ROMANCE (Based On True Story)
CHAPTER 29
When all was gradually improving, strangely on that day I heard he had to lie back, not stomach problems as before, God now gave him a test on the legs, his legs swell but without symptoms of pain, he said, her tiny body may not be strong enough to support the weight on her own feet, Cindy who just found her laughter must now return to a time where she can only sit without a sound, sometimes he cries out for the fate that God has told him, fate can never be denied.
I just hope, God, if all is interchangeable, let me exchange the rest of the laughter that is on me, let me lie down. God let me and him be happy, the rest of my laughter was left only when I saw his face even without laughter, give me more than that, I was sure and believed that I would be happier with laughter on her tiny cheeks, no matter what my condition was. Lord, so just exchange his sickness for the rest of my laughter, my happy god is only in his laughter.
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That day was telling, he said Cindy is now being treated at one of the hospitals in the Cibeureum area, a special pulmonary hospital, news that I don't want to hear at all, for God's sake! He said from last night, maybe when I was working late at the time, had to hear this news from sulis also made me a little upset with Cindy, why didn't he tell me? Though I have been reminded several times to tell if there are things that are not wanted, and he has also done it a few times, but in fact he lied, and always lied, and he always lied, actually I understand its nature, it might not feel good to tell me, but if I think back what's wrong? If his best friend Sulis is told, then why am I not? I am also his best friend. Even the best as he said before. My feelings were mixed, I was upset, angry, but I was also sad.
“Still yes Lis reportedly, tomorrow afternoon we go there yes, temenin!”
“Together with the children again?” ask sulis
“no! Afraid of busy, ngerepotin!”
“Oudah, but God willing yes, if there is no lecture schedule” he said
“iyah lis” Answer.
I didn't go to work that day after hearing from Sulis, at that time, I was working in one of the macem sausage manufacturing factories in one of the areas not far from my home.
It felt like that day to just talk lazy, want to quickly go there to see Cindy but can't! That's why I have to wait tomorrow, tomorrow is automatic Sunday all my friends are off, so I can freely borrow their bikes and be free from work.
To relieve anxiety, that night I went to where my friends usually coffee, not far just walk up, and sure enough! There is already very crowded, there is just sitting around, there is a guitar maen, there is another busy with devices, the shop macem-macem, if at noon this place we call headquarters, if it's night as a basecamp, it's weird! Inconsistent.
Be honest! That night I kept thinking about Cindy, even though I had brought rilex several times by chatting or playing guitar occasionally, because usually if I think Cindy with like this can be a little calm, but it is not easy, but now no! The more the banishment will come, I also had a chance to talk with Eri about Cindy's situation, and strangely he said that I should be able to sincerely if he was not given a long life, when I was angry at that moment, it wasn't that kind of speech I expected, I just wanted to share my burden, but he added to it.
That night was 00:01, some of my friends were asleep, some of me and others were still with open eyes, not knowing what my friends were doing until they had to stay up in the middle of the night, and me? I wasn't sleepy myself, but Cindy's shadow woke me up when I was about to fall asleep.
Maybe going home would be better, letting a moment of time for the pain of getting his place, enjoying the pain that I believe can change a person's mindset.
That morning I had just one foot up to the dream gate, all night I could not sleep and just closed at 05:00 in the morning, shortly after Aziz came to the house and immediately built me, just bothering me why I had to come early in the morning like this, I usually just tell you to come here is difficult
“Hmm, what is Ziz, early in the morning disturb aja ah” I replied with eyes still closed.
At that time Aziz was just silent which made me wake up because of curiosity
“What's Aziz?” askaku returned
“Where ya Fik said it, not good gua”
“Halah tumben you have a taste not good as people”
“Cindy fik, Cindy” clear with speech truncated.
I immediately forced her to say what was going on with Cindy, though I was still very sleepy at the time.
“Lu read Itself aja” he said while giving me his mobile phone.
With eyes that are still very heavy I see reality, several times I rubbed my own eyes, more sure if I see wrong, because there plastered a photo of Cindy with condolences
“Innalillahi wainna ilaihi raajiiun, has passed away kelamatullah, our friends all, Sister Cindy Januaryy, may the Almh Family be given strength and may his charity be received by Allah S.W.T”
After reading that quietly, my anger peaked at that moment, it could be that Aziz made such a joke on me, with a snapping tone I scolded him, pulled his collar, but Aziz was just silent at that moment, and I was so scared, he looked down and never returned my insults, with his attitude that indirectly he made me realize about a bitter reality that I never expected, he was serious about what he was trying to convey, he said, and I was stubborn to not believe it, with my body so limp I let go of my hand on his collar, my mind at that time was just CINDY CINDY CINDY and CINDY, in a blank stare with tears beginning to flow, my soul had gone a long way reminiscing about the time I first knew him four years ago, seeing him back on the front bench was greedily eating the noodles he brought, seeing his face that was very frightened when being angry with one of the teachers at that time, seeing him laughing mocking because it managed to make me upset with his behavior when at PTIK, seeing the look on his face that was so sad when telling about the two parents, his parents, and his, seeing her smiling sweetly as she taught me about mathematical formulas, seeing her in pain when Aziz accidentally hit Volly's ball hard at her, seeing her cold face when I first greeted her, looking at her face with eyes that looked at each other when we were accidentally caught in the rain that day, everything seemed so clear, sweet, I could really feel it even though I could only remember it.
With my cheeks getting wet, slowly my lips smiled when I remembered it all, then very loudly I slapped my cheeks many times, hoping that all this was not real and was just a dream, but it turned out that it was all a fact, this is how it is, I felt a pain in the cheek of my own slap, on the other hand my heart was more painful when I was forced to accept everything, my cries began to sound, and my tears began to sound, I screamed so badly, with something this bitter I believed even more in delusion because of a reality I had ever hoped for.
