The End of the Waiting for Love and Love

Own decision

From Fita's statement yesterday, it seems that I am starting to worry about continuing my activities at HIMATI. All this time I follow HIMATI because Fita's invitation is not my own will. While I also several times could not follow the activities of HIMATI because it chose the focus of the lecture.

I have to make my own decisions, so that I don't feel burdened.

I finally decided to stop following HIMATI activities.

But my decision was against Fita.

"Shy... "

"why?"

"Tomorrow UAS, are you ready?"

"Who is.. Why is that?"

"Father, just me"

"hemva... Oya you have parental permission to participate in the inauguration?"

"Hemm I really want to say"

"Say what?"

"Tomorrow I can't attend the inauguration"

"Why don't you come?"

"Hemm yes Fita.."

"Why?"

"I'm not comfortable in HIMATI, so I want to get myself together"

"Anywhat's so uncomfortable about Lara? Try telling me"

"Hemmm. how about..."

"Say me"

"In fact, all this time I just follow your will, until you participate in HIMATI activities even I participate. Which makes me uncomfortable because I find it difficult to accept material or practices from seniors, while you can immediately mingle with seniors. Senior is also mostly men, I am not comfortable with them. If again they like to smoke, continue to joke with harsh words, while I am not used to it all. Sorry about Fita.."

"Ohh, so that's what makes you uncomfortable. But if I tell Angga's sister later, they must have changed. Be calm, you don't have to back down"

"Can't be Fita, anyways natural if they like that they're already used to it. You might be able to adapt easily, whereas I can't be Fita."

"Hemm. but later in the inauguration event many kok girls. You don't have to worry, Ra... In fact, the word Angga in HIMATI is a lot of girls, just because they are busy working so do not take to the secret"

"Well, let's keep doing what I'm doing at the inauguration, if I can't join the activities"

"Hemm, yes, it's up to you... I also cannot understand... I'm going to the secret first"

"I'm sorry, Fita..."

Then Fita just left.

Maybe this decision of mine will make Fita feel disappointed. But this is my choice.

The next day Brother Angga came to see me. He wanted to talk to me about my decision.

After college in the first hour, I just got off the 2nd floor. Fita went first to the secret. Angga's brother was sitting on the 1st floor, he saw me and called me.

"Lara.." Angga called me.

"Yes, brother." I replied.

"Which face?"

"Udah first go down earlier"

"Cock first, not together?"

"Hemm.. Maybe Fita hastily sister"

"Oh, sit here, we'll talk"

"Yes my brother"

"To the point by Lara.. I really just want to talk about it"

"Have you told my sister?"

"Yeah, but I want to hear it directly from you"

"Hmmm..."

"Where is Lara, you want to know why you can't participate in HIMATI activities?"

"So gini brother... I actually can not participate HIMATI activities lately because I focus kulia, many group tasks that I can not ignore. So I chose to focus on it"

"Hemm, but that's not what Fita said yesterday?"

"Yeah... Besides that I am also not comfortable in HIMATI, I am not good at mingling with senior-senior guys. So it's a little awkward, brother."

"Hemm yes sorry in advance, if the state of HIMATI and senior room makes you uncomfortable. But actually we try to make the atmosphere of HIMATI like home itself and have a sense of family. So whoever's in there, don't feel awkward. Consider it a brother and other seniors like your brother" said Angga.

"It's a matter of smoking and saying rude, brother actually has often evaluated them if there is a junior there is no harsh word. But maybe they're khilaf or it's customary, so you ask Lara for her understanding if they are like that" he added.

"Hemm yes, sister, Lara does not blame their habits. Lara's only mentality may be less comfortable in that situation."

"Sorry, brother. Lara could not continue in HIMATI. But insyaallah Lara can still participate if HIMATI there is a big event or activity. Who knows if there is a general seminar or workshop, maybe Lara can be a participant. Lara tetep support HIMATI although can not join"

"Yes, I understand, thank you Lara for the explanation"

"Sorry, sister, Lara. Maybe Fita was also disappointed with Lara's decision."

"Thank you for your understanding"

"Sama-sama, but if you need any help ask your sister. Don't worry ya"

"Yes, sorry again"

"Santayy... Oya you want lunch?"

"Hemm, let's go later"

"Lunch with yuk, take Fita with you"

"No, Fita is getting caught by me again"

"Sister just wants to make you get along again"

"How about ya"

"Dahhhhh just calm down, ayoo"

Then Brother Angga pulled my hand, and took me to a food stall.

"You wait here, let sister Fita in the secret" he said.

"Yes my brother"

POV AUTHORS

Fita is busy with her laptop.

"Fita.. eat yuk" asked Angga.

"Belom laper"

"Ayoo eat, this is lunch time"

"Later on"

"Come now !!!"

"Iih maksa really is a person"

"You wouldn't be forced not to"

"Yes?"

"Yes, close the laptop first"

"Okee's.."

On the way to the food stall, Fita saw Lara in front of the stall. Until his footsteps stopped.

"Why stop?"

"Males ah, we eat at Padang aja yuk rice shop"

"Ehhh really eat rice Padang anyway, there ajaa"

Angga pulled Fita's hand. This time, however, Fita refused. And he turned back to the secret.

"Don't want to ! If you want to eat, eat alone. I'll just belom laper"

"Why is that? Why don't you eat there?"

Angga pretended not to know, because actually Angga's intention was to reunite Lara and Fita.

But the way failed, Fita still did not want to see Lara.

Lara POV.

A few moments later Angga came back again but alone.

"Where is the brother?"

"Hemm he's fasting on Monday Thursday he said"

"Oh yeah? As long as I have it Wednesday."

"Oh yes, he said fasting change of year yesterday"

"Ooh.."

"We ate together"

"Yes, my brother"

Then me and Angga had lunch together. Although often met, but I feel awkward eating alone with Brother Angga.

When eating, Angga did not hesitate to tell me about anything. Throw jokes to comfort me.

After eating I say goodbye to him.

"So I'm back first"

"Be careful "

"Yes, thank you for lunch. Greetings to Fita"

"Yes later Kaka salamin kok"

Then I went back to kosan.