ROMANCE (Based On True Story)
CHAPTER 30
Outside the room my Mom and Dad had heard all our conversations inside, they didn't go in there at all, maybe he thought I needed some time alone, received a wound to mature, he said, as soon as the news spread, when I saw that there were a lot of cell phones coming in, I knew that maybe they wanted to tell me, regardless of all the events around, I knew, we (Me and Aziz) immediately rushed to the Cindy residence, before we came to the house of West Java and Adiw which was unidirectional, in the middle of the road my eyes were black, my vision blurred for a moment, at that time I was unconscious, when I woke up I was already in the big house owned by Adiw, sorry, at the beginning of the story I did not mention the name Adiw and West Java in this story, I was sorry, but still they're friends who also took part in my trip with Cindy,
“Drink hela Fik” (drink first fik) said Adiw when I saw it began to awaken
“Grabung diw, urang mah embung nanaon, hayang si Cindy” (I don't want anything, just want Cindy) I said with a blank look back to crying.
Seen Aziz, Jabar, and Adiw can only look at each other and be silent, let me momentarily let go of crying, then soon West Java broke the atmosphere in the middle of that silence
“ Yaudah Fik let's go to Cindy's house, if later afraid not to rush the funeral audience he”
“Yes, West Java, let's cepet”
“ Come fik, you can, cave help wake up ya” said Adiw while embracing my shoulder.
I could only cry and cry, still wishing it was just a dream, and I wanted to wake up quickly from that dream.
Before long we immediately rushed to Cindy's house, from a distance already seen two yellow flags fluttering in front of a small alley towards her house, really I really did not expect that this was really real, really, why should it be so fast? I asked back to rumble in my heart
“Udah diw, get off here aja” I said right in the alley
“Yaudah come cepet fik there, cave want to parkin motor first”.
I ran small with the rest of my strength, strong wind as if blowing these tears, as if telling me that I must be strong, not yet in front of his house, my steps stopped in front of the green mosque, and I was still in front of the green mosque, from the inside there was a coffin carrying Cindy, followed by many people behind her, I sat down lethargic as I stared at the bitterness, watching my lover lying weakly lifeless, and I was still, it feels like just yesterday I delivered a novel to him, just yesterday I bribed him to eat, just yesterday I talked on the phone with him, why should it be this fast? Though I have not had time to return the ballponitnya I once borrowed, I have not had time to thank him because he always taught me English, but I have not been able to keep the promise will bring him flying with happiness, we haven't kept our word yet, so what should I do now? It felt like my brain stopped for a few seconds, then slowly He passed me, I knew it was possible that his spirit was yelling at that moment, calling Mom, Dad, his family, or even me, I knew that it was possible, there I was still silent until one of the crowd patted me on the shoulder
“A, kunaha?” (A, why)
I was shocked and spontaneously answered
“Ouhnya, sugan kunaha a bengong wae kitu” said (kirain why, because bengong continues)
“hayu atuh a, sareng” (mayo atuh, together)
“oiya kang” replied me
My feet were walking on their own, taking Cindy to the last place she would rest, I didn't know what to do after this, I wanted to die quickly to be with her, because my hopes one by one slowly fall, swept by the wind flying without direction, you have the heart, let me alone pick up the remnants of the dream that we once assembled, you lied about your promise at that time, you lied about your promise, you said I'd be with you, you said I'm your best friend, you said I'm the one you really need, what's the truth? You breathe and leave only rations for me to keep falling, then what am I here to do? Watching the cruel world alone? Then after you're not around with whom should I take off my miss? because who can I laugh at? For whom can I cry? it's all dark and shrinking, it's just me and the coffin carrying it here.
Then slowly I watched as you were taken down from the coffin, wrapped in a shroud, and I saw no more of your creepy eyes, everyone accompanying you, except me, because I never once thought it should be like this eventually.
I cried as the mounds of red earth began to close your presence, all there watching me, but I didn't feel their presence, I just needed you.
"Udah pik, who is patient" Aziz said as he embraced me.
Then from the direction that Cindy's mother began to approach and embrace me, we both cried together in that embrace, while her father just bowed and occasionally wiped away tears.
"Propay baby, Cindy must have calmed down, she's healthy now" said her mother with a cry
I didn't say it back, I just kept crying.
After the funeral was over, one by one began to leave the place, and the last I saw his mother and sister praying together before they also came home, I was invited, but I refused, I still need more time with him, after it's just me and Cindy who have now been covered in that mound of earth, I start to say back things I never said before, with a cry I apologized for not being able to come while he was at the Hospital, I apologized for not being able to keep my promise, I regret that all this time I failed to make you heal and glow, he said, and for the last time I also said my feelings never fade, it gets bigger and bigger, I know I'm late to say that, I know I'm stupid for not fighting for you, I know I took it wrong and let you go with other people, because where are they now? Where's Malik? Where's syarif? Why don't they exist? Why don't they come? Where are the people you used to worship before me, you like them as if they love you the most, maybe now you know and understand, who really loves you.
For a long time I cried while talking to myself there, and I felt very tired at that time, hugging Cindy's bellybutton I fell asleep, in my sleep, I met her, I met her, he hugged me tightly while crying and smiling, and this was our first and last hug, and he also said that all this time he loved me too, I was happy and disappointed, happy because he also felt the same way, and disappointed why he just said that, after now the body can no longer hold, I can no longer see, I can no longer hear, I can no longer hear, why did you just say that?
