Second to Me and to You
knock on the judge's hammer
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Tock....Geck...Toks......
The sound of a hammer knocking that the judge heads beats, signifying the completion of the divorce trial of the couple who have ended the marriage relationship
The judge finished reading the trial between Lolita and her ex-husband named Evan.....
which is only attended by couples whose congregation ends conjugal relations, because this is the last trial, as a determination of status between the two of them, and child custody, which falls on the female side...
Grateful, the former husband of the woman did not mind him, and the woman did not think about other things about her ex-husband anymore, because women tried to organize her heart and life again,.....
From the start of the trial, until the end of the trial, only once did the woman look her ex-husband in the face, when her ex-husband extended his hand to the ex-wife at the end of the trial,which only the woman replied by clenching her palms, because she had been lazy to relate again with her ex-husband, besides, jiga as a sign that the man was just an ex-husband, which means no longer muhrim for the woman
There was guilt, and deep love, in the eyes of the handsome man, but not with the woman who was already a widow...
Gono gini's property and child custody are commonly discussed, the discussion is difficult for couples who choose to divorce, not for the woman, she does not mind it, and her ex-husband does, too,...
Until the value of the woman's ex-husband for her child was not questioned by both parties, either,
because no matter how there are children in the midst of their divorce,...
it is also what scratches the heart wounds of beautiful women and ayu
" Oh...O Allah, because my heart and feelings are not ready and able to be polygamized, so that my son becomes a victim of the selfishness of both of us, he said,
Forgive me, Lord.really, my heart and my feelings are hurt, when I am in that position, I just want to be happy, can I be selfish, she murmured in her mind.
That woman, well she's called Lolita, by the way,
he stared fixedly at the face of his boy who was in elementary school,...
Lolita stroked the face of her only son,
without her noticing her tears just fell
the bathinnya so hurt, sick, must be very sick for women whose fate in two right husband...
thinking about the fate of his son, which certainly is not easy to become a child victim of divorce, many things that Lolita feared if one day his son had understood the state of his family, and,...
Fear Lolita, if her favorite child will fall into things that are not good,.let alone the negative direction is easier, for children - teenagers, and,...
What should I do, so that he understands it, overcome his sadness later.Lolita murmured in his mind , he kept thinking about it, so that his sense of his head was filled with endless questions....
" Oh..O Lord God, guide me to You, what should I do.." muttered Lolita without making a sound, which in the end Lolita subconsciously slept by herself,
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A few weeks through Lolita,
A few days, still with tears still faithfully flowed by themselves,..
either when Lolita is in solitude, whether when Lolita watches television, whether while cooking, or when looking at her son's face when Rio was asleep....
after being busy with heart injuries, and said children today....
it was as if Lolita had regained consciousness, at one time...
" it's time for me to go back to the real world...
I realized..my life without Evan mas again,.how do I support myself.." muttered Lolita back in her mind.
Especially during marriage, Evan told Lolita to stop working since Lolita's pregnancy at that time...
so that , the savings that Lolita had did not increase, just so - just like that, just like that,
While married to Evan, Lolita's saving during marriage is not too much like the wives of her husband's colleagues, in addition to the money that Lolita manages is the money given from Evan to him ,that only quite meets the needs of the household, and the needs of Rio, the two of their children,...
Evan's income, during this time never questioned by Lolita, because she trusted her husband so much at the time, but was met with betrayal in their marriage
At that time, Lolita finished her lecture full of drama, because of Evan's possessive nature, and overprotective, since long ago
lolita is still grateful because she can still complete her undergraduate program
Lolita began to think hard, how can she work at this age?. despite still being in a productive age, it is still impossible for her to compete with children with productive age and single, even though she is still in a productive age, especially in the current economic situation...
with a long breath, Lolita sighed resignedly, to her current fate, she said,
Lolita massaged the temple of her head which suddenly throbbed...
there was a faint smile on his face, a bitter smile that grumbled at his own stupidity...
" regretful ? " sometimes tucked the word, as if regretting my choice at that time, even though my mother before she died , she told me
" keep a career despite having children, not to pursue a career, work not to live, but to prepare for something we never expected,but keep working,.."
one of Lolita's alm.ibu messages,...
