The Stunning My Life

We're Not the Same

About an hour ago, I just got back to Susan's home. Tomorrow morning I have to accompany him to go to the Mini campus to celebrate First Day Campus, he said.

Starting tomorrow, Mini will be busy with his lectures. As for me, it's been almost a month since I sent a job application letter to a city government office, but I still haven't gotten a call from there.

Nah! Even so, I must remain confident and positive thinking. I'm sure the office will call me soon and give me some good news. After all, my diploma and report card values are not bad. At least during school I always got the top five or even three. I was also in position one.

***

Tonight I was busy with drawing paper on the study table.

Me and Mini live in the same room. There, we always use several pieces of furniture in turn. We divide, and also use together.

Today Mini is out with Haris, so I also vent my boredom by sketching clothes. Since I was a kid, I loved drawing. Some of my friends said I could draw well.

I actually have small goals. I want to be a fashion designer and open a boutique. Seeing the fashion style of young people today makes me a little innovating.

I have plans to take a sewing course. I want to learn more to make clothes and understand everything. But I still haven't found the right time to do it. Maybe later after I get that office job. I need the cost and free time of course.

Ten minutes. Twenty minutes. Thirty minutes. Mini opened the door to the room and made me look at her.

“Udah home lo? How was the date today? Fibrous or crispy?” I'm tagging a Mini.

“Lo kira tengginang?” Mini sighed, then threw her body into the bed.

I'm still busy with my 2B pencil. I drew soft lines on the white drawing paper. And in a moment, a sketch of a pair of wedding dresses will be finished soon.

“Waw! Cool also lo ngedesain,” praise Mini who suddenly appeared beside me.

I smiled proudly to my nose.

“Eh, Phi,” call Mini to me.

“Hm..?”

“Si Juna-Juna is going to Haris if you already have a girlfriend yet, you know. Don't-don't he have a crush on you again,” said Mini piquing eyebrows teasing me.

“No need to worry, Ni! How could the rich Juna like me? Anyway, yeah. I'm the same he was just a glimpse of doang,” I told Mini.

Although actually a little baper, but I try not to big head. Having met a man like Juna was like a dream. One hundred to one, and it'll never happen again. Remember, I'm always failed when it comes to disputes.

“The rich is what do you mean? Don't be low self-esteem, Phi. Lo aja if the matter of work is always optimistic, when about desperate romance, anyway? Do you want to be a bachelor? Do you have any shadow of getting married? At least dating first, lah. Don't you think about that?” ask Mini at length.

I'm sighing. “Yes, I thought of that as well. But, kan.... Yes, I have no right person.”

“Yes, you can choose a partner, Phi. But yes, don't be too picky. No one is perfect.”

Mini clucking. “But I'm also worried about the same lo,” he said suddenly made me confused.

“Worried why?”

“Gue is afraid if people are as good as you dapet guys who are not worth it. Yes, it means lo pantes dapet better pair.”

Mini staring. “Ati-ati, Phi. I hope you don't choose wrong later.” He patted me on the back.

I think, if changing girlfriends to find the most appropriate person is not a good way.

Imagine holding hands, hugging, or even kissing, but the edges are broken. Maybe if it was a normal thing for her man. But for me as a woman, it feels like my pride has been tainted.

Because of all that, I wanted a relationship once and for all. But I'm also afraid, if I'm gonna end up with the wrong guy later.

***

Me and Bulik Susan left for the Mini campus with a go car I ordered a few minutes ago. And then we got there.

From a distance I saw Mini waving hands at me. I immediately took Bulik Susan to him.

Haris who was actually with Mini was immediately kissed the hand of her future mother-in-law.

“Congratulations yes, Darling.” Bulik Susan hugged Mini, then gave a bouquet of flowers to her daughter.

“Ni, during the First Day Campus,”, I smiled at Mini.

“Thank you, Sophia..” Mini looked very cheerful.

“So what's the show?” I looked at Mini and Haris.

“Kalo First Day Campus is usually just family photos. But this year there is a special appearance of senior children.” Harris answered me.

I can only sting and nod.

“Yes, let's take photos now!” mini exclaimed cheerfully looking at me and Kidnap Susan.

The three of us captured those historic moments with happiness. Haris who always stand by with his camera also looks to photograph us well.

I can feel, Mini must be very happy now. Even happiness is contagious to me. I'm certainly happy to see Mini happy too.

I watched my surroundings. In the courtyard of the campus, there are many students who also do activities like us. Is everything that happy? Of course, college is much more fun than having to work after school, right?

This is not the time to compare myself to them. Sophia, all of that would be nice if you did it with a happy feeling too!

Five minutes. Susa appears to have received a phone call. And then, he suddenly had to go back to the office because of something emergency he said. Bulik Susan is a PNS, she is a counseling teacher at one of the junior high schools in the city.

Take Susan, my mother's sister has a much better destiny than my own mother.

I am not comparing them. But it is clear that Bulik Susan has a great determination to be a successful person. As for the mother, she was not not unsuccessful, but was less hard-working.

I just pursue a small business selling rice pecel at home. Already since my brother was little and I was still on the verge of being around or not, he had already started that venture. But make no mistake, mother-made pecel is the most delicious food in the neighborhood where I live.

Madiun Kota Pecel, mother was born from there. And then, she married her native Jakarta father. And we lived in the birthplace of that father.

Take Susan as well. Paklik Seto is a native of Jakarta. Paklik Seto is also a PNS. So Bulik Susan and Mini could be considered alive with the still endowed Paklik Seto. They receive pensioners' money every month.

Never mind. My family and the Mini family are different and cannot be equated. However, some of a person's fate can actually be changed if someone is willing to try to get the good of life.

I'm grateful to have a high sense of optimism, purpose in life, and an intelligent brain. I'll use all of that well. Failed parents, that doesn't mean their children will fail, right? [ ]