Silence of a Son-in-law

DSM-13

My steps are so slow. It feels so lazy to go home now. Honestly, seeing the scene earlier made me feel lazy if I had to meet with Mas Ashraf. I want to avoid that guy. But how else. I don't know where else to go. After all, I don't want anyone to look and think badly of my relationship with Mas Ashraf. 

When I got to the closed door, I heard the chatter of Mas Ashraf and my Mother-in-law. Quickly, my body was sculpting and eavesdropping on what they were talking about even though the sound was not too loud, but my healthy ears could still hear well. 

"You didn't meet Ira?" 

"No, Ma. Where's Ira going?" 

"Mom told me to buy headache medicine to the shop. She just got home and I'm sure she's out on a date." 

My hands clenched tightly when I heard it. How could my Mother-in-law accuse me of that. 

"Where might Ira do that, ma'am. I know what Ira is like. She's not a bad girl who likes to play back." 

At least I can breathe a little sigh of relief because Mas Ashraf is still defending me. After that, I did not hear clearly what they were talking about because his voice was so soft. 

I decided to enter, but when I had just grabbed the door handle, my movements immediately stopped at that moment when I heard my Mother-in-law's question to Mas Ashraf. 

"How is your relationship with Yuni? Is it getting better. I can't wait to see you get married and you'll have grandchildren." 

The deg! 

My heart stopped beating then and there. This really makes me not believe. Quickly, I opened the door and stared at the two who looked surprised. 

"I-Ira." 

"What are you guys talking about? Why is it that when I come in, you guys look surprised like this." I pretend I don't know anything. 

"Ti-nothing. Where did you end up?" Ashraf approached me and was about to grab my hand. However, I got rid of it immediately because I really did not want to come into contact with Mas Ashraf. 

"Ra, why—"

"Mom, this is Mom's medicine. I'm going to sleep first. It's so sleepy."

I put the medicine on the table. Then left just like that, leaving Mas Ashraf and my Mother-in-law who were still flinching in her place. 

"Ira! You why?" Mas Ashraf's question made my step stop at the edge of the bed. I turned around and looked at my husband very closely. Mas Ashraf's face was like a confused person. But what I did was pull the corner of my lips. It was really inconceivable with the behavior of my husband who was very good at covering everything.

"You ask me why, Mom? You sure you don't feel like doing anything that might hurt my heart?" My voice started to rise. I'd love to spill all the flavors on my chest. However, as much as I can try to restrain myself. 

"What does that mean?" 

Ah, I feel really angry at Mas Ashraf who is acting like a person who is playing a show.

"You don't act stupid, Mom!" 

"You're saying I'm stupid? You brash wife!" 

I closed my eyes when I saw Mas Ashraf raising his hands high. Maybe the guy was gonna slap me. However, until quite a while of waiting, nothing happened. I opened my eyes and saw that Mas Ashraf's hand was still floating in the air. In fact, the man was silent like a statue. 

"Why didn't you slap me?" tanyaku. 

Ashraf lowered his hand again. I saw his eyes fully rounded. I know, Mas Ashraf is also being overwhelmed with emotion right now. 

"Mas, I'm tired of maintaining this relationship. Rather than keep going like this, we'd better get divorced, Mas." 

"No way!" Mas Ashraf's voice was so loud that it deafened my eardrum. "Until now I will never divorce you!" 

"Mas, don't be selfish!" I started to get angry. In fact, right now I am not afraid to look at Mas Ashraf sharply. It doesn't matter though that Mas Ashraf looks like a hungry lion who could have pounced on me at any moment. 

"You are selfish. I'm just asking you to stay here. Take care of my mother, but you always complain. In fact, you chose to work. Then who do you think is selfish here?" Ashraf was about to corner me. The man did not want to be blamed.

"Mas, you'll never know what I am and how I feel. You don't know how I have to fight to survive against you who don't care and Mother-in-law who don't like my presence. You'll never know and feel that, Mom!" 

I spoke loudly accompanied by a prank. I can no longer hold back these tears. This mind is already very painful and it feels very eager to give up right now. 

It's paining.