I don't know if he suspects the life of his son, or his mother just just say it, just alm. Lolita's own mother knows,...
yes, regret is always behind ..if in front of the name of the announcement.hahaha.laughter Lolita to herself,
laughing at the storyline of his life, which is being painted by the khalik, and which Lolita is living at this time....
I am not a socialite mother, nor a complex mother, who likes to collect arisan here and there who gossip, show on the goods in possession, because there is nothing I can show, because there is nothing I can show off,and I who do not like to do that, for me it is nothing but a thing that is not commendable, a thing that God does not like,,...
I'm just a home mom, ever since I felt in my comfort zone, and I finally had to be trained to carve out a new story in my life ...
but I don't know where to begin, as blank as my mind, my path is difficult, maybe the effect is imposed by time....
lolita murmured in her mind while watching television that she herself did not know what was being aired on television
crings ..kring.....
phone Lolita reads...
greetings and greetings are intertwined in a telecommunications tool that is familiar to everyone
"hi, "
" the girl" said a friend teasing Lolita, making Lolita laugh at the greeting that a friend had just pinned on her,....
"yes, "
" the girl "
" girl is not a virgin" said Lolita with a faint smile...
" hey, "
" the beibs "
" how, you report ? " ask Lolita's best friend
" look at me "
" i'm fine " said Lolita in the tone of one of the famous song lyrics of her time, making the two women laugh together
" discovered,yuk? " said Lolita's friend named Asha
Lolita still considered it, still thinking, without even acknowledging her request, because Lolita was very lazy to get out of the house, afraid to get scorn from the neighbors who knew her current status
" Kya "
" less asem "
" i'm I'm mah what "
" you let me down" Asha said with annoyance
"sorry , "
" the beibs "
" Okay, "
" tomorrow we meet "
" after I'm done picking up Rio, "
" in the cafe where we used to meet" said Lolita who jolted from her mind,...
"okay, "
" at 11:40 "
" bye" said Lolita's best friend closed the conversation, which was closed with a greeting from Lolita as well
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The next day, the,
some mothers of students in class with children invite to talk, greet each other, to stay in touch...
Lolita also greeted them as warmly, by throwing a smile at each other, and laughed lightly when there was a joke between the conversations of the mothers - mothers waiting for school children...
shakes the phone that Lolita put in the pocket of clothes, he immediately lifted it, by giving a code of permission to the mothers, mothers,
Lolita greeted and gave her greetings, the moment after pressing the green symbol on her phone,
which of his voice, it was already known who was Lolita's interlocutor...
well, she's Lolita's mother-in-law, eits, Lolita's former mother-in-law
a difficult start for Lolita, because again Lolita has to try to organize her feelings,...
"how are you, Mom".Sapa Lolita is just a pleasantries, after doing the inhalation and exhale
"well,...."
" Lolly.." -....."
" son.." he kind of paused before expressing his request....
"by Rio, stay at mommy's house,.."..ask former mother-in-law Lolita..
Lolita thought for a moment....
"when, Mom".
" this Saturday, can son?."..please ask Lolita's former mother-in-law with a clean slit,....
Lolita knew, very well, if the divorce that occurred was not just a couple who were injured, even many other parties were also affected by it, he said,
Lolita believes her former mother-in-law is deeply saddened by Lolita and Evan's decision...
even Lolita's former mother-in-law and former father-in-law oppose and advise Lolita and Evan's choices, but again, this time Lolita clings to the divorce anyway,
" yes, Mom..."
" but..."
" may Lolly make a condition, Mom..".Lolita's request is gentle and polite, but very heavy to agree with the request of the former mother-in-law...
"what, son..". replied the former mother-in-law of Lolita with a question mark and soft.
we spoke softly, knowing the condition of each other's hearts, fearing offending...
moreover, I, fear my ex-in-law hurt her heart, however much I still love my ex-husband's parents.
" Lolly's going to mommy and daddy's house...."
" if Rio's Daddy isn't visiting there,..."
" mm, um,..."
" this Saturday, his Daddy Rio visited mommy's house?.." asked and replied Lolita as well as to Lolita's former in-laws, honestly Lolita was still reluctant to meet her ex-husband
" no, son...."
" Evan won't be visiting, and Evan told mommy...."
