The Dark Side of My Ex-Girlfriend

CHAPTER 10 - CONFESSION

It's true, I'm just a person who loves and loves her so much, a person who is willing to get hurt the day and herself because of it and a person who is too stupid to want to be treated that way by her.

Until a few weeks had passed, I had already stopped texting him, had stopped begging for an explanation.

I thought that there was no longer any meaning to the pursuit that we could not even hold.

“You are as strong as we can hold him, if he forces us to leave. Then it'll be free. What do we want it to look like, if in his heart there is no us. Then it will be free too. Not only does it make us happy, but it hurts ourselves, hurts ourselves again and again. Attack, take care of what you deserve to keep. Never waste time on someone who never appreciates you. You are precious to be sick and you deserve to be happy for yourself. Don't let others hurt you.”

- Dina Pratiwi

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Today I will undergo the Mid-Semester Exam, I have prepared for this exam very carefully. I studied all night with my friend to prepare for it and hope to get a truly satisfying result later.

I have prepared very neatly by wearing my alma mater, just waiting for an invitation from my friend. It just so happened that I went to college with my friend. My friend is so good to me, I love him.

When I looked at my phone and checked at what time, all of a sudden there was a message coming in from Aldy. It made me round my eyes. How not, he sent me a message since a few weeks had passed and all of a sudden too.

I tried to open a message from him, I guess what the hell turned out he admitted that he was a GAY man.

It made me not believe his confession. I also saw him look and behave like a man. How could he be like that? The question kept on troubling my mind.

I deliberately did not intend to reply to his message quickly. Because somehow I have to go ahead to approach my friend and leave for Campus. On the way to Campus, I didn't talk about this at all to my friend first.

I chose to silence my mouth and keep this to myself when the time was right. Yeah, well, at least I have to gather evidence that what Aldy said is true.

After a few minutes, my friend and I finally arrived at the college, we immediately parked the bike and headed for the classroom. Even on the way to class, I felt like I was not myself, and I kept silent without speaking.

His confession disturbed my mind. It really makes me feel uneasy. It feels really uncomfortable.

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Even in the classroom, my feelings and thoughts were uncomfortable. Friends noticed I was weird, maybe they thought it was not usual for me to just sit around without saying a word to them.

It felt like ending the exam today and meeting Aldy to ask what he said was right or wrong. Because ever since he hurt me so much, that's where I started not to believe his talk. Because there's a good chance he'll be able to lie to me, too.

Especially when he was in a relationship, he lied to me. So yes, he probably did the same. But the lies are still lies.

During the exam, I was not at all calm. It feels like time has been going on for so long today. I can't concentrate on answering the questions I've been given. I could only exhale repeatedly and ask for miracles to be given the ease to answer these test questions.

 

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After I finished the exam, I took my phone and typed a short message to Aldy to ask him to meet. But it turns out my message was only read by him. I finally decided to go to the library with my friends to study for the course exam for tomorrow.

Even on the way I still think about the message that contains his confession. I kept convincing myself that what he said must have been lying. Maybe he'll admit that sensitive thing to me. Especially now that I'm someone else for her.

My friends have been looking at me ever since. They talk but they don't dare at all. They finally chose to just shut up while looking at me.

I kept breathing repeatedly. I don't know if today was so hard for me. I don't want there today.

 

One of my friends patted me on the shoulder and tried to get me to joke around so that at least my mood could change. I who know their efforts to comfort me immediately laugh with his jokes.

 

At least I should appreciate them. They are always there for me, so I can't let them down. Moreover, it looked like this continuously in front of them. Not very good, is it? I think I'm right.

“**Friend to me is a butterfly. It was so beautiful to look at and I always wanted to take care of it. In the context, it can be described as a butterfly. We all play whatever we have in butterflies. Suppose one of the butterfly wings is injured, it will not be able to fly, right? So, take care now what you have. Don't let them get hurt. All is one unit. So did I to them. I love them so much, and they love me so much. I am so grateful to have all of you. You guys are gems to me.”

\-Dina Pratiwi**\-*

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We finally arrived in front of the library. Before entering the Libraries, we take off our shoes first.

When we finished, we went in one by one, we also put the bag in the place that has been provided.

After putting the bags down, we took our KTM. This KTM is a Student Identification Card which is used for our identification when entering the Library. We are one by one absentee using KTM in the sensor that has been provided.

After all had been absent, we went straight to the seats available there. Some of us are taking books as a reference, some are lying down while sitting down. And me? I just kept checking my phone who knew there was a reply from Aldy.

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The friends who were picking up books are back, now we are starting to study together. We asked each other which material was not yet understood.

At least by studying together can make me forget the incident this morning, I can finally focus on the course material and for a moment forget about the previous one.

I am really very keen to learn and get satisfactory results. We exchange knowledge and knowledge with each other.

 

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It did not feel like it was late afternoon, so we decided to go back home. Before returning, you return the borrowed book to its original place and clean up. After all was done, we took each bag and immediately put on the shoes.

After everything was ready, we walked together to the bike park. On the way we always joke, there is something that can be made jokes. We talked about a lot of things, we also discussed the plans that will be done after the exam.

They spoke with great enthusiasm, with no exception to me. I always check my phone over and over again. I just kept waiting for messages to come in from Aldy. I need to know the truth of his confession.

Sometimes I look at my friends too, I don't want them to feel sad for seeing me like this. Because I'm way off from them. I finally ran to chase. I missed none other than always stopping to check my phone many times.

Still, there's no message from Aldy. Either he's playing me or he's not at the moment. I just hope he explains it to me soon.

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Finally we arrived at the bike park, we immediately took each bike and say goodbye before going home. So do I and my friend.

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When I got home, my friend and I greeted each other. On the way home, I checked my phone back and hoped Aldy would return the favor. And I didn't think he was answering my message.

“Yes, I'm actually Gay”

“I have proof of kok”

“I'll send the screenshot to you, but you have to promise me”

"I'm not strong enough to lie to you constantly”

“Again you are a good person, so deserve a good one also”

“I'm his broken man, you don't deserve me”

I replied to her message and waited for her to give me the proof. I didn't ask him why he was replying to my old message.

For me, it is the explanation of his confession that is important at this time. Nor did I heed his explanation of lying to it. For me it can be discussed at the next opportunity only.

After a few minutes, she finally sent me the screenshot evidence with her boyfriend. His girlfriend is named Manto.

According to his explanation they have been in a relationship for a long time and he only uses me as a tool whether it can be cured or not. But, according to his explanation it all did not help him at all.

I was shocked by his explanation, which only used me as his guinea pig.

Though all this time I have been the best for him, I let go of my own happiness just for him. But what I got was like this from him. I really didn't expect it to be like this.

Some even make me more surprised is the content of the message from the screenshot results. They really are like lovers. It really can't be trusted by me. I didn't believe it at first but saw this as if I really didn't expect it.

“You can be with the others. I can get away from you. Maybe it's the best” said of his partner.

“No love me, don't go. I'm really sorry” Explanation.

“Sorry if as a couple I always trouble you” Connect the partner.

“Don't love me, paan never bothers me at all, because inside the paan. I met my true love”

“ I love you always

“Happy teaching ya my love”

“Do not go from me, I beg” Connect the explanation to his partner.

I really can't believe what I'm reading. I guess a gay man will look like a woman or we usually call him a lekong or sissy. But it turns out I was wrong.

A gay man turned out to be the first kind of Sisy and Manly. Well, he's in the Manly category. Because gay manly will show himself like a normal man in general and his appearance is very dashing and attractive.