The Repentance of the Sinner

59. Resignedly

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After Jeremy's departure from his room, Abah immediately called his wife to negotiate about his santri named Hanny, who had succeeded in making the male students there as if competing to get himself through the path of Abah.

After considering, trying to think of one thing or another, Abah finally told Hanny to meet him accompanied by his wife who was also a private teacher from Hanny while at Pondok Pesantren.

"Assalamu'alaikum Abah?"

"Wa'alaikum hail, come in!"

Accompanied by Abah's wife, Hanny sat down in front of Abah, although the distance was quite far.

"Emm... Look, son, you know that dating in Islam is forbidden?" Abah just got to the point.

"Tau Abah, I've studied a lot with Ustazah." Hanny was deliberately asked specifically to be guided by Ustazah, because she felt embarrassed when the age that had been so much did not know anything, even losing the same Junior High School children who attended school there.

"Alhamdulilah then, but there is a Hadith that says that 'whoever of you has the ability, immediately get married, because marriage can subdue the view and maintain poverty."

"But sorry Bah, it seems that for now I have not been able to."

Hanny realizes who she is and her past is very dark.

"In what way?" Ask Abah back.

"Emm..."

To just talk plainly Hanny seemed to have no face anymore.

"Nak Hanny, the Prophet of the Holy Spirit encouraged young men and women who were able to get married immediately. Indeed, being able here can be interpreted as being able to physically, scientifically, mentally, or financially."

"Yes Bah, it seems that for the matter of getting married, I still do not think about Abah, because I am a woman who is far from perfect." Hanny replied while lowering her head.

"There is no perfect creature of God, son, that's why we are all assembled, to complement and perfect each other."

"But I don't seem to deserve to get married."

Especially with the failure of the wedding party for him at that time, as if Hanny's mentality had plummeted and plunged freely to the bottom of the abyss.

"Why? is it just because of your past? one thing you need to remember, son, the Apostle denounces people who live celibate lives or who delay marriage for unsavory reasons, even though he is already capable."

"Do I deserve to marry Abah? whereas I am a dirty former woman, who has many faults and mistakes."

"Why not? just as you promised yourself and promised God not to return to the wrong path, there is nothing wrong Hanny."

"Then, who is willing to marry me Abah?"

Tired of the question about who was chosen mate Abah.

"There, one of Abah's students." Answer Abah steadily.

"But?"

Actually the man he wants to be his life partner is Jeremy, but he thinks his hope is dashed because Jeremy has been paired with other women.

"But why? do you have another candidate?" Ask Abah back.

"No Abah?"

"From your face it looks like you already have another dream, try saying it?"

"I dare not expect much with him Abah?"

"But you have?"

"Then do you want to accept the candidate Abah chose?"

"On God's permission I will accept whoever Abah chooses, because I believe Abah will not mistake anyone for my life."

Hanny was already in a pinch situation, and resignation was the only path she had in mind.

"Not necessarily Abah is always right, for the True is Allah alone."

"I follow Abah." Hanny doesn't want to think much more, let alone hope for Jeremy.

"You sure? actually Abah does not want to force you, just than you become a material struggle among other students and cause bickering among them, faster to marry instead of better, right? in addition, so as not to cause slander as well, because marriage is worship and to perfect half of your religion."

"God willing I am ready Abah."

Since the rumors circulated among boarding schools, Hanny still remains ordinary, because she thinks many men want her there because they do not know her background first.

"Well, prepare yourself, pray more and pray more in one third of the night, may the man Abah chooses be the right match for you and lead you to goodness, if indeed your partner can not be a good person, the point in this life we both learn about kindness, it is never too late to learn."

"Now Abah."

"Tomorrow, after the Dzuhur prayer meet Abah at the mosque, Abah will prepare everything."

Why Abah believes that Jeremy can solve the challenge well, even though even Jeremy himself is hesitant, but strong determination will be able to defeat the ordeal of any size.

"But Abah, I haven't been honest with Abah."

"What's up, kid, just say it?"

"I. I'm Abah's extramarital son." Hanny answered with a vibrating aunt, as if she was far from good.

"Astagfirullohhal'azdim, emm.yeah it is, it is okay, our way of life in this world no one knows, if asked who would, just be grateful for what is, anyone who wants, don't be so sad, we still have God, who is always with us."

"Well Abah, thank you for not asking why and why, thank you for not taking issue with my bad origins." Hanny is so grateful to be reunited with the good people in this place.

"There's a perfect human being in this world, son, someone who has a bad past, still has a chance to be a good person in the future, just give the best whatever you can, no need to be perfect, because whatever makes you different, that makes you special."

"Thank you again, Abah." The smile behind the sadness was clearly painted on Hanny's face.

"Whoever is the man who will be with you, you must still respect him, for he is your future priest." Abah's wife gave advice to Hanny.

"Yes Ustazah."

"In a relationship the differences will always be there, but it would be wonderful if humans could unite in the differences. As long as their character and nature are still in accordance with religious rules and do not violate the provisions of the law then we should be able to respect each other."

"Thank you also ustazah, you really have taught me about many things."

"That is my duty as Ustazah here, who will always guide you to good, yes already.prepare yourself to be a future wife who always fears God, not with others."

"Hmmm.." Hanny nodded her head.

"Because of all the paths of your life, there are already those who set the scenario, do not be too humble but do not also be high-hearted, may we all survive the world and the Hereafter."

"Amen.. Amin yarobal'alamin."

Finally the smile of Abah and his wife was engraved there, Abah was deliberately not telling the candidate who would accompany Hanny, so that nothing unwanted happened.

Indeed, man is the most perfect creature of God among the creations of God, man with his brain can think, distinguish what is good and what is bad, with the brain, humans can innovate in creating something new, and humans are also complementary social creatures.

But in human perfection it turns out that God did not create all humans in this world very perfectly, every human being has its own shortcomings and advantages, and God has determined the destiny of every human being who lives in this world.