RESTU (For you, Aleesa)

chapter 79. The Winged Angel

After listening to a song in angkringan last night, Yansen realized that he was entangled in a love triangle between himself, Aleesa and the creator. Yansen was faced with the same difficult choice as the song. Slowly his heart began to open. His ego began to melt. The hard heart is now beginning to soften. Yansen stared at the photo of herself and Aleesa that was always on the table. He smiled, especially in the photo Yansen was wearing a cross necklace and Aleesa was wearing a hijab.

"Between the cross and the prayer beads, the middle way is only one. God of each one." Yansen smiled bitterly while gently rubbing the figura glass.

Lama Yansen stared at the figura with a sick heart and pushy eyes. But he has to do it. He did not want to be sick for too long and did not want to disturb Aleesa's happiness.

"Lord, if this is the best .. I beg you, open my heart. I'll let me take it off. Just let me get hurt, I want him to be happy." A prayer that Yansen prayed before she fell asleep. Such a sincere prayer that he asked God. His eyes were closed with his hands clasped.

This morning he intended to talk to Aleesa alone. This time, he will not force. He will let Aleesa go with the right man for Aleesa. The man Yansen wanted to be Aleesa's lover. Now God has granted it and he has to let it go. He will also have a good talk with Aleesa.

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When I face this life

Which path should I choose

I know I can't afford it

I know I can't

You're the God of my answer

I also know I'm never alone

For you are God who carries me

Your hand is defending me

Your love satisfies me

You lifted me to a high place

Your promise is like the dawn of the morning

And it's never too late to shine

Your love is like a flowing river

And I know how deep your love is

The spiritual song that Yansen turned this morning began his day, Your Promise Like Dawn. He smiled hearing it. His heart felt the touch and it was time for him to come to terms with everything. He is not alone, his life will be fine because there is a God who is always with him.

"Peace with all the pain, sadness and disappointment is difficult, but I'm sure I can face it all." A smile was engraved on Yansen's face which was in front of the mirror.

When he was in the dining room, the older brother had already greeted him with a smile. Today, he was called back by the authorities. However, his face looked extremely radiant. Not like the first call.

"Aren't you afraid?" Yansen immediately asked without further ado. Grace is shaking too. His smile is still on.

"Sister has surrendered to God. Whatever God does will be done by you." Yansen's heart was moved to hear it. "Sister is wrong. So, you have to account for everything." Yansen was silent to hear it. Her brother has really changed.

"Sen, after Brother came home from the police station, between Sister and Aleesa, yes. Brother wants to apologize to him. Brother wants to beg her for forgiveness." Yansen nodded quickly. There was happiness that he could not express.

From every disaster there will be wisdom contained in it. Her hard brother had now changed. Yansen is very happy about that. He feels very grateful. Sometimes, man must be reproved first in order to be aware of his dereliction to God.

Before her brother apologized, Yansen first wanted to apologize to Aleesa. He was willing to wait for Aleesa to step out of the classroom. Yansen smiled when she saw Aleesa talking to Kemala and Raina who had just left the classroom.

"Sasa!"

The three women's steps stopped. Kemala clucked in annoyance and Raina was staring. Kemala has put up a body as well as Raina.

"Why are you again?" Kemala like a thug.

"Gua wants to talk to Sasa for a second." Yansen's words were so serious.

"What are you talking about, Sen?" Aleesa had already opened her voice. He advanced forward and shook his head slowly towards his friend.

"I want to talk to you both."

"Speak what else?" ask Aleesa. Yesterday we talked, last night we talked too. That's howupon.

"I can't explain it here, Sa," he replied. I promise, I'm just asking for a minute of your time." Aleesa let out a rough sigh, but he could not bear it and agreed. The place that Yansen wanted Aleesa to agree to.

Actually Restu had already picked Aleesa up in the parking lot because Madam Zenith's schedule was not too much. Aleesa had already sent a message to Restu regarding Yansen. Restu was not willing, but he had to let it go for a moment. He could also monitor Aleesa from behind.

