RESTU (For you, Aleesa)

Chapters 178. Can't Believe It Yet

Aleena who heard the news that Yansen had entered one of the victims of the plane crash in Indonesia, she immediately packed her belongings. He's going to Jakarta because he knows Aleesa is not okay. He's not going there to tell anyone.

"You're strong, Sa." That's how Aleena's mind is. Aleesa would be destroyed. He himself did not dare to contact Aleesa. Not without reason, he did not want to see the deep sadness of the twin sister's face.

"Whatever smile you're smearing, still your heart's smile is breaking into pieces."

Aleena looked at the picture of Aleesa smiling among the laughter of her extended family. Aleena knew Aleesa's true heart.

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Aleesa Pov.

I tried not to believe the news about my best friend, Sensen. I intend to become a deaf man, but I cannot. I also intend to become a blind man, even more unable. I still hear and see what has happened. Is this the answer to all unreasonable sadness? Is this the answer to the farewell Yansen said?

I stared at the man who is now my husband. A man who truly loves me. Accept me with all my shortcomings. The man who made me fall in love for a long time, but I didn't realize it. I feel like I betrayed him. I was bad to him. On the day that he and I should be happy, it was the opposite. I even grieve because of the figure of a friend who before the event he came with a smile that expands. Asking for the last hug. I guess, it was just a hug before I let go of my single life. Turns out I was wrong. The hug she asked for was the last hug at our last meeting.

Hearing the unpleasant news Iyu made me want to be angry with God for presenting joy and sorrow simultaneously. However, I also know that this has become my handwriting called destiny. A fate that is very burdensome at the same time difficult for me. I want to fight against destiny.

Last night, I offered my husband the right he should have. I know he's very disappointed. I know there's pain he doesn't express. My husband's answer when offered his right made me dumbfounded. Outside of my expedition. He was willing to hold back and delay just because I was still in mourning. The suffering has not found certainty.

"I don't want to do it when you're still thinking about someone else."

My husband's words are so heart-piercing. I feel slapped. I feel more guilty. However, my husband still touched me because he knew I was slightly hurt by his words. I can't blame him either, I'm wrong.

He kept feeding me with the kisses and the warm touch he did. Until I forget all the sadness that I am feeling because I was invited to fly to the clouds. Although, he hasn't done what he should have done because I still remember another man, Yansen. He didn't want to when we did, my mind was still on my best friend, Yansen.

I try to keep smiling in front of everyone including my husband. I tried to cover up all my sadness. Although it's heavy, I don't want them to see me as fragile. I don't want them to be sad because of me. The pain grew even more when I felt the presence of Yansen by my side. Unfortunately, I can't see it. However, I was able to smell the perfume she used to wear. Also, my invisible friends seemed to disappear without a trace. They were not aware of my wedding day. Bad thoughts kept running around my head.

Groomsmen's clothes and a cross necklace called Yansen Geremy were found by rescuers. My heart ached and hurt when I saw that. My heart is like being overlaid by a big rock again. I wanted to scream, but my voice was blocked. I still wish it wasn't Yansen, my best friend.

Both of my friends cried when they saw the clothes and necklace used by Yansen found. They had only known Yansen not long ago was that sad. What about me who knew Yansen for so long? What about my feelings?

In my grief and depression, I tried to be strong because I didn't want to hurt my husband. The man who was always next to me and holding my hand. Gave me strength even though I knew he was sick and disappointed to see me like this. Thinking of someone other than himself.

I admit, his embrace always warms my heart. He also said to me if I think of Yansen because he's my best friend. Not because of anything else. That's absolutely true. I felt sad and in disbelief that Yansen was gone while Yansen's body had not been found. I'd like to see his body if he dies.

#pov end's.

Radit called Aleesa to the study. Aleesa slumped towards the father, but Radit showed a different face.

"Cry! Don't hide anything from Baba."

Aleesa who was still in the doorway began to look down deeply and quiver his body. It is capable of Radit very clearly. Radit approached Aleesa. He hugged the princess' body.

"Why is God evil to Sasa, Ba?"

A sentence that breaks a father's heart. His son was seriously injured over Yansen's claim to be one of the victims of the downed plane.

"Sasa wanted him to not believe it, but this reality was so evil. This fact so made Sasa's heart pain immeasurably."

Radit let Aleesa reveal all of her heart. He will be a good listener and a place to lean and tell stories when his children are fragile like this.

"The clothes found also the cross necklace that belonged to Yansen made the bitter reality closer. Sasa is not ready to lose Sensen. Sasa had just wanted to forge a cord that almost broke up because of a wrong relationship."

So sad and soft sayings from the princess. Radit was starting to hear it no more.

"The separation this time will hurt more than the separation yesterday if indeed God took it from Sasa."

Aleesa was still hopeful and desperate even though everyone was pessimistic about the evidence. Aleesa could not believe it until Yansen's body was found. Clothes and necklaces could have slipped from her body. He also hopes Yansen is found safe. If, bitter destiny should Aleesa find Yansen lifeless, but let him see Yansen's body one last time so as not to be curious.

"Nothing is eternal in this world, Sa." The father began to calm down. "Everything will go back to the creator. Not looking at age and status either."

"Sasa knows, but why should at the same time with Sasa's happy day? Why, Ba?" Tears flowed again very hard. "What's not appropriate Sasa felt real happiness"

Frustrated words were thrown from Aleesa's mouth. Radit felt his daughter was very hurt by the absence of his best friend. Although there is no clarity, but Radit believes that Yansen can not be saved.

"Don't talk like that. All of this was written by God. We as actors can only play a role." Radit began to speak wisely.

"You can cry. You may be sad, but remember there are people you will hurt if you continue like this."

Aleesa began to loosen his embrace. He stared at the father with wet eyes.

