The Dark Side of My Ex-Girlfriend

CHAPTER 11 - FLASBACK

It's been running for two weeks like this, but it's not producing anything for me. I finally decided not to find a replacement for Aldy quickly. I don't want my heart to hurt again for the next time.

 

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Suddenly Aldy sent me a message. He wrote that being sad, he quarreled with his lover only because of trivial things. I really don't know why trivial things can just be exaggerated like a child like this.

He told me so many things about his girlfriend, I just read her message and gave her as much as I could. I had a chance to think here that the role of the woman is Aldy, it turns out I was wrong.

Mas Manto played his female role. And I can only hold back the laughter because even if I see that Manto mas is much older than Aldy but this is the opposite of his nature and personality.

Aldy also told me that this Manto mas is one of the lecturers at the famous university in the city of Surakarta and one of the Biology teachers at one of the State High School in the city of Surakarta. From Aldy's explanation, mas Manto is a lecturer who teaches psychology courses.

However, this Manto mas is a graduate from the bachelor of Biology and Computer Science. As well as this Manto mas also just graduated from the level of S2 and want to continue to the level of S3.

My thinking is only short enough, mas Manto is a lecturer with a higher graduate than Aldy. For now Aldy is still a high school graduate who is pursuing S1 undergraduate. Especially compared to Manto is very far away. Both from age, education, work, position and even his thinking.

But, why can this mas Manto be a female person? Although I only saw a glimpse of the photos sent by Aldy, mas Manto was more directed to Gay Sisy. Only, he looks like a man in a matcho style. If you think about it too, where might be a lecturer who looks and behaves like a woman.

Because if mas Manto like that, there he was even fired from his job and ostracized even be scribbled from the Family Card by his own family. Just imagine it is horrified.

Aldy told me so much about this Manto mas, I only responded to the potluck. Somehow strange, I did not feel disgusted at all with Aldy. Even my friends who knew it were disgusted by him.

Aldy even had thoughts of ending his life because of the problems he faced both from his family and his partner. I have absolutely no idea what kind of problems he is facing in his family.

I also do not intend to ask or force him to tell the story anyway, maybe in the future he will be able to tell me himself as he is now.

I just hope that everything will be okay according to my guess. I don't want to get hurt anymore. I really want to keep my heart from hurting me.

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Aldy as if every day always told me about mas Manto, I responded very well. I'm not the kind of person who hates people for their mistakes. God will repay him someday.

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But somehow I feel weird about Aldy. I feel like it back, I'm not sure how I feel.

 

But the day after, the feeling continued to grow and I loved Aldy again. Aldy knew that. I don't know why I might fall for him again.

His actions have been very cruel to me. I can't stop this feeling at all. The more I resisted, the greater the feeling grew. I'm so upset with myself.

It shouldn't be like this, I shouldn't have any more feelings for him. After all, his actions are still very much in my heart until now.

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I know, he's not a normal person. He is also like the devil to me. He can only hurt me, not happiness.

But the more I thought about his mistake as if it meant nothing. It was as if he had never done anything wrong to me. Ah, it's really upset that it has to be like this.

Eventually we decided to get into a relationship without the knowledge of others including her lover. If I say the affair is true. But I also from the beginning did not force him to be with me. He alone decided like this.

Our relationship went very well too. When she came out with her lover I never messaged her once either. I kept it that way for a few weeks with Aldy. Our relationship can be said to be a forbidden relationship.

“**I love you, how am I doing. To me your lack is your advantage. I love you for who you are. And I love you more than you know. I am grateful to know and have you. For me you are both a wound and a medicine for me. Thank you from my heart deepest”

\-Dina Pratiwi**\-*

 

Until finally our relationship back tenuous because his girlfriend knew about my message and he was very angry with me. She scolds Aldy so fiercely and threatens to ask for his parting with Aldy.

Aldy who did not want to be left behind by mas Manto finally decided to choose his lover rather than me and chose to stay away from me. I can only accept what he is doing to me right now.