The Repentance of the Sinner

100. Sorry

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The instinct as a father that Ridwan felt towards a woman who was now sitting next to him, was indeed very strong.

Repeatedly he sighed to just cover up the pain that had been decades ago he tried to pendam deeply, but the reality is that even now is still very much in the heart.

Many cries and beautiful faces that once reigned in her heart at that time, reverberated in her mind, as if the shadow of the self that was covered by sin re-emerged at this time.

But an insult and threat from the man who was his rival at that time, and also the father of his woman at that time, as if still rumbling and tightening chest.

"Emmm... Om, my name is Hanny Claire, I'm a friend of Om's daughter." Hanny begins to open the words, as they both remain silent for a long time on a small bench near the park on the side of the road.

I know, even your face looks a lot like yours!

"Hmmm.."

Ridwan just nodded his head and did not want to look at Hanny's face, but his heart was more convinced, that the woman next to him was the fruit of his heart that he had never seen so far.

Well.. how about it? he wants to be angry or what? how did it become diem-dieman gini? kirain was going to poke or get angry just like me that, ehh...ok even tense like this atmosphere?

Hanny is confused where to start, even though she just wants to bring out her death seduction style that she had long left four eyes to Alisya's father, so as not to leak her disgrace, but now the face of the father of his best friend even looks sad.

"Om... previously I wanted to apologize about what Om saw at that time, but wouldn't as a good wife it have to obey her husband's request whenever and wherever right Om?" Hanny tries to defend herself, because that's the reality she's going through, if she refuses it's not bad she thought.

"You're married, son?"

But Ridwan's question is far from Hanny's current estimate, because Hanny had thought she would get a long talk after this.

"It's Om. and the man who was then one car with me was my legal husband, what Om needs is another proof, what Om, tomorrow I will bring our marriage book and my husband who was walking behind me is Om." Hanny tries to clarify her relationship with Jeremy, but again Ridwan's answer leaves her feeling astonished.

Sorry son, we must have had a hard time finding your marriage guardian first.

"Hmm. congratulations son." Ridwan wanted to display a smile, but the reality was very visible, if it was a forced smile.

Huh huh? kok even said congratulations anyway, this is how the plot, woah.Alisya's father is other than the others.

"Yes, thank you, um, um, but what I want to talk to Om about right now is not that wedding." Said Hanny who wanted to return their chat to the original topic.

"Have you been living right all this time, son? does your husband take good care of you? and treat you well too?" Some question words were immediately thrown at Hanny, who was now able to make both eyebrows raised upwards.

Aye? piye toh ikih's?

"What do you mean, Om?" Hanny is still trying to guess what her best friend's father really wants to say.

"You healthy? are you in college now, or are you a graduate?"

Again Hanny was made dumbfounded by questions that went off track according to her.

Hah, why even like this reunion, what does it mean try?

"Emm.. good om, all good, let alone jeremy he loves me more than anyone in the world." He tried to follow the will of the middle-aged man.

"Thank God then, are you still living with your family, or are you with your husband?" The sense of worry as someone who should be responsible to him seemed to decrease a little when he heard Hanny's answer earlier, the fear and black shadow at this time seemed to fade a little, although the guilt was still felt in his heart.

"Separ Om, this is why I was even being interviewed anyway Om, emm.just like this Om straight to the point yes, I apologized once and beg very, very much, please don't talk about the thing we did in the car yesterday in front of them all huh Om, because that's not our plan kok Om, it's purely our error, so again I apologize." Hanny even cupped her hands together and put on a face.

"Faul... Dad.. emm.that is, I didn't really mean to spread the disgrace of you two, but I was just a little surprised." He was almost speechless, as much as possible he wanted to keep his words carefully so as not to directly hurt Hanny.

"Really, thank you, Om isn't as bad as I thought." Relieved, Hanny accidentally pulls Ridwan's hand and shakes it forcibly.

Serr!

"Who's your mother's name?" Her happy smile instantly rose, as she could touch directly the skin from her flesh blood.

"Why are you asking about my mom?"

"Emm... You're the closest friend of Alisya right?" Said Ridwal while tightening Hanny's handrails.

"Yes." Yeah."

"So it doesn't matter if I want to know about your family?"

"Owh, of course, my mother's name is Diana."

"Diana who?"

"Diana Claire." Hanny replied while pulling her fingers, she felt nervous when her hands were held too tightly, she did not want her dirty thoughts to attack her who had repented in the investigation of the fruit that had been too ripe.

Degh's!

Did I guess. You really are my daughter?

"Eherm... What is your father's name?"

"Emmm... My father's long dead."

When Father's name was asked of him, his mood immediately worsened even he instantly shifted his body away from the man beside him.

Duars!

"M.. ma... die?" Ridwan's heart as if he had drawn a sword covered with embers, he did not expect that it would be hated that much by his flesh and blood, even to the point of being considered dead.

"Yes, die from my world and my mind Om." His hatred seemed to appear when he remembered the story of his existence.

"Are you sure it was, son? then do you have a dad to keep up with again?" Ridwan tried to return to calm.

"Sorry Om, it looks like our discussion is enough to get here, I'm sorry." Hanny was not at all interested in chatting a lot with people she did not know before, let alone having discussed about family, she seemed to feel allergic herself.

"If Om only wants to ask who my father is and where he is now, sorry I am not interested in answering him, I have privacy and I have the right to make the choice to answer or not to the question from Om." Hanny immediately tells him the limits of it.

"Hanny, I'm sorry if I offended you, but I just made sure my daughter's friend was okay."

