The Hate His Touch

Contrition

Albert thrust a black box at me. I pushed the box while shaking my head.

"Thank you" he said.

"No, I don't want to accept that. I just want you to let me work and go home" I said blankly.

I saw Albert who seemed stiffened at my request.

"At least until I clean up Clara," I said without caring about Albert.

"Give me one last chance before you actually take me. I just want to feel happiness for a moment" I said.

Tears are dripping down my cheeks. I shook with my sobs. I heard Albert breathing out his tiredness.

"All right," he said without looking at me.

"Thank you" I said.

I walked into my room. I looked at the maid chief who entered my room with a brown envelope. He gave me the envelope he was carrying without speaking.

"Wouldn't you look for me at the moment"

"I know where you are. I know what Albert did. I think that's best for you. Only Mr. Albert can help you" said the chairman.

"I'm on perk*sa and that's what you said was better? I lost the treasure I've been guarding all this time. I lost it all because of you. I really hate you. You better leave me. You can only add to the wounds I've been feeling" I said angrily.

"Before I leave, open the envelope and I hope you can see how stupid you have been. Once I make sure everything goes well, I'll leave. I won't be on your side anymore" he said softly.

I open the rough envelope on my desk. I looked at the pictures in front of me. I researched every photo that depicted the figure of the man I had known all along. The man was talking to Clara. The man even made out with Clara. I shed tears as the pain that broke my heart began to strike me. That man is the one I've loved all along. He's Andrew, the man who managed to take my heart.

"Aren't you satisfied with the picture? Come with me," said the chief maid.

I looked at the chief maid who was also looking at me. I slowly got up and tried to follow him. The chief maid opened the car door for me. I hesitated to enter the car.

***

The chairman of the maid took me to a restaurant. I followed him until we entered the VIP room. The chief maid hurriedly pulled me into the special room of the waiter in this room.

"Are they gonna be here any minute?" said the chief maid to one of the servants here.

I just kept waiting for what the Chairman wanted to show me. Soon Clara arrived and the waiters served her a drink. About 30 minutes later Andrew arrived. I stared blankly at those who were making out.

"I love you" said Clara.

I saw that smile when I heard the words of love from Clara. Andrew stroked the soft cheek of Clara. I slowly came out of my hiding place.

"You did it .. You guys were great. I'm amazed at your abilities" I said.

I looked at Andrew who was starting to get up from his place. I wiped my tears.

"Thank you for everything .. thank you for giving me the opportunity ... to be happy .. thank you for giving me the opportunity .. love you .. thank you... I can calmly leave you like this .. I'm sorry if ... all this time I've been troubling you" I said with a gentle smile to them.

I saw regret in Andrew's eyes. I turned my gaze to Clara.

"Auntie, I know all" I said, which made Clara even more surprised by my call.

I slowly sat down in front of him. I still put on my smile even though tears were running down my cheeks.

"I'm sorry for my family, I'm sorry for my grandfather who couldn't take care of your mother and you so well .. forgive my grandmother's mistake of throwing you away.I'm sorry for my mother who couldn't find you or prevent my grandmother from doing that to you. Forgive them .. one thing you should know, mommy's been looking for you." I'm lirih.

"No, you're all mean and cruel. You deserve all of that" Clara said angrily.

I slowly got up from my place. I stared at him softly. He looks angry looking at me.

"Meet me at home.I'll tell you everything I got .. It's about our family," I said.

I looked at Andrew for the last time. I tried to smile before leaving.

"I love you" I said as I walked away.

The pain in my heart slowly overwhelmed me. I try to keep walking in a limp. It feels like your soul is being forced out of your body. I cried when I entered the car. I hit my chest which was very painful. The chief maid tried to stop me from hitting myself.

"It's too painful .. I can't hold on. .. It's too torturing for me" I said in between sobs of my tears.

The chief maid grabbed me in her arms. He tried to calm me down by rubbing my trembling back.

"A little more .. you will calm down with Mr. Albert" said the chairman of the maid.

I stared blankly at the diary mommy book. I read this book when Mr. Robert handed it to me. Mommy asked Mr. Robert to keep his Diary book that he had finished writing. Mommy asked Mr. Robert to just give me this book. At first I smiled as I read mommy and daddy's love story. I felt mommy loved daddy so much, but I fell silent while reading mommy's writing a week before they had an accident. Mommy told me that she found lipstick marks and smelled a woman's perfume on a daddy's shirt. He also got a photo of daddy's affair.

There is no photo that mommy got as she wrote in the diary because mommy burned it. I don't know who that woman is, but I was hurt when I read mommy's words that were devastated when she found out what daddy did. Mommy and daddy looked fine in front of me. I remember how sad daddy was to know that my mommy and sister died in that accident. I cried feeling the pain that mommy felt. The wound in my heart increased after I read my diary. What hurt me the most was the fact that mommy was looking for Clara for years. He kept looking until he was killed by the sister he had been looking for.

"Mommy .. I'm sorry I couldn't protect you. Forgive me for bothering you .. I'm sorry that you couldn't share your pain at that time .. I love you." I said in my tears.

***

I gave the old book I brought from my room to Clara. He read every single book. I saw him crying while reading half of his book. He looked at me with astonished eyes. I smiled weakly while nodding. He looked back down and read every verse of mommy's sentence. I let out a tired breath as I felt my chest tight. I looked at the photo of mommy on the wall. I wish mommy could calm down there. If you think I'm going to kill Clara, that's a big mistake. I wouldn't do that because he's my only family right now.

I have other intentions. I'm not going to put him in jail. There are punishments more painful than that. Let him live with all his regrets. He won't get any forgiveness from my mother. He won't get my forgiveness. Because I will leave her in regret that will make her more devastated, but I am relieved because mommy's desire is granted to find the stepbrother she has been looking for.