The Point of Time in the Heart of Gendhis

Yuuk ngedate

It didn't feel like we had a month of our anniversary. We rarely meet because of our respective busyness, just a phone call or whatshapan. I'm busy with my final semester exams and Sister Nehan is busy in the hospital. After drying my clothes, I fell asleep in bed while listening to Kahitna's Love Alone song.

You reveal to me / There will come a time later /, You are mine one / I wait in worry / Is it really me / Love you want / Let me go / If not also sure / Is it all this time / I love myself / Let me pull over/ Not tired waiting / But what does it mean / Love in the shadow / Sad I feel/The reality / Love does not have to / Mutually have / Honestly I am not sure I can /Live a day without you / But what does it mean /Love in the Shadow /Let me go / If not also sure / Is it all this time / I love myself / Let me pull over / Not tired of waiting / But what does it mean / Love in the shadow / Sad I feel / The reality / Love does not have to /Have each other.

It is difficult to escape the memories of someone so special. Inwardly asked, Do I still deserve to be made a fool by illogical feelings. It's still worth me continuing to drag on in grief while she doesn't know how I've been feeling all along. I realized from this reflection, I need to be happy in my life. I must open my heart to others like Brother Nehan. I didn't want him waiting for me until I lost him because I ignored him and my selfishness.

After realizing how valuable Brother Nehan is, I called him. All this time I was too passive and indifferent. I never called or texted him first as if I didn't need him. It all started with Nehan, as if he was the one who fought alone. Alright from now on I will try to balance it even though the heart is not well arranged. I have to fight to find my true love.

I changed the name of Nehan to Habibi. I dialed Tiit's number on the count of three, the phone picked up.

"Hallo Assalammu'alaikum Nay, Brother's phone tumben?"

"Waalaikumsalam Kak, tonight Brother duty to the hospital ga?".

"No, what's wrong?".

"Nay want to take Brother out to dinner can't Kak?".

"Wah tumben Nay ngajak kak brother out".

"Sister I don't want to if I don't want to, Nay wants to go out with my friend".

"By the pleasure of Nay, do not sulk dong, I was just surprised, well later run out Maghrib Brother pick up".

"But brother, assalammu'alaikum".

"Waalaikumsalam" replied Nehan.

I also get ready for our first date so as not to be embarrassing, I apply thin makeup, I like natural. I'm wearing a soft unggu, my favorite color. It's pretty! I praise myself in front of the mirror. Now I feel relieved after making the decision to open my heart to Nehan. Nay spirit, sure Kak Nehan good people will not menggecewain. After Maghrib, brother kos called me and told me that there were guests outside.

"Hi old sister can't see you," my clothes.

Nehan's brother looked at me. "Why are you so quiet?".

"Beautiful!" exclaim Brother Nehan.

"Come to play gombal aja Kak".

"It's true that Nay is beautiful tonight".

"Ooh, do you mean yesterday that wasn't pretty?" I sucked my lips.

"Udah yuk we leave so ga kemalaman ntar home".

We chose to eat steak. While waiting for the food to cook, we chatted lightly until then I revealed my feeling of chest tightness.

"Sister, I'm sorry Nay who's been stupid and indifferent to Big Brother".

"Help Nay to open his heart slowly for Brother".

I was amazed by Nay's explanation, but I was grateful that Nay changed and accepted me.

"Definitely Nay, let's grow together, support each other and remind if it's wrong".

"Thank you, Nay, for accepting Brother with an open heart".

" Together, my sister answered".

We enjoyed the steak served with a feeling of pleasure. After that we joked after eating, I became not reluctant and stiff again. Since the first date, our relationship has improved, Nehan every day, taking the time to stop by the boarding house to eat together or just chat and joke. It didn't feel like our relationship was six months long.

From this journey of my life, I realized that life is full of choices. We want to fall into sadness or rise up to fight because of the many branches of life that we have not yet cut down. The choice I made, I wanted to rise up to fight for my happiness by opening my heart to Brother Nehan. He's a girl, handsome, smart, polite and charismatic man so there's no reason for me to turn him down. It would be stupid if I didn't give it a chance because it didn't come in two.

Suddenly my phone vibrated the sign of an incoming message in the roomchat.

/Assalammu'alaikum Nay./

/ Nay today again dikos?/

/Wa'alaikumsalam Brother./

/ Nay again out the same friend Kak find a book in gramedia Kak./

/ Sister pick up now can't you?/

/ could Brother./

/otw./

I smiled at myself reading it.

"Cieeee who is seneng run out yayang uhuin dihatshap" Maya said.

"What is the usual May, May like I have to go home first how?".

"Yes, I'm not looking for Nay".

After getting Maya's permission to go home first, I went out of the gramedia to the front page of the gramedia, so that Nehan did not have trouble finding me. Ten minutes later, Kak Nehan's car entered the parking lot. I walked to his car, opened the door and said hello. Brother Nehan smiled at me and answered my greetings. Brother Nehan asked me to eat chicken satay. While waiting for satay to mature, we chatted.

"Nay, tomorrow is Sunday, can you play at home tomorrow?".

"Tumben Kak ngajak Nay play at home".

"Mama and Papa want to meet you, will you?".

