
After his older brother went to Suci sitting pensive, his eyes had turned red, obviously he had not met Gus Ali, but he had wanted to cry first.
Saints should be happy that the person they love will be defiled, but different from him, who is reluctant to let go of them both. If Saints let Arkan go, would he not let Arkan's parents down? Obviously Suci already knew the answer, he was sure to make Arkan's parents disappointed, not only that, but he would also disappoint Arkan, the man who had begun to accept his destiny with a spacious chest, and not only that, so he didn't want to disappoint her.
Namen on the other hand Suci could not let go of Gus Ali, the man who had damaged his heart and mind all this time, he had already painstakingly migrated and fought so that he really deserved Gus Ali, even if he releases Gus Ali, he is not necessarily strong and strong, because Gus Ali is the second love he feels after love for his father
"Oh Allah, what should I do, I can't let go of Gus Ali."
There were no tears Holy shed, they should have been shed for happiness, but this time they were for sadness. After a long period of silence, Suci immediately put on his veil, he immediately came out of the room with a very sad feeling.
"Assalamosaic."
"Wa'alaikumsalam."
They desegwab in unison. Saints greet them by slapping their hands on their chest, as well as with them. Even though Gus Ali lowered his gaze, he still smiled when Saints were already in the living room. The saint sat beside his mother.
"Abi's arrival with Gus Ali here is what?"
Sacred asked still lowered his head, his eyes were already starting to cry. Suci did call Kiai Habibi with the call Abi, because Kiai Habibi and his wife named Khadija already considered Suci like his own biological daughter. Before Kiai Habibi deskawab, Gus Ali first deswab, because this is indeed he who must speak.
"This is how Anisa and Neng Suci, we are here to preach the daughter of Anisa's mother whose name is Suci."
Anisa is not very familiar with the words from Gus Ali, but she believes that Gus Ali's intentions are proposing to her daughter. Now that Anisa's gaze turned towards her daughter, she saw her daughter's eyes that had turned red like she was holding back her crying.
Anisa gently stroked her daughter's back, she could see that her daughter had a love interest in a man named Gus Ali.
"Mother leave everything to you son, Mother will not interfere in your affairs, whatever your decision, Mother will always support you."
Saints just nodded, his body had started to shake, his tongue felt muddy when he heard the words of Gus Ali, the man he had loved for 3 years, no matter how hard he wiped his name in his heart, so his love grew bigger, so he prayed a third of his night to be united in marriage with Gus Ali, he prayed that his love be avenged, but after the do'a was granted, he prayed, even he could not feel happy, because now his position is different.
"Sir, what's your answer, son? Whatever your answer, Abi will still consider you as Abi's daughter, never changed, nor ever before nor now."
Kiai Habibi let out a voice, after seeing Suci just silent, he knew that Suci might be in shock over the sudden proposal. Anisa's heart warmed when she heard the question from Kiai Habibi, she did not think that her daughter was considered their daughter while in the boarding school, not considered as their santri. Gus Ali's smile faded, although he could not see Saints clearly, but he was sure that the Sacred Heart had doubts about him, so that Saints were still silent to not make a sound.
"Neng, if my proposal is too sudden, I'm sorry. Neng could think first to accept or reject my proposal. If ta'aruf is very unlikely, we both knew 3 years ago, would have known each other."
The saint who heard the words of Gus Ali, he became more and more confused, but on the other hand he did not have the right to ask Gus Ali for time, he was afraid that his choice would remain Arkan, for whatever it is, for him happiness and being able to smile at others is much happier than seeing others grieve and he is happy with the man of his choice, isn't that so evil? And his hijra all this time will be in vain.
"Sorry before Gus."
Suci spoke with stammering, his tongue was still mute, but he also had to finish his words immediately. Sacred closed his eyes, he said Bismillah and prayed, he hoped the decision he took was not wrong. As for Gus Ali who heard the apology in a stammering voice, he was already convinced that Saints rejected him, because he had never heard the Holy voice with a trembling voice.
"I'm sorry Neng Gus. Neng already has a future husband."
Suci never called his name Uci or Suci when talking to two parents Gus Ali or talking to Gus Ali, he would call himself by the call of Neng, like them. Gus Ali was still faithfully silent, he wanted to hear the next word from the Holy mouth.
"Neng has received a proposal from Arkan, and God willing, we will be married in 6 days."
Gus Ali's heart suddenly stopped beating when he heard the answer from Saints, his eyes had already started to redden because the Girl he loved so far would belong to others, especially Saints just said now, his eyes had started to redden because the girl he had loved all this time would belong to someone else, it should be said that when Suci say goodbye, maybe his disappointment will not increase, because Gus Ali knew that Suci would come home to attend his brother's wedding, and that's why Gus Ali immediately proposed to Suci, who was the first to come home, because Gus Ali was afraid that if Suci was chased by his brother's friend Suci himself, especially Suci is the Girl Sholehah, anyone would want it. Kiai Habibi stroked his son's back, to strengthen his son.
"I'm sorry Neng Gus. Neng shouldn't have said she wanted to marry Gus at the first meeting."
Anisa rounded her eyes, finally she understood fully that her daughter loved Gus Ali from first sight, what else now her daughter bowed her head differently, indeed usually his daughter will look down when she sees a man who is not her makhrom, but his daughter's down is very different, his daughter like holding back her tears.
"It's okay neng, don't take heart and don't feel guilty, maybe Arkan is the soul mate who has passed in Lauhul Mahfudz."
Gus Ali still responded by acting mature, he did not want Suci to feel very guilty. One drop after another of Holy tears came out, he felt that his heart had suddenly stopped, making it difficult for him to breathe