The two of them walked into a cafe located next to the campus. Yansen had already ordered Aleesa's favorite drink at this cafe. The person who had been silent in the car was already upset.

"I'll call you, answer and keep my phone and you connected. I want to hear what he's saying."

The long message Restu sent to Aleesa. The message has already been Aleesa reply. Restu immediately contacted Aleesa and Yansen's voice was heard there.

"I want to apologize" Yansen said sincerely. He smiled at Aleesa. "By you and my God, that's a hard choice."

Aleesa was shocked to hear that. He looked at the old Yansen who had returned again. There was happiness in his heart.

"I can't forget you, but I will try to save you. Your happiness is everything to me."

Suddenly Aleesa's eyes watering to hear it. That speech was so sincere. Yansen's face was very bright.

"Let me still love you even though you are happy with a man better than me. Your happiness is my happiness too."

Tests.

Aleesa's tears just dripped. This was the reason why Aleesa was willing to accept Yansen's request to talk to each other. He was sure, the Yansen he knew would come back again.

"Don't cry. I don't like you shedding your tears" he said. Yansen moved. Now, he was near Aleesa. Gently wiped Aleesa's tears.

"I like you like yesterday. Mature, not easily bullied and assertive. I don't like you like this." The gentle touch Yansen gave Aleesa's head.

"Take care of yourself, yeah." Yansen was already smiling towards Aleesa. "I still love you."

There's a hot heart out there. Restu couldn't stand it. Finally he got out of the car and approached Aleesa. His wide steps came to a halt when he saw Aleesa crying. He immediately approached Aleesa who was bowing beside Yansen.

"Wiley."

"Sorry, Brother. I can't hug Aleesa's body because Aleesa already belongs to someone else." Restu was surprised and looked towards Yansen. "I also know if Big Brother's embrace is warmer than mine."

Restu knew why Aleesa was crying. The old Yansen has returned. She hugged her lover tightly and Yansen smiled at her.

"I'll take Sasa, brother. Always be happy and love him. I promise, I won't bother Brother and Aleesa anymore." Yansen left with a relieved heart. There was no denying the pain in his heart even a small amount.

"Lord, I've learned to be sincere. Now, allow me to focus on you until You call me into Your lap."

The gentle touch still Restu gave in Aleesa's hair. Sometimes he rubs gently the lover's hair. Calm it down, that's what Restu is doing.

The sobs are no longer heard. Restu kissed Aleesa's head so deeply.

"To my apartment, yuk." Restu's words made Aleesa widen her eyes. Although his eyes are puffy, but still looks Aleesa's creepy peloton.

"Don't think bad first" Restu said, pinching Aleesa's gauntlet.

"Bubu and Baba, you don't exist. I won't let you stay home alone." Reasons for a Restu.

"To the house of Aunty Mamih aja," Aleesa bargained. However, Restu quickly shook his head.

"No! Go to the apartment."

"I'm not ready, Bie." Restu clucked in annoyance.

"What do I want to do with you?" Restu had been staring fixedly at the lover who was replied to laugh freely by Aleesa.

"Hug me again." Restu shook his head and hugged Aleesa's body for the umpteenth time.

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Yansen, he stopped his bike right at the Christian cemetery. She was beside her mother.

"Hello, Mih. I haven't seen you in a long time." Yansen held tightness in the chest.

"Being an adult is not as beautiful as imagined, Mih. I was forced to retreat, I lost and I couldn't choose between God or Aleesa." Yansen looked down inside. Her tears were dripping so hard.

"I just felt like this was living alone. I have no parents and no one to talk to. All this time, I felt fine because there were good people who were always there for me. But now God is testing me. God told me to choose, and there must be something I sacrifice, a feeling."

Many cries came out from Yansen's mouth. He seemed to reveal all his heart to the mother's navel. He seemed to be expressing all the turmoil, pain and disappointment that he was feeling.

