The Rain of the Message-Bearer Longs

My decision

I walked over and he was so surprised. He was going to leave, but I was holding him.

"Can we talk? " take a ask to him.

Take me to his apartment. Stomach's enlarged. I know the contents have entered the period of preparation for birth.

"Where is he? " Take a ask to him.

Azura seemed to laugh a little. "Don't you know for yourself? " he said turn to me.

Yeah, he's not wrong. Alfan had spread the news throughout the campus and everyone hated Azura at this moment.

"How old are you? " my back.

"Died waiting for the time of birth, "Azura replied.

I just took a long breath. Azura seemed to have calmed down. He's as usual.

"Afan? " just ask him.

"He pays the rent every month. Some of the leftover money I set aside the preparation of the body, "Azura replied.

I took out some money and I gave it to him.

"Thank you for your good intentions, but I don't need to be pitied" Azura said.

"This is not for you, but your baby, "reply me to him. He fell silent and then received my money.

"I thank you. No need to worry, I will not kill this baby because of my own selfishness" Azura said.

I say goodbye and go home to the apartment. As usual, I came across the idea of writing a poem back.

"If someone else wants to live, someone wants to die. Birth and death are life processes. That is why the world was created because the Hereafter is eternal"

Either poetry or ordinary sentences, but in the notes on the page I wrote a title "Two different views". I was thinking when I saw Azura's life process where I first saw her fighting with her boyfriend.

I walked a few days. Today I chose a detour and it is different from before. Tonight I saw a pregnant woman carrying her groceries, I wanted to help her. He didn't see that there was a car speeding. I screamed and ran. I hugged her body I replaced my body as her baby's protector. My eyes were dark. The woman shocks until blood flows through her legs.

"People!! " the scream of the woman who was none other than Azura.

The car that hit him stopped. Someone got out of the car. Azura looked up to see Alfan standing up while smiling.

"You better die! " said Alfan beat Azura to unconsciousness.

Alfan got into the car leaving the two of them. Blood pooling. Someone walked to see the victim hit-and-run immediately called the ambulance. The siren sounds.

Nearest hospital to the ambulance. An emergency break with the obstetrician immediately came when he saw that Azura's membranes had ruptured. They will perform the operation. Azura was aware of the weak state. She was talking about saving the baby.

Emergency operation room is set up. A few days later, a baby girl was born. Azura hugged him weakly. The doctor told him that his son was disabled. He smiled knowing that the child in his carrier was his son with his own father. Azura speaks in English to the doctor and like this if in Indonesian.

"If my best friend needs help then my body can be used. Please tell him to take care of my son. Sorry if I bother him, " said Azura closing her eyes.

The sound of a crying baby is loud. He had not yet given his own son a name. A blind baby girl is the child she gave birth to. In the other emergency room, my body was lying down. The doctor performed a bone operation. Some of my bones were broken until my condition worsened with my head growing.

A few moments later I realized that I was in a hospital room with a body that could not be moved at all because of the pain when moved. Faza and Victor came in surprised to see me.

"What about the mother and the baby? " tanyaku.

Faza took a deep breath before speaking.

"The person you saved was Azura. She died after giving birth and left a message to you to take care of her child, ", Faza said.

I was really surprised. He is Azura! My head's dizzy.

"Where's his son? " tanyaku.

Sister came after being summoned by Victor. He brought the baby that Azura was born with. I saw him that he was blind who suspected me that it was the son of his own father.

"She I named Elena Bethany, "I said slowly. Cute little baby is fast asleep. The nurse took him back away.

"Lo will be on leave for 3 months" said Victor.

I know I can't force myself. This incident made me dizzy with various problems. On one side I was afraid I couldn't graduate on time and on the other I became a foster father.

"Is my destiny like this? " Slowly muttered.

Faza and Victor they chatted before saying goodbye they said that the cost issue was nothing to worry about. I don't dare call my family at this time. I intend to sleep because I feel really uncomfortable.

