SUBSTITUTE OF GOD
PART 40'S. Feel Guilty
after Nadira's return to the city of B, Eza much silent in the room of Ms. Irma. she could not accept the fact that her mother had left.
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the sound of the door opening, Eza looked towards the door and it was Anita.
"mas you eat first yes from this morning you have not eaten." Anita said
"just bring the food, I don't want to eat." answered eza flat
"but you have to eat the mas, if you are sick aunt must also be sad there."rayu anita
no matter why Eza also according to Anita's speech, he ate the food Anita brought.
"we go to the park yuk mas."anakanya Anita
Anita Syifa was Eza's best friend since they were still Kindergarten, when they were growing up, it turns out they had loved each other but because Anita was studying abroad made them far apart and Anita also did not know that Eza was married.
"sorry I'm married, there's no way we're two-years-old."
how surprised Anita heard the explanation from Eza
"what?"
"yes I got married a few months ago."
"maybe, where's your wife?"ask Anita
"he came home yesterday" replied eza
"if you're really married why doesn't he accompany you here mas, what kind of wife is he."
Eza was just speechless, he didn't want to fuss with Anita
"why did you betray my love."
"i never betrayed you, anyways we never had any relationship Anita."Answer Eza firmly
"oh yes, what has been our closeness all this time?"
"i did love you once but it was Anita before I got married even before you went abroad."
"tega ye yes mas." said Anita while leaving Eza
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elsewhere after coming from the hospital, Nadira's condition is quite improved.This morning Nadira was already in the boutique to calm himself.
"assalamu'alaikum ay."
"wa'alaikumussalam mbak." answered ayu gladly
"you how are you?"
"Alhamdulillah is good."
"hmm just go inside first."
"yes, is it okay?"tanya ayu was worried because Nadira's face was a little pale
"iya is fine." replied Nadira with a smile
Nadira also entered his room as usual Nadira did his duty to check the financial statements of his boutique.
after finishing Nadira checked his phone but there was no news from Eza
"god why don't you tell me, what's wrong with me?"said Nadira
"turn."call the ayu that suddenly appears
"yes, why?"
"this is porridge, it was ayu who cooked, mbak eat ya." said ayu
"yes, I'll eat, taro here ay first."
ayu came out of Nadira's room
Nadira pressed Eza's number, but there was no response from Eza.
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after the zhuhur Eza prayer sat on the balcony of Ms. Irma's room, Aunt Mirna went into Eza's room.
"za." Call Aunt Mirna
"yes, what's up Auntie."
"Tante wants to talk to you."
"what does Aunt talk?"
"when do you want it to be like this, son?"ask Aunt Mirna sad
"noah Ih Aunty who obviously Eza can not accept if mama has already left Eza."
"yes Aunty knows how she feels to lose the person we love so much, Aunt also feels that but za you also have to accept that this is God's decree."
"you must remember you have a wife even now she's pregnant with your child."
Eza looked towards Aunt Mirna.
"want until when you leave him, not do you know how Nadira was yesterday, are you not afraid that Nadira why-why when you are not beside him?"
"son, your mama won't come back even if you cry every day, let alone daydream like this. You have to continue your life especially now Nadira is your responsibility."
Eza tried to digest every word of his aunt, it is true what was said by Aunt Mirna. he was too selfish without thinking about the feelings of his wife.
"let's think about it." said Aunt Mirna
"yes Aunt Eza realized that Eza was too selfish with her."
"come home to see your wife, she needs you now."
"well Aunt Eza's coming home tomorrow."
"Alhamdulillah, Now you call Nadira." said Aunt Mirna
Eza took his cell phone and he called Nadira.
"hallo Assalamu'alaikum." said ayu
"wa'alaikumussalam, sorry who is this?"ask Eza
"this is me ayu mas."
"oh ayu, where is Nadira?"ask Eza
"more prayers mas."
"yes, I'll call again."
"good mas."
the phone connection was cut off.
"who ay?"nadira asked who suddenly entered
" mas Eza - mbak."
"oh yeah, what's he talking about?"
"later he'll call again."
"oh that's it already here let me just call him, you pray first there."
"good mbak."
Nadira called Eza again shortly after his phone was picked up by Eza.
"hallo Assalamu'alaikum mas."
it hasn't been answered by Eza.
"gold."
"wa'alaikumussalam dear." replied eza with a slightly hoarse voice
"what's up?"
"where are you?"
"butik." replied Nadira briefly
"have you eaten? you're all right?"
"yes Alhamdulillah I'm fine.you how are you?"
"i'm good too, tomorrow I'll be home."
"oh, thank goodness" replied Nadira
"honey, I'm sorry."
"sorry for what?"
"sorry because yesterday I didn't care about you, sorry because I snapped at you, sorry because I was too selfish."
"already mas, no need to apologize, I understand why I miss home." said Nadira
"yes dear I miss too, tomorrow I go home." replied eza
"yes, I."
"don't be tired baby, tomorrow if I go home there's no more story to the boutique."
"yes, I."
"dear, I hung up on him."
"yes, assalamu'alaikum."
"wa'alaikumussalam dear."
Nadira has forgiven Eza, he knows it all unintentionally by Eza but maybe for Anita problems he can not accept her. What Nadira feels now is he misses his husband very much.
"god take care of our marriage, if later I really have to leave my husband. Allow me in the rest of my life for me to always be with him."nadira said with tears flowing down her cheeks.
"why move?"ask ayu
"it's okay" replied Nadira smiling
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