The Stains Of The Past

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That day, where Miss Fatimah came to my cafe she left angrily leaving me until she slammed the door. I who was just silent looking at his anger let out a long sigh, inexhaustible.

I don't care what he does that I obviously don't want to accept his treasure. I also don't know why Buk Fatimah could be like that. When I first met him, he didn't look like that. Maybe this is the answer of the proverb unknown then no dear.

Today me and Aska will go to school, I intend to deliver it for too long I did not take Aska to school always rely on the fathers or Mr. Diman lately. I was too busy taking care of the cafe to not pay attention to my own son, other than the night when we gathered.

I watched Aska now who was happier, not like she used to be who was always flat. Aska who now cheaper smile to the people around him.

I was very happy to see the change of Aska, I did not expect to return to Jakarta to change Aska's attitude and give happiness to Aska.

Maybe here there are Father and Mother who always make Aska laugh happily because so many jokes from Dad.

Even though Dad looks a hard man let alone see his face, people must have been afraid if they see a stocky body, thick mustache and bald head on the front. But even so Dad's stomach is not distended. Position as a former State Servant of course makes people afraid of him yes even though the former word attached in front of him. At home Dad is a figure who likes to joke and humor.

Besides Aska being happy I'm also quite happy now to see my family get together and joke together. Dad used to be mad at me now has forgiven me even though my heart still feels so guilty.

I have also received a proposal from Abizard. thanks to Mother's insistence also Aska who asked me to accept Abidzar I accept it I do not want actually too soon like this to accept the factory let alone see what condition Abidzar deserves a woman who stopped without children like me I have a child but have never been married.

"Mother knows what you're worried about, Adel. Mother understands what you feel and think, but you also have to think about your future as well. It's enough that you live alone to take care of Aska, now is the time to forget the past and start a new story. Give a whole parent to Aska and make your family a sad family mawadah warahmah. Don't reject those who have kindly accepted your situation and Aska."

I just listen to what Mother says. Until finally I kept thinking and decided to accept Mr. Abizard. Mother was right, I must indeed make peace with the past. I can't stay shackled in that incident.

Today Mr. Abidzar's family came home to inaugurate me. There is an uncomfortable feeling in my heart when later how the family reaction Mr. Abidzar if I know in fact I already have a son, without marriage.

I don't know if if Mr. Abizard had told his parents about my situation I forgot about it, too many things I thought about until I didn't realize one thing I was afraid of, afraid if later response of Mr. Abizard's family.

I'm fine if they don't accept me, but I'm just afraid that when they find out about me and Aska, they're making a fuss like in a soap opera.