"Mamih must know who I mean because he's the one I always tell Mamih. He was the one who was able to accept me from the moment Mamih left. He's the one I've called my first and last love." Yansen tried to smile.

"I wait for Mamih to pick me up, hold my hand and go to your home in heaven." Yansen spoke like that in such a sincere voice.

He sat next to his mother's belly button. Not much to say, but her tears kept flowing. The child who was left five years old and is now twenty years old. Fifteen years passed, and he was forced to mature and accept this harsh reality. Fortunately, Radit and Echa were there. If, it was not certain that he would follow his mother.

"Mih, if I may ask .. pick me up don't make Brother cry, yes." Yansen was crying. A long time ago he was alone.

He let his body overheat sitting next to the navel. He just stared at the nanar and flat navel that was still very well maintained. The cost of treatment is also Radit.

"If Mamih were still around, I would definitely cry on Mamih's lap."

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Grace, she's trying to stay strong on the case she's in. Moreover, today Radit and Echa accompany Grace making the guilt in Grace's heart deeper. Aksara is angry because she just found out her brother is still defending Grace. He was clearly wrong.

"Listen to the cave first" Radit said. Aksa who was still emotion was staring intently at Radit.

"Lu will never know what it's like to be an orphan. You will also never know what it is like to live alone because your life as a child is still accompanied by both parents. It's different with them." Radit is not emotional. Grace was crying in a different room. He didn't want to make Radit and Aksa fight just because of him.

"By small forced to mature. Live independently, without anyone accompanying. Are their hearts strong? Did their hearts not scream? While their age should be they play and tell a lot to both their parents." Radit explained in tears. Seeing Yansen and Grace was like seeing her as a child.

"Cave knows, the cave has been betrayed with Grace, Aleesa has been made sick, but the cave believes this has become the destiny of the cave. Make the cave to be more attention again the same cave boy. Cave's angry, definitely. Cave disappointed, for sure. If, the cave put forward emotions surely they both had run out, but the cave was still thinking logically because the cave knew there was a burden on Grace's shoulders that she had borne alone for fifteen years, she said, and he just misexecuted."

Aksa's mouth was tightly closed. However, it was still clear that his face was still emotional.

"The cave only provides assistance to Grace. The cave won't stand in your way. The cave is enough to provide a lawyer, a psychiatrist to accompany the child. Gua was so sure, she must be depressed."

If, Radit had spoken, surely Aksa would have heard. Radit is always based on logic. It is acceptable to Aksa's wits.

"Cave hope you understand. He was just a tool until he finally did it all." Aksa finally nodded.

"The cave will not retract the cave report" Aksa said.

"Yes, no problem with the cave. Let the court decide."

Grace was still crying and was calmed down by the psychiatrist. He was afraid that Aksa and Radit would fight. He did not want to ruin their family relationship. Radit was very kind to him. After all, Radit defended him.

"Relax, Om Radit and Om Aksa must be just arguing." Echa comes and tries to calm down.

"I don't want to fight just for defending me." Grace has shed tears.

"You're our son. Surely we will help and protect you even if you are wrong." Grace hugged Echa's body so tightly. He was actually met with a real wingless angel. Already hurt, disappointed still be able to forgive and embrace it again.

"I'm sorry, Auntie."

"Yes, Grace. I'm sorry, Auntie and Om can only help you here."

"It's okay, Auntie. I'm really grateful that Auntie would help me."

The pain in Echa's heart is still there. However, he tried not to get further ignited. She learned a lot from her husband to be more patient and think clearly.

The door of the room opened and Radit came in with an expanding smile. Grace was puffed up and looked towards the father of Aleesa.

"Why cry? Om is fine. Everything just misunderstood." Radit approached Grace while gently rubbing the hair of Yansen's sister.

"You calm down, yeah." Grace's eyes glazed over hearing it.

"Lord, why did you send two kind-hearted men to an evil man like me?" He sat down with unrelenting gratitude.