The Great Star

CHAPTER 44

I've been through a lot of trouble for the sake of trouble

I hope I will always be able and able to for the problems that will come to the fore because I know that it will not be possible for us to live without problems, he said,

it doesn't matter if there is a problem we become better people.

I made every problem in my life for a lesson and a teacher for me,

because the problem comes actually brings a truth that sometimes makes us not want to accept the truth ourselves,

the truth that we need to always learn and keep trying because we should not feel more right or more clever actually we are still both continue to learn

so the problem came so that I always do not forget that I am still stupid and need to always learn and improve ourselves.

it's been almost ten days since shany left without saying goodbye to me,

if I remember very sad and this heart feels very guilty

because why I don't know if my best friend is not okay

I always pray that you can be happier there and always remember that I love you so much

today I have to work overtime because I had time off a few days ago,

there are so many people waiting for me

I was too lazy with my responsibility

because I have to overtime so I ask permission from aunt huan (the one who took care of zain) if I come home late today,

when I was busy cleaning up my work I accidentally heard someone say that next week the engagement of jackson you with his girlfriend's husband will be held,

I try not to respond to the news,

but my heart wants to find the truth about it I don't know I sometimes offend myself

after I finished work, I got ready to go home,

I see it's 22; 45 is very late

I wish there were buses tonight because if there wasn't one I would have to take a very expensive taxi,

because it's been a few days off so my money savings have begun to thin so I have to save more

zain had also started to grow so soon he also had to need to go to school

I got to the bus stop and there I did not wait long and finally the bus arrived

the distance from home to work is about 30 minutes

after arriving I immediately went down and I saw on the stop screen there was a photo of jackson and sami, and,

the news is true

they will soon be engaged in a written statement of the date and time

no wonder this news became big because of the fact that they are both great artists,

I saw Jackson was very handsome in the photo session he was wearing white clothes with very neat sami is also very beautiful they are a very harmonious couple

I was silent in that place somehow long until finally the rain that fell that woke me up from my admiration to see the pair of big stars.

I ran away from their photos and tried to get home because Zain must have been waiting for me.

when I want to sleep but instead I love the news of jackson and sami

I don't know what I was thinking, the shadow of Jackson and me together appeared in front of my eyes I saw Jackson coming home to my house and playing with zain

I also saw Jackson eating at my dinner table while we talked together

I don't feel my tears falling my heart hurts so much

why should those memories come when I want to forget them myself

jackson who used to be so cold that he could get warm to me finally he froze and no longer wanted to see me just because I was wrong he said

I purposely did not give him an explanation because I knew I was nobody to him so my explanation would be useless for him

because Sami will always be useful to him.

I saw the sleeping zain getting deeper in my heart's wound my tears were getting more and more flowing

"forgive me your mama's son can't give you your whole happiness yet but rest assured that mama will be the best for you"

I want to forget about the time and time that I was with Jackson,

I was happy with him

and I should be able to be ordinary by his cause