"Your husband is all his might trying to understand your sadness. Please take care of this sadness. Enough of your tears. Take care of your husband's feelings. Appreciate the struggle that keeps trying to understand you. Restu is a good man. He doesn't deserve to hurt you like this."

Jamb.

What his father said is true. If, he continues like this he will hurt the heart of a Restu Ranendra.

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Pov Restu's.

I purposely lulled my wife last night. I purposely made him fall asleep. But I enjoyed it less. There was still jealousy lodged in his chest. There is still a sense of disappointment that sticks in the heart. Everyone told me to understand, but they didn't understand the feelings I was having. I want to feel selfish, but I can't see my wife like this.

When my wife fell asleep tired of my cradle. My phone is ringing small. Indicates that there is an incoming message.

Son, Mamih sure you must be disappointed and angry with this situation. A situation no one ever wanted. The situation that God has arranged.

Don't put your ego first, son. As much as possible you should be able to hold it. It's a heavy blow to Aleesa and his family. You yourself know that if Yansen already they think like their own child. Yansen had been with them since childhood. Also Yansen had been Aleesa's best friend since they were toddlers. The same is true with you who have been cared for since childhood.

You know how you feel, son. Mamih understood very well. You should enjoy the sweet moments at the beginning of the wedding. Not even greeted with news of sadness that ends up painful for you.

Be a wise and kind husband, son. Believe me everything will be back to how it was. Relieve your wife's grief and make her days happy. There are many people who have high hopes for you. Many people entrusted you to make Aleesa happy. Don't disappoint them, son.

Don't tell Mamih. Don't complain about Mamih. Mamih will always be there for you as well as for Mamih's daughter-in-law.

My lips lifted perfectly when I read such a long and touching message that my mother sent. Disappointed, the anger began to fade a little. I began to look towards my wife who was so peacefully hugging my body. His hands were tightly clutching my burly body. I also saw his face begin to disappear.

"I'll try to understand you, Lovely."

I kissed my wife's forehead so deeply. Put down my phone and start looking for the source of the breast that who knows can make me sleep so well. It turned out to be true, I immediately fell asleep until morning came.

When I was focusing on the news that my man gave me, little Om came up to me. I was a little surprised that he was sitting next to me. Yeah, we were sitting on the side yard porch. He asked me something I answered with a wise word. Until he told me to hold his shoulder and I didn't think I could see Yansen. My ex-wife's lover was pale-faced with a light so bright it illuminated her body. A lot of what he said and the sentence I remembered and was able to make my body stiffen was goodbye.

I looked towards Iyan. His face looks sad and sad. I don't understand, but I can conclude something.

"Have he been gone forever?"

The question was answered by a nod of the head by Om ku who did have the same advantages as my wife. One thing was in my head when I heard that sentence.

"How do I tell Aleesa?"

#pov End's.

Iyan patted Restu's shoulder. He knew the worry of the man beside him. Then, he left Restu just like that.

"Later there will be a time where Aleesa accepts Yansen's departure."

A clue that makes Restu's head dizzy. His wife and uncle are the same. It's good to leave a riddle. Restu chose to pick up a new cigarette butt. He burned it and sucked it. Just one suction of the younger brother came and sat down beside him.

"Gua knows you failed the first night." Restu just smiled wryly.

"Lu's happy, right." Rio was even screeched. He took the cigarette on the table. Then, burn it and suck it.

"It's not easy, is it." Rio glanced towards the big brother.

"How else do you want?" So weak was Restu's speech.

"Lu was very sincere in loving his cave cousin." Restu turned towards Rio. He was smiling too.

"Gua will never mess with the feeling of the cave, Yo." Rio also nodded.

"The cave won't force him because the cave also knows he's not okay." What a real man this brother is.

"That's it, not all men are like you."

"The two married not just out of lust. Cave married because the cave is indeed affectionate and love Aleesa. If only to vent the lust doang mah outside can also buy cave if the cave wants mah."

As well as Restu, he still upholds eastern culture. Although he has been in the country for a long time, he remains in his culture. It could be easy for him to get into a relationship with an outside woman and have a husband-wife relationship even without ties. But that doesn't apply to Restu

"That's why the cave believes in you to be the husband of the cave's cousin. Gua knows you're a wayward, you're a thug, but you're a good boy who'll never ruin a woman." Restu heard it.

"Lu who has been fighting Aleesa's lips, there must be a dowry that you paid 'kan." Dahi Restu also shriveled hearing the words from Rio. Rio answered with laughter.

"Lu can act in-diem behind Papih, but not with the cave." Restu even laughed.

"It was a cave life commitment. If the cave breaks, it's a sign the cave has to buy."

"Stying glassware dong." Restu also chuckled.

The laughter of the two of them came to a halt when Aleesa came. They were both shocked as they were smoking casually. The fall of them is like getting caught by a PP satpol. Just about to turn off the cigarette, Aleesa sat on Restu's lap and placed both hands around his husband's neck.

"Shouldn't show off the romance." Rio started to sewot. Aleesa is becoming. She kissed the lips of the husband to make Rio's mouth blabber smoothly. Aleesa laughed too.

"You hide your sorrow in such a loud laughter, you are still not well." Rio muttered inwardly.

"I'm smoking, Lovely." Aleesa did not answer. He buried his face in the husband's neck.

Rio and Restu looked at each other. They saw clearly Aleesa's puffy eyes. However, they both pretended not to know..

"Why?" Restu gently rubbed Aleesa's back very gently. It made Rio feel happy and unbearable. His brother was willing to hold everything for the sake of his beloved wife.

"May all pass quickly, Res. Gua knows you must be sick when you see Aleesa like this. Aja cave who saw the pretence of him nyesek terribly."

...***To Be Continue***...

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