TEARS OF WAITING
AMP Season 2 Part 51 Powerless
Powerless
“Yes. I'm jealous, Nad,” Fauzan said after he turned his face to the side and saw Nadia straight.
He said again, “If I can be honest, Nad. I don't want you to be fooled by Arfan, I don't like it, if I can take you away now to a faraway place, or to my mother's place, but, I can't!”
“I'm still Dad's son, but I've been treated by Imma Mother very well, I will not repay the woman by making her sad, if take you away, Nad's? I'm powerless, I don't want my father to be a sinner because I'm an ungodly child!”
Fauzan sighed while closing his eyes, without waiting for Nadia's answer, he returned to the car with a medium speed as if showing the sadness of his heart.
“I'm sorry, Zan,” Nadia said as she looked at Fauzan's profile from the side.
“Why apologize, you're not wrong, unless you've been prejudiced badly if I didn't really apply for you, right? I'm really, you know, Nad!”
“Masa?”
“Ck! If you answer honestly to accept my love, I want to oppose Mama Imma's decision right now!”
“Do not,” replied Nadia.
“Why?”
Nadia was silent, if only she had said honestly if she, having no feelings for Fauzan, for now. Although, Fauzan's personality always shows hospitality and sincere, but he often sucks.
So, Nadia considers if silence is the best answer. He once loved someone too deeply, but ended up being forced to lose in the most painful way, namely having to admit defeat just when victory was almost within his grasp.
So, he does not dare to love anymore, does not need to be loved if later it will only be hurt again.
If indeed he is labelled poor or low because he is so weak and no longer has the guts to have, then, let it be ... He resigned because love can indeed be so beautiful to enjoy but, it would be so painful if not from the right person to have.
There are still many reasons to survive in solitude, there are still many friends and relatives who can fill the days that some people say, lonely without a lover of heart.
However, his heart was not ready to be happy or happy for a man. He's not the only one who's ever been wrong or the one who's been broken. Then, a part of the wounded heart can be so easily bandaged by looking for another heart to anchor. However, Nadia was different, she chose not to complain and continued to walk in solitude.
If his legs still hurt to walk, and the small wings in his heart were still broken to fly, then, he needed time to heal until he could walk or fly again. Tears from his bloodless wounds, sometimes still spilled. So, he will not force himself to return to reach love, which he said can make humans happy.
*****
Today Nadia was allowed to go home, again Jali who drove her to her home in her hometown. Since the last time he met Fauzan was the day he was silent, not answering the man's questions about the feelings he had painstakingly hidden.
That night Fauzan just drove up to the front of the apartment and let Nadia get in his block alone. He did not force Nadia to answer the question because she knew Nadia's heart injury had not healed properly and, she was wrong to be too imposing.
They finally decided not to talk to each other because they both keep the heart from deeper wounds. Nadia was hurt by love.
The man is the same, when he really falls in taste, the person he loves will actually be betrothed to the person he cannot defeat even in various ways.
So, he gave up instead of fighting back while he was not necessarily able to win. Giving up does not mean losing, but giving up is the most beautiful way, which is taken rather than having to experience more severe suffering.
Hadian asked him to return to work by repeating it like the first time he entered work.
“This, just a formality, you are definitely accepted and I guarantee there will be no error.”
“Good, Sir.”
“You don't have to worry about other people, this is my decision without any other contribution.”
“What is the only thing I should attach, Sir?”
“Ya.”
At that time Hadian asked privately without being noticed by anyone including Fauzan. This includes sudden, considering that Hadian delivered after Arfan recovered and Nadia said goodbye to go home.
Nadia's daydream is suddenly spoiled by her vision on a signboard showing the Cafe by name as mentioned by Ella a few weeks ago.
Nadia asks Jali, Fauzan's assistant who leads her to stop at the side of the road where the cafe is located.
After arriving inside, he put on a sunglasses and sat among other visitors then, ordering a type of cold drink typical cafe which is quite popular. He was slightly blending in until it was not obvious except for the person who really knew him.
He called Ella, and they made an appointment there because Ella would see him soon. The cafe is located a little far from the city area and is on a highway that will go to his hometown.
However, before Ella came, Nadia saw someone very similar to Arfan, the man entered alone with a cheerful face. Some of the visitors there were ordinary people who would not show clearly their true identity, but, most of them were men!
A person similar to Arfan was walking into another area of the place where Nadia was. Then, it looks like someone else went in there too, which is similar to Dean. But the strange thing about Dean this time is, someone who walks beside him in a position that is relatively friendly, if they are a male and female partner. But because the one who did it was a man with a man, then it seemed very laughable and invite disgust and nausea.
Nadia hid her shock, by sipping the ordered juice from her suction, she had to look natural and relaxed, until all the evidence she needed could be gathered and satisfied.
He's the guy next to Nadia talking to each other about Dean.
“If he were my bee—, I wouldn't let him go for anything!”
“He uh, he's the coolest bee and deserves to sacrifice himself for him!”
“Ah, you made me horn. Ayuk, ahk, unplug!”
“Dih, jijay deh you maksa Mulu!”
After that talk they left making Nadia a little more visible. However, suddenly someone shocked Nadia from behind.
“Hai!” yell that guy.
“You?”
Seriate