" mommy also agrees, which is good for you,..."
" mommy asks you, so that you are still good, no matter how there are children among you, however it is, you as a parent still have to prioritize the interests of children, son.."...pinta's ex-mother-in-law Lolita in a soft tone, with the word almost stammered...
I know, my former mother-in-law also set her heart, she did not want our divorce,.Murum Lolita in her mind, Lolita wiped the tears that fell by itself.
only one word was said in my heart, I was afraid I would regret it, but I was afraid of getting hurt....
difficult decision for me.... Lolita Nelangsa in her own mind
"yes,Mom..iya...."
" saturday is...."
" ,Rio will take Lolly to Mommy's house." said Lolita before ending the conversation,
Lolita was just afraid that talking a lot would make her even more worried about the decision she had decided
Lolita saw, already many students/schoolers where my son demanded knowledge, scattering out through the school gate looking for their parents....
Lolita immediately removed the traces of tears, in addition to being embarrassed at the sight of people, Lolita also did not want her personal problems to be the gossip of the Lambe lulah people
" Jon ...."
my son waved both hands, and smiled warmly at me.
"Mommy...".soo Rio's shouting excitedly.....
soon Lolita greeted the handsome boy with a smile....
" whiz mommy, how was the school?."..asked Lolita while kissing the top of her son's head and wiping off the sweat on Rio's forehead
"call, Mom...."
" raio was told to move forward in front of the class,..."
" call the pillars of faith...."
" Rio put up a hand, and Rio can answer..."
" Rio dapet five-star, on the nameplate of Rio..".celoteh little whiz Lolita with great zeal...
" okay...."
" now we go home yach son..."
" Oh yeah, that's it,...."
" mommy has an appointment with aunty Asha,...."
" before going home we meet with aunty Asha,...."
" may, son."..Lolita ink with puppy eyes.....
" ice cream, may.." pinta Rio with puppy eyes as well,....
" yes, okay, my hero." said Lolita and hit a kiss on Rio's puffed face, and cute, and Rio also reciprocated his mother's treatment to him.
I'm grateful, my son doesn't question why daddy and mommy aren't home,...
because my ex works out of town too often, we also often LDR, when I submit to join he refused on the grounds, many couples do LDR, mediocre, because of mutual trust....
if there is a lasting LDR, my fate alone, the LDR is not lasting, I question the meaning of loyalty, marriage, and men.
when he was caught cheating, when I saw that he was being**nota with his simple*, he said,
again, my husband said, in our religion, allow men to marry more than one woman....
waah ...his love for me evaporated, I just grumbled my choice, yes, once again my chosen man, Lolita said in her thoughts as she stared at the red traffic light.
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lolita's meeting with Asha, colored with hugs, and kisses....
Asha held back her tears, so that Lolita would not cry....
Asha, you are right when Lolita is not okay....
Asha even knows, how to build the mood of Lolita to be good,...
telling stories, laughing whose contents are somehow anchored to where, which must be somehow.we do not even understand, just, discuss various topics of stories that make us laugh....
I never really envy Asha, with her happiness that she is currently achieving...
even his life in the past was more difficult than mine, orphaned children who were cared for by stepmothers, such as stepmothers cinderella, whose father's property was depleted for children continued the father's alm, and Asha also had to end up in an orphanage run by an angel-hearted woman,
not to mention marrying a super rich man who a little bit Asha told me her household problems, even I am a friend who is always with her, she said,
accompany Asha, when wounded, oppressed,...
the term wheel must be spinning, though,...
maybe right now I'm having that wheel turn, though,...
I believe in myself, that I must be strong this is not the end, and not the beginning, but this is at a crossroads,...
what I can't do is stop halfway through this road, and have to move forward, time won't stop beating even if I stop my steps, even my breath, he said,
and when my mind is at a crossroads, I still have to choose, even though my own choice will be difficult, I still have to walk and I have to travel, even though the road I take is full of sharp pebbles, thorny wire, thorny wire,even the embers of the fire once, for the sake of myself and my son, Lolita said again to herself ,
lolita is currently having a conversation with Asha, but Lolita is busy with her own world
"beibs, how is,
even with a gentle and polite tone though, why does it feel so painful....
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