ROMANCE (Based On True Story)

CHAPTER 31

Since that day, I felt that there was no more interesting things in this cruel world, I lost everything, the series of stories that I had built just to be with him disappeared, too, now I've only gone extinct, the pain is imprinting and I'm hard to treat, now I'm alone picking up the wreckage of his laughter, sometimes I smile when one day I close my eyes and there he is, there he is, I felt that life was unfair to me, why when I felt alive, that's why I lost my soul, lost her.

Why did God put such a heavy burden on me on this broken shoulder.

And again, I believe more in delusion than in reality I never dreamed of, where I had to wake up alone.

I understand, there will be no perfect memory, but remembering all about you is still the most real love, even if only in a vacuum.

And then after you left, who was the rest of my heart to give me? Who should I smile at? What if I miss you? Maybe for a moment by seeing the stars and the moon fall I can forget you, then after that I will cry again.

I still can't believe, why so fast is a colorless day, why so soon twilight becomes gray.

Then until when I have to play with this delusion, when I can open my heart again, because you need to know, your breath still feels warm in my pores.

A few days after Cindy's death, it was probably all that kept raging in my mind, it was really excruciating, and it could be said that I was almost crazy if no Aziz kept embracing me.

The first day since then a week I came to his house, attended a mental event with my friend Rizky, strangely every time I came there, I always saw him there, I always seemed to see him there, I feel like there's something else he wants to say.

"Why does the dumbass keep going" said Rizky disperse my daydream

"Gua squirms Cindy"

"Please, you're weird"

"Seriously, the cave doesn't lie" I said

"No way fik, your boyfriend should be calm there, you should be sincere so that he is also cool"

"Yes a sincere cave, but the cave does not lie, the cave was Cindy's clay"

"Syuuut, it's not good for people" said Rizky ended the conversation.

"Lu see where he was?" Rizky asked in a soft voice.

I didn't answer, just pointing to the corner of the house where I saw Cindy,

"Maybe it's a genie or it could be him, but the qorin, he wants to tell you, so you can be sincere to him, he's there sad to see you continue to like this, he continued, you can make him sad? He said you dear, you should think too, what is the best thing you should do now for him" explained Rizky at length.

Surprisingly Rizky said a little bit to open my heart, I felt very, very full at that time, Rizky did have a point, if I continue like this, what do I and Cindy get? While life goes on

"Lu think again if you love him" Rizky continued

"Yes, the cave understands, just maybe at this time the cave wants to enjoy this pain first, the cave wants to love the space for wounds has its own place" I replied

"Yes cave ngerti, continue after that what?" Ask Rizky

"The cave will bring him one day one rose, until the cave also dies"

"Well, Cindy doesn't need that there either, she just wants you to start a new life, she just needs you to do'ain".

Rizky wanted to continue her words, but she said it because she saw Cindy's mother coming out of the house to approach us

"Opik nginep aja here, memenin mamah"

"Yes mah, nginep's opinion"

"You want to make coffee kedalem aja, this house is now an opik house too" he said as he began to cry

"iya mamah, don't cry, now the opik who replaced the role of Cindy here, so if you mamah there's nothing, say to the opinion yes"