The Stunning My Life

About the Unpronounced Taste

I knocked on the big house door. "Assalamu'alaikum," salute me, then knock again.

The door opened from the inside. I smiled at a middle-aged woman, Oma Laras.

It's been three months, just last night Rama called me back via a short message. Yeah, I haven't even contacted her since that day. Loss of contact, no conversation. A little bit between me and Rama.

I still keep Rama's number. But Rama's number is dead. There wasn't even a speck of online status when I checked it. Almost every day, I just worry and feel guilty.

Last night Rama told me to come to his house. And this afternoon after work, I took the time to come. He doesn't write a lot of messages. It's just, it's just,

Rama: Hi, it's me Rama. Sorry to bother you again. Someone wants me to talk. I hope you come to my house tomorrow, Sophia.

Rama put his name on the message. Maybe he thought I'd deleted his contact.

***

Rama and I sat together, silent, sinking feet into the pool of the house. I looked at the watch. Almost four o'clock in the afternoon.

"What do you want to talk about?" I asked Rama who was still looking down at the small ripples of pool water in front of him.

"Thank you for coming." Rama smiled bitterly. "Gue guess, I'm gonna miss this opportunity" he continued.

I kept staring at Rama who was still reluctant to look at me. "Lo's fine, right?" I asked the man whose cheekbones were slightly more prominent than before. He looks tired and a little skinny.

Rama chuckles. "I'm doing well again. But I don't know if you'll come back later." Rama answered making my mind stunned.

Rama took a long breath. He looked at me. "Gue wants to be honest about something. But I want to say first, if from now on you will be fine with me. About those fuckers yesterday, I'm sorry." Rama smiled. "They won't bother you anymore."

"Who are they?" I asked Rama. Yes, I'm still very curious about the Chief of the Shucks as well as Fanya. And it seems, Rama has a close relationship with the two people.

Rama was silent for a moment. "I used to have a girlfriend" she started telling me. "her name is Fanya."

Rama looked over at the pool at his feet. "We dated for almost 2 years. I kept breaking him up."

"Why?"

"Because he's not good for me." Rama looked up at the sky. Thought glaring. "It looked good at first, but it was just a mask."

"He cheated on me." Rama pops an eyeball. "Cih, what the fuck!" He looked back at me. "Yes, the point is that Fanya hianatin I was the same brash guy you were at that time."

"Fanya's pregnant, but the bastard doesn't want responsibility. He begs me to marry Fanya. He just wants his son's Fanya to be guaranteed with the wealth of my family. I am not an angel, I am not God. How can I marry a girl who is pregnant with her child, even though the girl is still my boyfriend."

"Finally.., I'm the same Fanya broke up."

"So you broke up your girlfriend because she was pregnant just like that?" I asked Rama to make sure.

"One of those reasons. But there are other reasons too. He just benefits me. In meaning.... You know, right?"

I kept staring at Rama. It's so sorry for him. He's a good guy, but too many people hurt him. And maybe, I'll hurt her too, hurt her feelings.

I smiled at Rama stroking his back. "May you be met with women who are as good and equal as you. You're a good man, Ram," I said encouragingly.

"Would you not be that girl?" sahut Rama asked.

I looked at the man in silence. And this, I knew would happen. Rama, I know if he likes me. Once upon a time, I saw someone as if they were asking me.

When I was alone somewhere, I immediately saw Rama watching me. Day or night. Morning or sometimes afternoon. Not just once, but several times.

Surely I was uncomfortable, but somehow the fall seemed funny. I chose to be quiet, and let Rama look after me from a distance. After all, he is also not neko-neko.

"Sophia, I really like you. Something I should have, it's lo."

Until that should? What does Rama want with me? "But I have Juna, Ram. I can't and will never be something you should have."

Rama smiled. "Gue knows that. I know that you will reject me."

Rama drew both his hands back. Face looked. Eyes closed. He took a long breath. "Gue just wanted to say it. I like you, I want you. I'm not selfish for forcing my hope to kabulin."

Rama looked back at me. "Gue's afraid I won't be able to say it all to you." She smiles. "At least in Amsterdam, I'm not crazy because of all that. I just want to know how I feel about you."

"Lo so go to Amsterdam?"

"Hm. Tomorrow I'm leaving."

"Huh? Tomorrow?"

Rama nodded.

"Kok, suddenly?"

