Tannin Wo Yosetsukenai Buaisouna Joshi Ni Sekkyou Shitara,

Chapter 1 volume 12

The day of the study session with Enami-san and the others.

I dream.

When I was a delinquent. I had just entered Junior High and was walking with the wind in my face, flapping the school uniform I was wearing. There is no hope in front of me, no vision of what I want to do in the future. However, I mistakenly believe that here, there is a place that is important to me.

This dream happened around that time.

We quarreled and I sat with lips soaked with blood. Gasping for breath, holding my knees, I saw another delinquent fall in my blurred vision. That's what I beat.

On the asphalt, I smiled with satisfaction.

–How about it, I do it.

Not that I like to fight. It was painful, frustrating to lose, and I have been in a lot of bad situations. But it's the only way to show my power.

I want to be strong, invincible, build an existence that no one else has. That's the only reason. A vague, meaningless, and helpless ambition.

I'm standing. Then I bowed in silence.

My head is trembling erratically. I felt as if the whole earth was bouncing. Still, I don't feel bad. Satisfaction has taken hold of my brain.

I walked towards the fallen delinquent.

The criminal didn't move a muscle. His eyes were closed, and he was still lying on his back.

- I have won.

The dizziness is becoming. I couldn't stand it, and I collapsed to the side, lying on the asphalt. I groaned, but my ears didn't hear what I was supposed to say. There is only silence.

And then, there was a voice that broke the silence.

Beep-beep-beep!

When I heard it, my body started to shake. Before I knew it, I was shaken in an ambulance. I feel cold.

–I don't want to lose.

I fear. I can't help myself not to be afraid. I shouldn't have fought if this was going to happen.

Beep, beep, beep!

Every time I hear that voice, my core gets cold.

I hate it. I hate that sound. I didn't want to experience that sound and the feeling of my hands slacking again.

My vision went black.

That's when I woke up. I looked up and saw the usual ceiling.

I was sweating heavily on my back. My body was shaking, like in a dream.

It was an event I didn't want to remember.

The fear I felt back then raised his ugly head again.

I have to deal with Enami-san, and this is not the time to be in a bad mood. But it took me a while to get up.

After school.

"Finally today, right?"

"Yes that."

We left class together.

Enami-san's condition is the same as usual. I don't think he has been told the details. He did not even look at us and maintained his unapproachable attitude.

Of course, he's late. Today, he arrived at the school at the end of the second period. He casually entered the classroom at recess and sat down with a grumpy expression on his face.

I'm thinking, "If you're going to look very unhappy, you better not come to school at all". It was not that he was listening to the class seriously, nor was there anyone, in particular, who he wanted to talk to.

–I can't tell him that.

In the end, we decided to use the family restaurant on the other side of the station, where there were fewer students. It was a restaurant with a large Italian menu, and it was quite cheap.

We arrived at the restaurant first and sat at a table for four people.

"I was told that they would be about half an hour late, so can we order something first?"

We were not very hungry, so we both ordered from the drinks bar. I took a drink for Fujisaki too.

"Thank you, Ookusu-kun"

"yeah...... Since we didn't come up with a good idea today, we just need to play it."

"I think so."

After taking a sip of melon soda from the drink bar, I took a deep breath.

The dream I had in the morning still made me feel moody. I tried to think of something else, but the sight of the dream kept coming to my mind.

We take out the learning materials from our bags. It doesn't matter whether Enami-san comes or not, the fact is that we have to learn. The exam starts on Monday after the next. Not much time left.

I moved my pen, took a sip of my melon soda, and tried to drive it out of my head. If I don't do something about this, I'll have a headache. I almost forgot about it, so why do I remember it now? I can only curse myself.

It wasn't even hot, but I was sweating. Fujisaki must have noticed me because he called me.

"Ookusu-kun, you look unwell, are you okay?"

I'm not really okay, but I don't want to say that.

"I'm doing fine. I'm just a little nervous."

"Enami-san is coming soon, right? I'm nervous too."

I looked at my watch and saw that more than 20 minutes had passed since we arrived at the restaurant. Time passes faster than I thought. However, I was not able to accomplish much in my studies. I can only finish what I normally finish in about ten minutes.

This is no good. I don't think it's a good idea to meet Enami-san in my current condition.

I took a deep breath. My heart's sound is pounding. I reminded myself to be calm, but nothing has changed.

As I was about to move my pen again, I heard a voice coming from the entrance. I look over there.

Nishikawa and Enami-san just walked into the restaurant.

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