Ridwan tried to control his feelings, his heart was actually very chaotic, but he had to strongly think, if not now he said this, when again, when again, because people will never know how old they are in this world, he did not want to leave this world without apologizing to his first child who knew nothing about it.

"What's Om's business? what if my family falls apart and Om forbids me from being friends with Alisya?" Hanny even thought about other things, from the first he did feel insecure when it was about family.

"Not so son, huft...how do I want to make it clear?" Ridwan took off the pecans for a moment while thinking.

"No need to explain, maybe Om thinks if Alisya befriends a child from a broken home family like me, he will be carried away in a bad environment, no." Hanny remembers that her family is a mess, although more precisely only she is a mess, because it seems not considered and not recognized.

"That's not it, Hanny, just listen to my explanation."

"If Om is really afraid that I will have a bad impact on Alisya, fine." Hanny got up straight from her seat, and leaving was what she thought was best for everyone.

"Dad, whatever this is, until whenever Hanny is my best friend, even she has been considered as my own family, she helps me a lot Dad, Dad, he helped me a lot, even Hanny paid off our family's debt to Yoga, and that's all without me asking Dad!" Suddenly Alisya ran over and embraced Hanny's arm, she was eavesdropping, although her voice was sometimes clear sometimes not because carried by the wind.

"Because. huft.." Ridwan rubbed his face first before he admitted to such a bitter honesty. "Because you are brothers." Finally he told her the biggest secret of his life.

Degh's!

"I mean Dad?" Alisya immediately jumped in shock.

"I'm sorry.I'm sorry, son."

Ridwan could no longer hold back his tears, his lips quivering, his tongue was twisted, he wanted to explain everything, but he was at a loss where to start.

"Dad has a child besides me? and that's Hanny? I'm not kidding, is this not funny Dad?" Alisya seems not to want to believe what his father said, but all this time his father is not the type of parent who likes to joke, but he is not, even when chatting with family, he only said important things.

"No, you're brothers, but different mothers." Ridwan said back while thinking about what evidence he had to give them to believe, whereas he did not have any evidence from his past.

"Well, why don't you ever tell me? so mom's Dad's second wife?" Ask Alisha back.

"Huft.pardon Dad, here's the wrong Dad, your mom's only Dad's wife." Ridwan rubbed his tears that kept dripping. "But Hanny was in her mother's possession before Dad married your mother." Saying back.

It is very difficult for him to explain it, but according to Ridwan, his first daughter must know and deserve to know, even though the business is behind somehow later.

"What's? So dad impregnated another woman and left her in such a state?" Alisya who saw his father all this time was so straight in his path, but it turned out to have been out of line before and it was very surprising for him.

"Hm... I'm sorry, because Dad was once a sinner."

"But why must Hanny Dad? do you know how miserable Hanny's life is because of her family problems, especially when it comes to her father? god, I didn't expect that cruel Dad, Hanny was even so hurt by Dad who didn't acknowledge his existence, and that Dad turned out to be my own Dad?" Alisya longed to think that this was just a dream, but alas, this is all real.

"HE'S NOT MY DAD!" Hanny suddenly cried hysterically.

"Hanny, I can explain everything." Ridwan tries to calm Hanny down.

"MY FATHER IS DEAD!" He immediately fended off the hand of Ridwan who wanted to touch him.

"HANNY, I'M YOUR FATHER!"

"Sad.. I don't give a shit! ever since I was born into this world without being judged by him, he's been dead to me!" The hatred seemed to regain control of him, especially with the fact that this man had made his life tormented all this time, because all this time he had grown without parental affection like the others, even he is always differentiated by his adek.

"Hanny, this isn't what you think it is, this isn't what you want."

"Alisya, I'm home!" Hanny doesn't want to hear it anymore.

"Hanny, wait son!"

"I'M NOT YOUR SON, UNDERSTAND!" Shouted Hanny with breath that was already panting because it held back the emotions that were about to explode.

"Dad knows, Dad is not a good father to you, you deserve to hate Dad, but one you need to know, Dad also loves you very much, like Daddy loves Alisya, he said, it's just another state of saying, son, I'm sorry."

The tears of a father came back, he really missed his first child, actually he wanted to try to meet him but he seemed to find no trace of him and had no cost to hire a detective or anything like that, because to give a living to his family at this time he was still lacking even to the point of being in debt.

"Alisya, just this time I'm so sorry to come see you." Bump Hanny who immediately melengos.

"Hanny?" Alisya was confused as to what to do.

"I'm sorry if after this, maybe we won't be able to be like we used to." Hanny couldn't remember her past anymore, because it was very painful for her.

"But Han?"

"Good bye."

"SISTER!" Shouted Alisya suddenly, and it was able to make Hanny turn her head for a moment.

"Don't call me that, I don't want to and never expect to be your brother, let alone your father's son, I hate him!"

Hanny immediately ran with tears that she could no longer bear, the reality was so difficult for her to accept, he, who initially tries to bury all his bad memories and create new, more beautiful memories with Jeremy, must now be re-scratched with his biological father's sudden confession.

"Darling, what's wrong with you?" Jeremy who was looking for her immediately panicked when he saw Hanny run from a distance.

"Mas, let's go home!" Hanny shouted with her voice.

"Yes, but don't run, you're being-" she interrupted as she watched her woman grimace in pain.

"Argh.. Oh my stomach!" Hanny Stint.

"DADDY!"

Jeremy immediately ran and caught Hanny's body that had begun to collapse, even Hanny's two hands gripped her stomach which suddenly felt pain very much.

Life is sometimes very complicated, but we have to keep going, and one that we need to remember, that the Red Light will not always be Red, because there are still Yellow and Green lights waiting.