"Yes, I plan to leave tomorrow. It's a hell of a fit, right. I was honest with you. You rejected me. And Amsterdam I can be the place to move on."

"Somewhere?" I nodded at Rama.

Rama clucking. "If you don't refuse me, I'm not going to Amsterdam."

I pushed Rama's left shoulder. "You mean what!"

Rama laughed a little. He kept looking at me seriously. "Sophia, do you have the slightest intention to break up with your boyfriend? Logically yes, the relationship is not as durable and not always as harmonious. You do not think the same problems that can make you the same boyfriend you broke up?"

"Gue tau's. I also thought about it. But I'm the same Juna ain't that boy, Ram. The key to the continuity of the relationship is mutual trust, mutual protection, the same negirin each ego."

Rama is still watching me.

"Gue has principles, and I'm sure Juna is. Juna is enough for me. I was too lucky to find a guy like him. I'm going to defend Juna, Ram. I'm serious about him."

Rama looked at me. "Juna was lucky to get a girl like you, Sophia. She's in real luck. Not only is she beautiful, but my heart is also no less beautiful."

"Gue hope you're scared of the same kind of man." Rama smiled. "Gue hope, you will be happy."

Rama smiled widely. "Yes." Yeah."

And furthermore, I hope I can still be friends with Rama. I don't like or harbor feelings for the man, but I have a sense of not wanting to lose the good people around me.

The world is too hard now. People's horrible. Nowadays, good people are very rare. Will I ever see Rama again? I also want to see him happy, with the lucky woman getting him later.

***

2 Years later...

"Hi" I smiled at the man who still loved me faithfully.

"Where are we going?" I asked Juna who was waiting with Kawkaw the black Kawasaki trail bike in front of my yard. Yes, my house.

I've been living in a minimalist house for half a year. The hard work I did, the determination I built, the prayer I had always prayed to God, was finally so beautiful, so real.

Juna, he also graduated from college a year and a half ago. Now Juna helps Rei's father run the Universe Corp while executing his ideals, becoming an architect.

Juna has also managed to establish a restaurant, he manages it with Haris. And the restaurant, Juna himself designed it. My minimalist home too. Juna and I, we exchanged ideas.

"To where we first met." Juna smiled.

***

On travel...

"Juna, the tent in the complex there is a turning," my story on Juna hugged him from behind.

Juna continues to ride the Kawkaw. "Certainly? What's a hornbill?"

"Yet. I was afraid of being home alone. Mr. RT's son also often visited the house. I'm uncomfortable."

I live alone at home. Mom and dad don't want to stay with me, they refuse. Of course they're so happy I could have my own place to live. But mom and dad can't leave the house they built together. It's just, dad said he would take mom to my house occasionally.

Juna budging.

"June!"

"Hm?"

"Kok, did he?"

"I was thinking again...."

"Think what?"

"It's nothing." Two seconds. "You don't have to be afraid, Sophia. You also do not need to worry anymore with his son Mr. RT who likes your mejengin. This Abis I will take care of you completely."

"Huh? Meanin?" I scrunched my forehead.

Juna silently refused to answer.

***

Arriving at the location...

"Udah changed its place. I'm not kayaking anymore," I said staring at a stretch of arid cliffs that used to be so green and beautiful.

"Let the place change. What matters is that we're still the same, right?" Juna looked at me smiling.

I hugged Juna's left arm. "Hm.., we're still the same." I smiled too.

"Sophia, are there any of your ideals that haven't been sampled?" ask Juna.

"There's."

"How much?"

"One."

Juna looked down at me who was still leaning on his left arm. "What's that?"

I shuffled off my grip on Juna's hand. "What, yeah...?" I twisted my chin glancing at Juna's lyrics.

Juna laughed a little.

"Why laugh?"

Juna put her hand to my waist. He smiled looking into my eyes. "I know one of your unsamples."

"Oh, huh?"

Juna nodded. "Sophia," she called.

I raise my eyebrows and look at Juna.

"Next week, can I see your mom's dad?"

"Can. What's to do?"

"I'm ready to make you the mother of our children. I'm proposing to you, Sophia. Let's live together until death do us part." Juna smiled with a shady look. Eyes sparkling. His voice warmed up to my ears.

"Are you serious?"

"What makes you doubt? I seriously. Am I still lacking?"

I smile. "You're more than mateng, Juna" I hugged Juna with a happy feeling. "Yes, next week you can apply for me." [ ]