Tannin Wo Yosetsukenai Buaisouna Joshi Ni Sekkyou Shitara,

Chapter 2 volume 1

Nishikawa and Fujisaki were shocked by my change in attitude. But I can't stop my words anymore.

"Are you going to live like this forever, taking advantage of people's kindness?"

I have no right to say such a thing. Of course, I also have no obligation to say this. It was just selfish words that I let out when my emotions took over.

"What's up?..Naocchis......"

"Ookusu-kun?"

The confused voices were all drowned by the white mist spreading in my head. I know it's a bad idea, even for me. But still, I felt I had to say it, so I kept moving my mouth.

"That might be a good idea for now. Even if you are causing trouble for someone else, the frustration in your heart will set you free and you will feel that it is not a problem. You want to rebel a little because you hate acting the way others want you to. Even if rebelling doesn't produce anything, it seems like it's worth it."

Ah, I feel like a fool. What's the point of talking like this right now, in a place like that. Look at Nishikawa and Fujisaki's faces. They're confused. No matter how many times my inner voice flows through my mind, the burning feeling inside me will not go away.

"I don't know what upset you, Enami-san. I don't even want to know. I'm sure you have a lot of thoughts. I understand that. But until when will you keep doing that? You don't take school seriously, you don't listen to your classes seriously, you ignore people who talk to you as if they're annoying. But the people around you don't leave you alone, so I think it feels good."

Enami-san still did not respond to my words. But I'm sure he can hear me. I keep talking.

"That's great, isn't it? You can't stop, can you? As long as we keep making our presence felt with a bad attitude, someone will care about us. Some people, like us now, will flatter you and ask you to study with them. Some, like Nishikawa, will talk to you at all times and put you in a good mood. Others, like teachers, scold you patiently. Everyone's worried about you."

It was as if all the sounds had disappeared from my surroundings, and only my voice had pierced through my ears. My view narrowed. It is not true that humans have 120-degree vision. The only thing I can see now is Enami-san in front of me.

–In short, this is just venting my anger.

I just say the words I can't get rid of to the right people.

"Someone who cares about you, someone important to you. If you ignore these people out of your frustration, one day you will definitely be ..." WEB ...."

My lips are dry. The lump stuck in the back of my throat slowly came out.

"You'll regret it."

As I said those words, I felt as if the feeling that was buried in my chest had faded away and the white fog that dominated my brain had disappeared.

My eyesight had narrowed, widened and my ears suddenly caught the frenzy around me. My ears suddenly began to catch the frenzy around me, and I realized once again the situation I was in.

I could feel blood flowing from my face. I've done it. I don't know what I'm working on, and what my right to lecture him is. This isn't good. And the other party is Enami-san

Sweating on my forehead, I looked at Enami-san.

He didn't even see me, but now he's looking at me. I don't know what kind of emotions are on his face. But he looked at me with wide eyes and a curious expression on his face as if he was looking at a new kind of creature.

Its bad.

Fujisaki and Nishikawa gap. It is clear that they were delayed. It was as if their eyes were saying what this person was saying and what was happening all of a sudden.

For a moment, silence drifted between us. However, it was Nishikawa who broke the frozen air.

"Well, that part you know, I think Risa-chan knows too."

Doesn't it? is what Nishikawa told Enami-san, but no one answered her. Enami-san also did not say anything in particular.

The four of us were no longer in the mood to study together. Enami-san might be upset. Thas right. A classmate he rarely spoke to had just told me something as if he knew it all, and even told him that he would regret it. If I were in Enami-san's position, I would add my name to the "unforgivable" list, and I'm sure it would be dragged into future relationships as well.

I couldn't take it anymore, so I just said, "Sorry," and went back to my seat. I put my study materials in my bag, left a thousand yen on the table, and left.

I left the restaurant and rushed away from the restaurant.

I know there's no point in running away. But I didn't stop.

I looked back to make sure no one was following me, then leaned against the tree on the sidewalk and let out a heavy sigh.

I have failed. I've never lost control of my emotions like this before. It's not that I've never experienced it, but it's the first time I've expressed such bad emotions to people who have nothing to do with it.

Calm. I have to make amends tomorrow.

I stood there for a while until my heart calmed down.

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