Silence of a Son-in-law

DSM-17

All day I feel so bored because I am confused about what to do. Wanting to go home also feels very sad. Several times I glanced at the cell phone, but there was not a single message let alone a call from Mas Ashraf. 

Kudes*hkan my breath in the air roughly. It is true that Mas Ashraf no longer cares about me. With a lie, I took my cell phone and immediately called my parents. I also asked my sister to pick me up at Mery's mother's house. Even without Mas Ashraf's permission, I will still go home to my father. 

For now I want to go home. Tell me everything and ask for the best solution. Although I know, telling you about Mas Ashraf's treatment of me would make both my parents inflamed. But there's nothing I can do but that. 

If Mas Ashraf had complained to his mother never even defended him when his mother kept on vilifying me, then why couldn't I do the same? Complaining to my parents that we both have defenders. 

All this time I've been trying my best to Mas Ashraf and my Mother-in-law. However, in fact I was still wrong and worse, Mas Ashraf openly mingled with other women in front of me. My mother-in-law did not advise, but approved. 

When all the work was done, I rushed home. My arrival was certainly welcomed by them. Like a highly anticipated guest. After a long conversation, I asked to speak with my parents. I told my sister to leave because it was a serious conversation. 

I looked at both my parents. Those who had just looked the same, were now looking at me in wonder. Makes me feel worried about telling you everything or not. 

"Why, Ra? Is there a problem?" ask Mom. Break the silence between us. 

I inhaled a deep breath to slightly reduce the tightness felt. "Mom, Sir. I want to ask you for the same solution." 

"What solution?" ask my father impatiently. 

I also told him everything. About Mas Ashraf, about my mother-in-law and also about Yuni. Of course it made both my parents inflamed. In fact, my father got up and was about to meet Mas Ashraf to teach a lesson. But as much as possible I hold back. I don't want this problem to get worse.

I immediately hugged the man. The first love that will be love forever for me. No matter how good my partner is, it still will not be able to replace the position of the Father, let alone a man like Mas Ashraf. If first married I value them almost comparable, but it turns out to lose far. Ashraf will not be able to match my Father. 

I kept quiet because I was worried. I will decide what to make now. On the other hand, I still can't get a divorce. It feels not ready to bear the title of widow which of course will be the talk of many people. However, if we continue together. I'm not sure my heart is okay. 

"Ra .. actually you do not want to interfere with your household problems. It's your business. But, after hearing your story then you think you should step in." He spoke with great firmness and it made me suddenly anxious. If it's like this then I have to be prepared for whatever you decide. I don't know why, I actually cursed myself for complaining to you. 

What I experienced must have made them think. 

"Mr ...." 

"Mr will help with your divorce. It's okay if you become a widow, but believe me that one day there will be a good man who can replace Ashraf. Who can take good care of you." 

My mother and I were both silent without daring to argue. If until someone opens the voice, it is certain that you will be more furious. I know, what you do is a form of affection for me. Because you didn't sincerely see me being hurt by another man even though it was my own husband. 

I'm really confused how to. In fact, I can't imagine how Mas Ashraf would react if he found out he was being sued for divorce. It is possible that Mas Ashraf will again refuse a divorce or immediately agree.

I don't know, my mind is agitated by itself.