The Owner of My Heart
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A few days on set I spent constantly seeking Raka's attention. I did everything in accordance with what he liked with information from Raysa's sister. I also pay more attention to even change my style of dress that initially always looks sexy now more closed.
I kept bothering him sticking near her.
"You guys got a cinlok?" mas Roy's question made my face red like a boiled crab.
" don't make rumors dong mas" replied Raka.
The answer that changed my embarrassed smile became a little moody.
" Yes, you go on alone like this world belongs to both of you, even yesterday I saw you go home together".
" it's not what Roy thought it was. My car tire suddenly deflated yesterday so I was forced to take Tiara's car because our goal was the same" Raka explained straightening the wild thoughts of other crews. The flat tire was my job so I could go home with Raka. I pay people to put down the tires of his car, cunning not but a fair cunning way of fighting for love.
" o that's. There is also a relationship pa-pa, you fit the beautiful one that is handsome".
" this mas Roy exists - there is only one" Raka replied with a simple smile.
Does Raka have no interest in me even a little, when out there a lot of men who want to have me but I refuse. Besides, everything I do does not give the impression for him in the slightest or he just does not want the reporters to know his personal life because Raka is a low-profile artist. I'll make sure today to express my feelings after filming. Today is the last day we complete the project "The Owner of My Heart".
Finally it was over Mas Roy asked us all to celebrate a small party because our work was done waiting for our film to air in the cinema. In a room there was provided food and drink and a small stage to show the talent - the hidden talent of the crew enlivened our little party tonight.
Mas Roy gave a little word of welcome then the event continued as he liked to sing together, the food available to release joy together because all the crew was like family when starting work until now. Whereas I took Raka somewhere just the two of us to express my feelings.
" What did you want to say to Ra, did you say you wanted to say something?"
" by the way, papa, it's me being horrified"
" actually. i...emm..actually"
"hahahaha you're so gagu, by the way" Raka was still waiting for me to speak but it felt like my voice was hard to get out.
"actually I want to say I like you, I like it since you helped me at Club xx first. I kept trying to find you, find out all about you" relieved I could finally finish my words. Raka just seemed to be silent whatever he had in mind
" Is that girl really you, why don't I realize it" Raka said as she continued to watch over me. I just nodded my head.
" I don't really want to hurt anyone, I'm sorry I can't accept your feelings because my heart already has someone. I don't want to hurt you so I'm sorry I had to say all this".
I was just trying to smile but this heart hurts to hear Raka's rejection but I tried to fret not let these tears show my heart now. this heart chooses to love Raka but I do not demand the person I love to love me either. I am happy to see her happy even though this heart also hurts.
" it's okay, I love you but I don't demand that you love me this is my choice".
" i'm sorry Ra. at least we can still be close friends"
" it's true we can be friends" I said with a smile forced to hide the wound in my heart. Raka hugged me giving peace to my heart.
My love foundered a sense of happiness turned into a deep wound in my heart, wanting it to feel like I quickly went from the presence of Raka, crying as hard as possible to pour out every wound in my heart on the night, but Raka still hugged me trying to comfort me. I also don't want Raka to feel bad if I know I'm saddened by her rejection because that's why I pretend to smile as if everything is fine.