Someone opened the door. I know who that guy is. He is Angel.

"Where? " ask me.

I replied with a smile. Angel approached.

I shook his head. He is my responsibility. Azura's last will should be executed.

"He whoareyou? " ask Angel.

"My best friend? " my answer is firm.

"Why does it trouble you? Didn't you think of her as a solution place including her son? " reply to Angel.

"The baby was born special, of course I have to take good care of it. He's my adopted son from now on, "I said calmly.

"You'll regret it someday. Not that I'm threatening you, but your good image will be destroyed in an instant. Remember, he's not your son" Angel replied.

We are both silent. It is true that what he said is true. I'm not who he is. But I promised at that time to him to fight together to heal the wounds of the heart. He has been free to be happy there while I will take care of his baby.

"If it's your decision then I'll appreciate it, but I'm sorry that we got here" said Angel.

I just kept quiet. Disappointed? That's certain. But my determination was already unanimous to take care of that special baby. I cried? The answer is it. I lay there and could not wipe my tears.

"I won't let him lose a second time. Let me feel alone and lonely but don't let Elena feel it too, "I said determinedly.

What I've felt all my life can't be felt by Elena. Loneliness and feelings banished let me endure them.

One year has passed. Now I have graduated with the best predicate. Both my legs are coming. I took him to my apartment. When the door opened, my two brothers wondered why there were toddlers.

"Who is he? " ask my second sister Sela.

"He's my son" I replied.

The slap was aired by my first brother Arumi.

"What did you say! " Crowd it on me.

"Who's mother! "

"He was dead, "my answer was short.

"Basin' bad boy! How dare you impregnate someone! " my first brother said angrily.

"He's my adopted son, "I said trying to give him a reason.

"Fuck up with a foster child or not. Lookie! He's blind!"

"Sister! " cry with anger.

"He's special! Brother has no right to abuse her. I'll take care of him! " i said with anger.

My second brother calmed down Arumi's brother who was in a state of heightened anger.

"Take him to the parlour or you don't have the right to set foot in the house! " said my first brother go out of my room.

My second brother took a long breath.

"Sir Arumi is right. He will be a burden to you. Brother will give help one last time, "said my second brother went after brother Arumi.

I'm silent. Faza held Elena. The baby was fumbling around looking for my face. He stroked my cheek rubbing the tears dripping down my cheek. She speaks a baby language I don't understand.

I smile. I can't explain this in words. Angel left me because I insisted on keeping Elena.

"Want to go back to Indonesia? " ask Victor.

I nodded my head. "After Elena turns 5, I'll be back, "I replied.

Victor understands. Some time it was peaceful. My life has changed since Elena's presence as my pen. Did anyone ask Angel? She was happy because she had been proposed to her lover.

5 Years passed. Right now Elena and I are standing in front of Azura's grave.

"Dad! Is this mom's grave? " ask Elena.

"Yes, "I replied gently.

Elena touched the tombstone and kissed it. He spoke and I heard him.

"Mother! Even though you take care of me, I have no less affection. Relax there." said Elena.

I squatted petting Azura's gravestone.

"Although we don't have a clear relationship, but we did promise together. Look Elena has grown. I'll take him home to the homeland. I will fight hard from the beginning. I'll look for your big brother until he meets Elena, "I mumbled slowly.

Elena held my hand. He hinted to leave. I understood and carried her. Today the story of where I was in Holland is over. The lesson I can learn is that sometimes we do not know who is always cheerful, he is the one who keeps the wound. A couple will never hurt their soulmate. When we open our hearts and feel the match turns out He only likes the physical or other. Helping and sacrificing someone is always risky. Special children deserve to be happy because they are the same as everyone else. Even the closest family sometimes hurts without them knowing. My trip to Holland in addition to continuing graduate school turned out I found life lessons. If only at that time I would have expressed my feelings for her then we could have taken care of this special child together. I will promise myself to always be grateful and cherish the name of life.