The End of the Waiting for Love and Love

Difficult to move on?

When I was focused on going through the lecture entry stage. Besides my parents and brother Diva, there is someone who does not miss every day to encourage me.

He was a man who was trying to get close to me. Umar seemed to really want to get close to me.

Although he was also busy with his college activities, but he still had time to contact me to just talk about asking about my situation.

At first, I did not feel comfortable when he always called me and often gave me compliments. But increasingly, it seems that the way he managed to conquer my heart.

His attitude that often praised it sometimes made me doubt. Because some guys are easy to brag, I'm afraid Umar is that type of guy. That is why I hesitated when Umar praised me often.

Even Umar approached me secretly. For several months close to him, he did not dare to come to my house. I don't know at that time what was the reason that he did not dare to visit my house, even though the distance of our house is quite close.

Seriously, but hesitating, she expressed her feelings for me. But there was a phase where I was indifferent, unwilling to respond to his words.

He asked for more than just a friend. Honestly, at that time, I could not accept or reciprocate his feelings. But on the other hand, I also have felt how disappointed when I feel not responded by someone.

I was afraid to upset Umar at that time. While after Iyan left, I really need someone to make me move on. Until I finally accepted Umar and reciprocated his feelings.

This is not the best way to heal a broken heart. But my feelings were slightly relieved by the presence of Umar. Because he always had a way to make me smile.

As time went on, the more I understood his activities on campus, he said his activities were quite crowded on campus. He often told me about his activities, so I believed what he was doing.

During that time I was waiting for a re-list as well as information regarding ospek. Umar offered to drive me to college, but I refused. I don't want to depend on him, even if he's worried about me. I have to try to be independent and strong in order to achieve my goals.

When night falls, I usually wait for umar to report via chat. After a while, he sent an SMS message.

"Good night, dear" As she called me, after I had confirmed her words a few days earlier.

"Night too" I said normally.

"Capek today about futsal training"

"Kasian, let's take a break"

"yes this is another break, memenin I chatan ya"

"not every day as well. But have you prayed yet?"

"it's been immediately won, hehehe"

"Can't dong yet. Good if you pray"

"When are you the ospeknya?"

"No more information yet, why?"

"Gapapa nanya aja. Later if you have entered college do not be naughty"

"What does that mean?"

"Yeah, you meet guys on campus"

"What does it have to do with meeting the same naughty guy?" polo answer.

"If you are not sensitive, that means do not let you be tempted by the guys on campus"

"Geez, there's-there's a hell. Just hang on"

"Promise me you won't be tempted?"

"The name is also dear, I'm afraid you're a macem"

"My goal is to learn not to seek scourge"

"Yes, I believe" he said.

Umar's attitude like that makes me feel strange, because it's a sign that he is suspicious of me.

Though I have not been active in college, but he has behaved like that. But during that time I never suspected back to him, even though his activities were very crowded on campus. I believe he didn't do anything weird either, like approaching other women.

After chattingan usually me and Umar close the chat by saying good night. He is usually allowed to stay up late to watch football games on television. Of course I can't ban his hobby. Because indeed he is not just a hobby of watching football, but his activities on campus are also related to football.

That convinced me that he couldn't possibly mess around behind me. As long as the activity is beneficial and positive, I should be able to support it.

Suddenly remembered when Iyan also once shared a story with me about the same hobby. Maybe all the guys love football. Kak Iyan told me while attending college student activity unit which is football. Even some of the photos he posted on Facebook were also about his activities in football. The same thing was done by Umar.

Umar once invited me to accompany him in a futsal match. But I never wanted to, because I was confused to say permission to my parents. Usually he's futsal at night, where maybe I can go out at night. Perhaps long ago Umar also bored because of my rejection, so he never pleasant to invite me again. But this was understandable to Umar.

My activities while waiting for information ospek, more silence at home. Maybe occasionally help the mother in the kitchen or sweep the front yard of the house and others. Until saturation struck, because I want to immediately undergo college activities.

To get rid of the occasional saturation of news with high school friends, hearing from those who have worked at a company, there are also those who are waiting to go to college like me. Meeting plans were also cancelled.

Ega, my best friend who since school asked to be accompanied everywhere, now has dared to go alone. He has worked in a company, amazingly he often faces overtime. Sometimes he comes home late from work.

I salute Ega, because after graduating from High School she became a hardworking woman to help her parents. Although rarely met with Ega, but we both still often ask news through chatting. He always said he wanted to continue his college education, but his solid work plus overtime seemed to have to undo his intention to go to college. But Ega remained enthusiastic, he lived all that sincerely. Even on the contrary, Ega also often supports me to stay in college.

That afternoon, I got a call from the college. Providing information so that next Monday, I can come to the campus to follow the preparation of Ospek. And bring a re-list file that must be submitted to the campus.

I was very excited when I heard the information, because it meant that I would soon be running a lecture.

Don't forget I told diva's sister, because she had to know the good news. Then I called Diva by phone.

"Assalamualaikum why deck?"

"Wa'alaikum.. Brother diva... Next Monday I will be sent to college"

"Oh good, you want ospek?"

"Not yet, the new technical meeting that"

"Oh kirain directly ospek. later you can go alone?"

"God can. Diva is calm"

"Totally? because Kaka could not permit, if Saturday could be aja Kaka nganterin"

"Whoa, I'll go alone. Yes, I just want to know that"

"Yes, greetings to mom and dad"

"OK my brother"

After diva said "to leave alone" I hesitated. Maybe it was time for me to go anywhere by myself. I have to be brave to fight my fear. The journey from home to campus is quite far, but for the next 4 years I have to get used to it.

Little revision...