Seruni Rose

Refrain

Days passed, with Amelia Kenanga now bored to be home alone. His activities are just cooking as much as he can, ordering food, cleaning the house as he can, and also lamenting the solitude that has been loyal to him.

The woman was sitting in the living room, staring at the wedding photo of Rose, her sister with Raka. A happy look emanated clearly from the face of the Rose, but not with the face of Raka who was like a stiff and flat expression. Amel himself did not bother at that time, because he was too late in happiness with Arya, as a newlywed.

For a moment Amel imagined, if he replaced the Rose as a bride. If at that time he was not crazy about Arya who is possessive and acute jealous, maybe he himself would be happy with Raka.

Unfortunately, it's all too late. Amel could not turn back time.

Back, Amel again shed tears, lamenting his unlucky fate. In fact, the Rose was also affected by the impact of his selfishness. Losing her husband, and Kia losing Wiraka's complete affection. All that is in Amel is meaningless regret.

Slowly, Amel's hands stretched out, wiping the wedding photos of Raka and Roses that are still on display there. There are many words that Amel wants to say, he wants to apologize, and says that Amel regrets everything. But Amel didn't even have the courage until now.

"No intention to apologize to Runi?" Raka's voice suddenly appeared, on the doorstep with a bushel filled with food. Not only that, Raka was also carrying a book that was either a book.

Reflexes alone, Amel rubbed his tears violently. He was caught crying and looked fragile in front of Raka's eyes. Isn't this so embarrassing?

"Why aren't you here, mas? Don't you know that you and Mom haven't come home yet?" Amel stared lazily at Raka, before he threw his gaze towards the window of the house.

In his place, Raka was astonished, no

intending to reply to Amel's sentence altogether. Normally, Amel wouldn't be like this to her. Although the vibration that Raka once had for Amel has disappeared somewhere, but in fact Raka does not want to make their relationship worse. Yeah, well, at least don't break the friendship, do you?

"I brought this for you, from my mother." Raka entered without waiting. The man then placed a bushel on the living room table, looking at Amel who looked cold to him.

"Why did you change, Mel? It should be, even if we're not a couple, but we're still being nice to each other."

Raka looked at Amel deeply. There's a wounded spot that Raka found there. And Raka sat on the living room couch without Amel letting her.

'How have I not changed, Mom? You have destroyed my confidence. After I placed my highest hopes on you, you threw it away. After I give my love to you, you throw me away.'

The whisper of Amel in the heart. Really, it feels really painful.

"The last time you turned me down, ignored my attention, and thought I wasn't there, I felt like there was no price. I also feel not confident about doing anything. So, I'd rather be like this and don't bother me. Honestly, my mas. I couldn't stand it and mentally I actually fell down at that moment. So I decided to be alone. Isn't that better for you and everyone? I usually just embarrassed Father and Mother" replied Amel. His heart ached again when he remembered Seruni, as well as his parents.

"With a way to lock yourself up and do not want to socialize? Amel, your journey is still long, don't you want to find another man to marry?" Raka asked flatly. Actually, Raka refuses to take care of Amel's life. But even so, Raka managed to be made curious by Amel's drastic changes.

"Married? That can't be happening. No one else can believe me" replied Amel again. "And even I'm more comfortable like a gini," he said.

The silence hit both of them again.

Amel used to think, when Raka threw it away, he could get more men than Raka. But in fact, that's not what Amel can do. His former arrogant soul, somewhere in the present. Lost without saying goodbye. Amel was suddenly weak for a moment.

Amel should have been stronger and assertive, not discouraged even though Raka dumped him after knowing Seruni was pregnant at that time. But in fact Amel was like a fish without water when Raka was not with him. Almost dead, but not dead immediately.

"I feel guilty about you, Amel. But sorry, I really can't accept you anymore. I can't continue our relationship just yet" Raka lowered her head. His originally cold voice, was now suddenly shrill.

"I'm sure you can get a better man than me. I always pray the best for you."

"But why, my mother? Why did you throw me away, while you were so obsessed with chasing me? What is my lack? I'm not as good as the Rose, but at least I want you to change me for the better. Where's the fault, if I want you to be my priest?" Amel stared at Raka.

The feeling in his heart again churned when the two were together with Raka like this. Amel tried to hold himself back, but in fact Amel could not control.

Without Raka guessing, Amel got up and walked quickly towards her, tightly hugging Raka. "I don't have this feeling anymore, Mom. I'm not strong" said Amel, crying. Raka hurriedly threw out Amel's hand, but Amel got closer and closer to the man whom Amel had longed for.

"Let it be like this, Mom. Please, just a second," Pinta Amel. Amel seemed reluctant to lose Raka at this time.

"Take Amel off, this is wrong. Please, don't make the neighbors misunderstand me" Lirih Raka. The man's head was suddenly dizzy because of Amel's behavior.

"Why did you leave me after we got that far? Why, mas? Why?" Amel sobbed while hugging Raka. Even the dark blue shirt that Raka was wearing, was already wet on her left shoulder.

Not wanting to drift until then Raka waver his stance, the man then threw Amel's body until strayed back. Amel fell to the floor, with blood flowing from his right temple. Amel's head stumbled on the chair's leg.

"Aaaarrrgggghhc .... " Amel remains in turmoil, with tears breaking.

This time, it was not crocodile tears, but tears of wounds that Amel really felt in his heart. Amel was completely wounded, just like the Seruni Rose that was once betrayed by all his family.

"Amel .. my god, what am I doing?" Raka regretted her reflex actions just now.

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