"Hmm Nay is actually afraid Kak and not ready to meet with Om and Aunt, not yet done that, but Nay will try to get acquainted".

" thank you Nay, my parents are fine, take it easy".

"Sama-sama Brother".

Once the order comes, we eat it immediately. As per the agreement, Brother Nehan will pick me up at nine in the morning. After shubuh kumabainanin to wash clothes and clean the room. No time shows at eight in the morning, thank God there is no need to queue the bathroom so do not rush to shower and dress up. The estimate did not miss, very fitting, as soon as Nehan Brother arrived, I was finished with all the preparations. Kusamperin Nehan's sister is waiting for me in the boarding yard.

"Come" said Brother Nehan.

"Sister, before I met Om and Auntie, we stopped by the fruit shop first".

"Nay want to buy fruit as a hand, unfortunately there is nothing".

"Alright if it can make you relieved".

I smiled at Nehan's response. At the fruit shop, I asked the seller to make a parcel containing various fruits. It did not feel the journey took half an hour until we arrived at the residence of Kak Nehan. I was so nervous because it was my first experience meeting my girlfriend's parents.

"Nay, don't be groggy donk, Mama and Papa aren't fierce, not even humorous".

"What's your big look?"

"Banget" said Brother Nehan.

Come Nay must be nice to meet him-beliau, I try to eliminate the feeling of groggy with positive thinking.

"Udah calm, time to enter" said Brother Nehan.

I just nodded in answer.

"Assalammu'alaikum," we say hello.

"Wa'alaikumsalam," replied the parents of Nehan.

I put a small fruity parcel on the table near the guest chair.

"Ma, Pa knows this is Nayra, Nehan's girlfriend".

Blush was very embarrassed by the words of Brother Nehan just now.

"Hello Om, Auntie what's up, I'm Nayra, Brother Nehan's friend".

I shake hands and kiss Papa and Mama Kak Nehan's hands.

"Hallo is also Nay, me, Radit, and this is my wife, Rina, Papa Mamany Nehan".

Beyond my predictions, they were very good at welcoming me. We had a casual conversation until we entered lunch.

"Nay, Aunty lives before lunch" said Aunt Rina.

I also excuse Om Radit and Brother Nehan to the kitchen.

"Can Nay help Tan?".

."Nayra says here, then dirty clothes" said Aunty.

"Just relax tan, can be overcome with the apron" tudingku.

I didn't see an apron hanging on the kitchen wall.

"Oiya was Nehan's sister, put on aja kiddo, she now lives in Solo, follow her husband".

"Nay can cook?" tanya Aunty Rani .

"Can Tan but the simple hehehe".

"Can Nay help cook Te's vegetables?"

"By dong, Auntie will be curious about Nay's cuisine".

With Aunt Rina's consent, I cooked a cha pakcoy. It wasn't until fifteen minutes that my cooking was cooked. Time to be served at the dinner table. During helping Aunt Rina in the kitchen, Om Radit and Kak Nehan apparently went to the mosque, praying dhuhur.

"Assalammu'alaikum," greetings from Om and Nehan when entering the house.

"Wa'alaikumsalam" we answered.

"Food is ripe, mumpung is still hot, we eat first" said Aunt Rina.

"Pa, Nehan tried to taste Nay's cooking, cha pakcoy revealed" Aunt Rina.

"It's right" said Om Radit.

"Prospective wife of dreams, Nehan," kelekar Om and Aunt.

My face blush must be so red in shame for their appreciation. After eating, I performed the dhuhur prayer at Kak Nehan's house. After that we talk until two in the afternoon. I've been tired and want to rest soon finally say goodbye to Om and Auntie. Actually Om and Aunt hold me for a break in the guest room, but I'm embarrassed, the cook just came first to play a ride to sleep. Finally Nehan took me home.

On the way there is no talk because I sleepy and overslept while walking. I woke up when I felt the car engine was no longer running. My eyes slowly opened and realized that I was sleeping in the car.

"So, why don't you wake me up when I get there?".

"Ga tega Nay, it looks like you are very tired, already there moved the room continue to sleep after the asar prayer".

So bad for me, shy again my mind.

"Udah don't have to mostly think of a night out so rest".

"Please brother, be careful on the road".

Nehan POVs

The first time Nayra called to ask me out surprised me. Usually I call and text, sometimes I feel struggling. Tired cannot be denied but I try to survive. It was unexpected that he dared to express his feelings to accept me. He asked me to help open his heart slowly, a sign that my hope was starting to shine. It is not unexpected that the human heart can be turned back if Allah wills. On what basis can he make the decision to accept me. It is not necessary to find the cause that is important we are open to each other with our feelings is enough.

As soon as I got home, Mama, it was crazy to come up to me stating that Mama and Papa agreed with my choice. Mama likes him. According to Mama, she is a polite woman, smart cook and definitely a dream daughter-in-law. I could only ask Mama for a prayer so that Nay and I would mate. According to Mama rarely now there are girls who want to go down to the kitchen, very independent looks when he is young and the youngest child is usually spoiled.

I am happy and grateful that both my parents have blessed us. But I'm still worried if Nay meets his ex. I'm not gonna let this happen and let go of what's mine. Maybe people are looking at me. No problem, I just want to keep my happiness. I can definitely keep Nay in my life.