed to come here first. At least I have a friend to talk about the concept of our duty.”

“Iya, sorry. I understand I was wrong, Gas.”

“Udah, already. We now certainly only who wants to be a news reader, who is a cameraman, the same news that we want to lift. I also have a camera and tripod. I also booked a private coworking space for us to record. Yuk, we move places there!”

Anger will only cause trouble. However, I have to keep the – temperament transformed as Bagas known for all its perfection.

The clock's needle was spinning so fast without me noticing. Not as expected, I was only able to gas the Mutia boarding house at around 11:00.

Initially, I intended to come to Mutia's boarding house under the pretext of dropping off Andy. However, earlier Leo made a lot of jokes so we drifted in excitement. Yes, basically, Leo does have a humorous and pleasant nature. He can always liven up the atmosphere and easily blend in with anyone. Suffice it! He can be big-headed if he hears me give you a compliment.

My position is already in front of the Mutia boarding house. However, I was reluctant to go straight in. I called Andy to bridge my steps.

It can! I can definitely! I kept encouraging myself.

“Hai Mutia, Metha, Ardi,” my cow.

“Bagas!” Metha greeted me cheerfully. While Mutia and Ardi only returned my greeting in a soft voice.

“I'm here to pick up Andy. Um…. We have futsal activities together later at half hour one.”

This was Andy's plan, but I didn't lie about futsal. We want to tighten our muscles by exercising.

“Sit, Gas!” Only Metha seemed to like my presence. “Then every day only Andy I kidnap here yes let you maen here continue,” Goda Methoda joking.

“Metha!!” Mutia looked at her best friend who was so aggressive.

“No need to be weird, Met. Bagas is not my driver. It just so happened that we finished this there is activity.” Andy tried to mediate. “Nih, there is lunch and snacks from Bagas.”

“Taken yes Mut, Di,” I continue to say Andy.

They just nodded.

“You didn't ask me to eat it too, Gas?”

“Do I need to feed you, Met?”

“Mau, Gas”

“Metha!!” mutia.

Is Mutia jealous? I can't be too confident. Didn't Mutia always remind Metha to keep the attitude in front of me or anyone.

“Ya. I'm waiting in the car, Dy.”

“OK, Gas!”

Pay attention, but with a step back. It was my strategy to provoke Mutia's curiosity.

Before long, Andy approached me. He said there was a problem with the cameras they were using. Andy borrowed the camera I brought. Of course, I'm happy to lend it. In fact, I volunteered to be your cameraman.

The universe seems to be supporting my struggle today. The proof is, I can join without asking.

“Who is the news reader?” kata asked.

They looked at each other.

“What if Ardi? I mean just try one-on-one to determine who will be roughly suitable,” my advice.

“Gu... gu... I?” Ardi looked surprised.

“Iya, On. You can definitely.”

“But...” Ardi's body language I know wants to resist.

I'll interrupt immediately. I must be able to convince Ardi to appear in public even if limited in video format. I don't want to humiliate him or humiliate him. “Lu try it, Di. You have to dare to point yourself at people. I know you just lack a little confidence.”

“Betul, Di. You try it!” added Mutia.

“Or you tandem both the same Mutia, Di?”

“Sama Mutia?” Ardi looked at me in doubt.

“Where, Mut?” I smile at Mutia.

“Iya, can.”

The struggle requires sacrifice. Sacrifice requires sincerity. Let it endure a moment of jealousy to make Mutia captivated to me next.

The video recording process that was originally quite awkward changed with laughter. Leo gave me some extra inspiration on how to invite jokes. Slightly display silly traits, such as pretending to slip when taking pictures.

Ardi might try to be my rival, but I shouldn't be seen competing with him in front of Mutia. Wh why? Because I know Mutia is not a thing. He would also be offended if he knew himself to be a grabbing material.

Mutia was different from some of the women I observed. Those who love to make themselves a trophy.

“Thank you very much yes, Gas. Maybe if you are not our duty is hampered,” said Mutia when Andy and I were about to leave the hostel.

“Liet time, Mut. It's just a coincidence. Oh yeah, do you want your camera to try me to take it to the repairman?”

“Ng. Later I will take it to the repairman myself.”

“You say yes to me?”

“Em. I don't want to trouble you.”

“Oh, yes already then. If you change your mind, let me know. Want to ask to be sent to the place of service also I want kok.”

I can't force Mutia. Like playing a kite, the thread must be stretched little by little. It should not be directly threaded into space, because the kite can actually break up due to shock with wind exposure.

“Iya, Gas. Again, thank you very much!”

“Iya, Mut.”

Ardi looked at me with an annoyed face. The war has. However, I will not use nuclear to directly hit the enemy. I will choose the ways of diplomacy to invite more sympathy.