The Stunning My Life

Hampa Tanpamu

Today after work, I promised to meet Juna at a cafe near the campus. Juna said he was waiting there. I rushed to Fino.

A few minutes later, I arrived at Sunny Cafe. I saw Juna waiting for me at table number 6. But.., there's Dinda too.

I approached them. "H-hai," I said to Dinda as she sat down.

"Hi, Sophia." Dinda smiled at me.

It didn't go according to my plan. Because of Dinda's whereabouts, I became awkward. Juna also looked unhappy there.

Silent mood. Juna just silently played his drinking straw. So did Dinda.

One sec. Two seconds. I started to voice. "Juna, I want to say something to you."

Juna looked at me, then smiled sweetly. "Gue also wants to say something to you." He glanced at Dinda with

flat expression. "Din, you have no business anymore, are you the same as me? If there's nothing, you can go."

Dinda seemed to force a smile. "Yes, Brother. I'll call Kak Juna again on whatsapp. Yes first, Brother."

Dinda looked at me smiling. "Sophia, I go first, yeah."

"Yes." Yeah." My reply was smiling too.

Dinda left the cafe. As for me and Juna, we were still sitting there together.

"So what are you talking about?" juna asked with a cute face on me.

"Gue wanted to apologize for your slap back then," I said, not wanting to make any small talk. "Lo's not mad, is he?"

Juna laughed a little. "Look easy." He crossed his hands to the table. "But..., why did you run away that time?" he asked raising both eyebrows.

I was silent for a moment. "Gue.., I just...."

"What's free?" Juna looked at me holding back a laugh.

I threw away a quick face. "Gue just wanted to run away."

Juna sounded a little chuckle.

"Keep, what are you talking to me about?" I looked back at Juna.

Juna throttled his lips thinking. "Many things I want to talk to you about. I was confused about which one to say," he told me.

"Yes, what's important first."

"Seriously, huh?"

I'm nodding.

Juna clicked, then pulled his seat closer to me.

"Sophia," Juna called me fixedly.

Wait, why am I being like this? What is it that Juna wants to say, huh? Don't-don't....

Juna came closer to my ear. Juna King of the Universe, he's a very whispery hobby. I love making kids float around.

"Lo likes me the same?"

Oh, my God, what's that question? I immediately pulled my head away from Juna. "Lo kesambet, huh?" I looked at Juna in amazement.

Juna took a deep breath in his short absence. "Responsor!" tell me.

"No, no." My answer.

"No? So you don't like me, do you?"

I'm speechless. I don't understand Juna a little. He's a spontaneous guy with a unpredictable nature. But for a long time, it made me a little nauseous.

"Meanwhile I like you..., clap one hand, dong?"

"Yes." Yeah." My reply seriously made Juna seem to freeze there. "Gue is not a bit of planning to like a student like you."

Juna kept listening to me.

"Gue prefers the same guy who is already established, mature, simple guy who will accept me who

I think gini."

I was still staring at Juna. "Juna, don't like me."

"Why? Why can't I like you?" Juna looked at me sharply.

"Because you have to focus on college." I smiled thinly. "Gue should also focus on work."

Juna chuckled in disbelief. "So you mean, if we establish a relationship, your work will be disturbed?"

I didn't plan that things would go like this. But Juna, he does have to focus on his studies.

And me, I've been thinking about that guy lately. I keep getting stuck with my job. And thinking about Juna, it made my head even more dizzy.

I still have a big dependency to improve my family's life. Dating, shackled with guys, it's just gonna screw things up.

For now, my main goal is to earn a lot of money and change my social status. I must not forget my mother and father at home who worked hard for me.

"What is such an important job for you?"

"Yes, that's important. Even if I am told to choose marriage or work, I will choose work" I told Juna.

"It seems like your thinking needs to be fixed, deh," Juna said, pointing to me.

I smiled grinning. "Lo says it because you never know how difficult life is."

"Gue was once in a section where I couldn't buy what I wanted. And the one you see now, not the one I was. I changed, it was because of the money. And make that money, I've got to work hard."

"Juna, which guy likes me the same way. And I'm sure, you certainly don't like the same girls who workaholic like me."

Juna was still there staring at me. One sec. Two seconds. He started to look away.

Maybe my relationship with Juna just got here. Juna must be successful. I also have to succeed.

We are still young. We just need to look to the bright future without being weight-bound. Even that, though,

maybe stifling.

"Gue go first." I also left Juna who was always silent.

I headed to the parking lot, put on my helmet, and then pushed Fino away.

I try not to cry. My chest's tight. My nose is spreading to my forehead. Even before

my relationship with Juna started, I messed it up.

I regret this day. I'm disappointed in myself. Something started flowing from the ends of my eyes. But that, feels hollow.

***

Tonight as usual, I was busy with my laptop and Mini was busy with her college work.

I hope this is a good start to my career. I still think a little about Juna. But I

sure, as time goes by, I will forget about the man.

A week. Two sundays. My days as usual. There are only office assignments, making up stories, drawing clothes designs. That's all I can do to fill the boredom. And for a long time, it also felt just as boring.

Back when my relationship with Juna was still fine, I always had a story with him. Every little moment, somehow it's so meaningful and fun.

I thought, I used to have no problem with single status. Back when I was in school, my friends were always fussing about romance. I used to think, dating is not the thing that we have to get excited about the day.

And now I'm not a student anymore. I used to need only the love of family and friends. But right now, it feels empty even though I have all that.

My mom, dad, and Karina call me every day with short messages on whatsapp. Sometimes, we also video call.

Snatch Susan and Mini still love me like they used to. They never change.

I'm sorry, why am I this stupid? I haven't got it all completely. I just

get a good job and salary. Or perhaps, I was too greedy to say that was all I got now?

I wasted a golden opportunity by throwing away men as good as Juna. It is true said Bang Haji Rhoma, if it is not new to feel, that his presence is very valuable. Too melancholy.

Now I understand why my friends used to complain about their status. Because of the fact, so jomlo is not delicious. Especially at my current stage of life.

I think I have jones disease. Depressing.

***

It's been almost a month since the incident at Sunny Cafe and Juna never called me again. But I still have the number, really.

Tonight, Mini and I watched a Korean drama on my laptop.

"Ni, next week you have no show?" ask me on Mini after receiving whatsapp from Karina.

"Nothing. Why?" Mini is still focused on the drama.

"This is. Next week Lusy's birthday, Karina told us to come. You can, can't you?"

Mini looked at me. "Lusy's birthday?"

I'm nodding. "Yes. He's been 2 years. Not powerful." I looked down with a smile, then looked back at Mini. "It's just a little birthday party. Eating the same people home."

Mini smashed her lips looking thoughtful. "I think next week I'll be free, too." She smiles. "Foolah. I also want to see Lusy." [ ]