The Stains Of The Past

Just aska

In the morning we had breakfast together at the dinner table there is breakfast with fried rice made by Bu Siti, I actually want to buy breakfast outside just not tasty Already nginep ask for more food, I actually want to eat again, but Bu Siti forbade, so had to eat breakfast with a bad feeling.

I found warmth in this family pak soleh who likes to joke and bu siti who is friendly to make suana warm, unlike in my quiet house, dad who often went out of town made the house quiet there was only mother and I at the dinner table.

I asked where there is a contract near here, Ms. Siti said in front of her house, there is an empty contract because the contract has gone home to her village, I am happy to hear her, I am happy to hear her, maybe I'll contract while there.

I asked the price of contracting the room for a month, mom said one million, because the contract is complete with a bathroom, a bit expensive actually, especially for me who has not worked, because I have not worked, but at least I have some money to give you for the next month or two, before I get a job.

I asked Siti's mom and Soleh's permission to contract the vacant room, but Siti's mom forbade her saying I was a kid to contract alone, but I convinced her that I wanted to be independent. And finally he allowed because his boarding room was also close to the house of Bu Siti. I was in between Bu Siti to see - look first, and it turned out to be quite comfortable for me to live in.

Actually afraid to live alone but want more than to live in the house of Siti's mom, if the son of Siti's mom has gone home, I will sleep where if the owner of the room will occupy his room. I also feel bad if I always bother him.

I cleaned my room at the help of Ms. Siti who turned out to be the owner of the boarding room that I would stay in, she also gave a waiver on the payment problem, he also gave a waiver, I'm not nice to Miss Siti who is too good in my opinion, I intend to pay my boarding room for at least one month in the future with the money given by the mother. But Ms. Siti refused she said just buy her money on my groceries and necessities, and finally I resigned to what Ms. Siti said.

Ms. Siti also offered me to learn to sew with her. Once I can, I can work with him as a tailor. I certainly did not refuse, I am glad I was able to work with Buk Siti. Especially with my two-bodied condition it is impossible for me to continue my education and also find work.

I also told her what I was going through, from starting me at p****a Rio until my father kicked me out of the house, Siti's mom cried and hugged me, regretting my father's decision to expel me when he heard my explanation first.

I was also disappointed in the father who kicked me out when I heard my explanation, but I tried to understand the position of the father, who was tired of going home, after arriving home he had to hear bad news from his daughter.

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I spent the days I heard learning to sew until I could, and getting to work, it wasn't easy for me to go through her days. By undergoing pregnancy in the first semester until the third I still experience morning sickness quite resigned in the morning and after noon I am excited again to work, and I am still working,. I gave birth to a son with the help of Mr. Soleh and Ms. Siti who took me to the nearest puskesmas.

Aska Putra my son's name, I pinned my father's last name on him, because even though his biological father is Rio Anggara but he has no right to my son, he has no right to my son, since Rio was only his biological father did not have any nasab on Aska, as Aska was present outside the marriage, so Aska only had nasab with her mother.

Although Aska has a civil with her biological father, so I did not pin Rio's last name.

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After I gave birth to Aska I changed my appearance, with hijab and scarf.

In addition to being taught to sew, I was also taught to teach and wear closed clothes, he said to avoid it like the previous incident, and I justify it. I know more about religion in this place, a place that was previously foreign to me.

Now it has been 15 years Aska grew up to be a handsome and smart child, yesterday Ask permission on me, to continue his High School education in Jakarta, because he got a scholarship at the best school.

I was confused as to how, where might I let Aska spend alone in Jakarta. I want to always be with Aska, but I'm also not ready if - if I meet Rio again. What else if Aska met Rio, with their face that looks like a betel in two, surely Rio can conclude that Aska is his child, if if if I knew I was his mother.

I also miss Mother's Father, lying if all this time I'm fine, I miss them very much, especially Mother who promised to follow me to aunt's house, if Mother was right to follow me, especially Mother who promised to follow me, must be worried about not finding me at aunt's house. It seems like I really should go back, if dad still doesn't accept me, at least I can see them from a distance, and a little about if seeing them is okay. It doesn't matter if I meet Rio it's up to later.

"Look what's so serious?"

" Ext look at the school brochure in Jakarta "answered Aska.

"Such a school there" I asked

"Not really, if mamah does not ngijinnin I will find a school near here just "say Aska with lethargy.

This kid is always like that if he wants to. Aska never asked me anything, but she always told me that her friend had a bike, a cellphone, or whatever she wanted. Looking at him who was always silent, and once he told me, I knew he wanted what he was telling me.

"When did school start?"ask him.

"in two weeks "Aska replied weakly.

" Jaudah next week we leave "

"Sure ma" said in disbelief, he looked at me with happy eyes.

"Yes, we'll let Enin and Aki go" I said to him

Aska hugged me while saying thank you, I hugged her back and rubbed her back.

Mama will always try to obey your wishes, son, because only you are the priority of mama at this time "my words in the heart.

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