Reaching the Miss (Daddy)

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According to the medical diagnosis, Amara will survive for the next six months.

The words I heard about two months ago, constantly ringing in my ears, shattering my head to this very moment.

If in six months I can't find a stem cell donor for Amara, that means she's four months old.

My jaw hardened, my hands clenched firmly withstanding the turmoil of pain in the chest that was so stifling.

Four months won't be enough for me, I still want to see him grow up perfectly, play around with his daddy, go to school like any other kid.

I still want to see his smile that has been my strength all along.

Aah Lord, why be this scared, why can't you fight the fear that is undermining me.

My fear this time is really no longer able to bargain.

Sighing slowly, I felt that time was going so slowly, making my heart seem to work extra hard. I anxiously waited for Mas Tama who was seeing the doctor. I really hope the lab results will match Amara and Mas Tama can donate bone marrow to her daughter.

What exactly are they talking about? why so long?

My mind was messed up, my heart wanted to scream, and my feet were eager to step up to Mas Tama. But Amara, she's alone here in a weakened condition.

My eyes began to heat up, holding back tears as I imagined Amara's departure from my life forever.

Just as the circle fell, I heard the door open.

Mas Tama, I saw himself walking through the doorway with a flat look that made my bones suddenly relax amazingly.

"I don't want to hear if the results of the mas don't match" Lirihku with a blank look.

Instead of responding, Mas Tama hugged me very tightly, I don't know what he meant. I was getting curious when in the next second he peeked at the top of my head and gently rubbed my back.

The first kiss I got after our breakup. We who have been in the same room for one week, never once have physical contact such as kissing, or husband and wife relationships in general because the awkward feeling still envelops us.

"The romance will heal"

Quietly, I tried to digest well what Tama said just now. I hope my ears are working normally right now.

When I unraveled the embrace, our gaze met, mas Tama rubbed my wet cheek and took me to the tv room.

I who now sit sideways on the lap of Mas Tama, make my heart immediately hammer. With the position of Tama mas lower than me, make me down and mas Tama look up.

"Now" he said with a focus on highlighting my neutrality. "There's no more reason for you to take this out" she added, wiping my cheek as the clear spot slid back out of the corner of my eye.

"The results match, even the doctor said it was very suitable"

Hearing the last sentence mas Tama, the conspiracy seconds my eyes reflect closed.

I gave thanks as I heaved a sigh of relief, this is the happiest news I have ever felt in my life.

As I was about to open my eyes, I suddenly felt a chewy object slowly touch my lips.

I can't do anything else to return the kiss. I could only feel the soft warmth of those lips playing around in the area of my lips.

The kiss I always missed, which always makes me lose my mind when I remember it.

Mas Tama, with both hands that I could still feel touching my waist lightly, now one of the hands came off and switched to rubbing my lips with my thumb after unraveling the kiss.

"You know why I never divorced you?"

I swallowed my own saliva not daring to guess.

"Because I love you" Mas Tama answered to his own question. "I don't know why I love you so much, which I know, I'm so happy with you"

My face seemed to warm after hearing what mas Tama had said. I hope it won't turn red because it would be a shame if he saw it.

One thing I still can't believe, his feelings are the same as mine that doesn't want to replace love with anything else.

Not wanting to get caught up in the euphoria about hearts and kisses a moment ago, I tried to shift the conversation because I was really not ready to talk about feelings after seven years apart.

"What did the doctor say? why long?"

"The doctor said that if the results are very suitable, he explained about the stages before carrying out stem cell transplantation, he also said the good and bad of this operation. But we don't have to worry because the hospital will bring the greatest transplant experts. At the Stem Cell Haematology and Transplant Centre, transplant specialists have been trained and worked in some of the world's leading transplant centres. They have extensive experience in bone marrow transplantation, in both adult and pediatric patients"

I quietly listened to the exact explanation mas Tama.

"Is this enough to make you relieved?" tanyanya gently.

"It's not a hundred percent yet"

"Ok, leave the rest to me"

"When was the operation carried out?"

"Five to ten more days"

"That long? why not tomorrow, wouldn't faster be better?"

Instead of answering, mas Tama even smiled which made my eyebrows instantly swoop down sharply.

"The romance needs to perform the stages before Na surgery, it aims to adjust the bone marrow of new stem cells, suppress immunity, and destroy cancer cells. After this adjustment process, the doctor will rest Amara for a few days. A maximum of five days, after which you can undergo a transplant"

"That means about two more weeks?"

"Hmm, that's how it is"

"Too long"

"Well, since there was a mas, I feel like my confidence has waned, I mean, I'm not as strong as before"

"That's because you're used to venting your stubbornness on me right now" Mas Tama's hand moved wildly on my back like it was sending out strange vibrations. "You're starting to show your side in front of me, but I suk_"

The sentence was cut off because I immediately silenced his mouth with anxiety. His eyes narrowed to the sign that he was laughing behind my silencing.

After two seconds I heard Tama's mobile phone vibrate, I hurriedly got up from above her lap.

While Mas Tama answered the phone call, I stepped over to Amara's bed. I see he's still sleeping in the same position, which means there's no movement from him.

I know Tama's presence here because I must have forced her. I hope Mas Tama really believes that Amara is her daughter. His conjecture was reinforced with the same lab results match for his bone marrow, I'm sure there's no more doubt in the heart of Tama.

"Marry hasn't woken up?" the question that made me flinch. He stood beside the bed and bowed.

"Not yet"

This man kissed Amara's forehead deep and long, I think that kiss was very sincere from a father to his only daughter.

"Who's the phone from?" I asked after he kissed Amara.

"From the hospital"

"Hospital?

"Hm"

"What hospital? Did something happen?"

"Nothing, they just told me about the results of my DNA and Amara's"

"Mas did a DNA test?"

"I'm sorry" said mas Tama regretfully.

"It's okay, it's only natural that you do that, however, there was slander about betrayal that I never did"

I paused my words for a moment. "Then how did it go?"

"Don't ask about the results, if he's not my son, I'll still accept it because I love you. But with my key cell match with Amara, I was sure first, besides that dad did it and showed me the results"

"So you did it too?"

"It's possible, because before I got here, I was able to show you the paper"

"But I still want to know the results"

"You know what to ask"

"Mas"

"A hundred percent of her son Nara" he said after first putting a smile on his lips. A second later Mas Tama pulled my hand making my body docked not far away.

"I want to ask Na?" He said while tucking his hair behind my ear. As for my heart, I don't know how to calm it down.

"Think what?"

"On the contraceptive pill, I think you take it every time you're going to have a relationship, but why get pregnant?"

"I only drank it once"

"Drinked once?" Kening mas Tama shriveled. "But I often find that the pill comes off the packaging"

"I just took it out without drinking it, at that time I was considering the words of the mas who said if you have children, will help us get the blessing of the mother, I always throw it away after careful thought"

"I'm sorry for what I said first"

"Which word?" I stammered, I held my breath because the distance of our faces was eroding.

"My word once said that I don't have a child from any woman's womb"

"I wanted to punch him in the moment"

"Then let's hit me now!"

I glanced at Amara behind the back of Tama who knew her eyes were open. I don't know since when he witnessed us in this condition, which was clear that second also I tried to take off the hand of Tama mas that was coiled around my waist but could not. His hands were so tightly coiled. Amara smiled happily.

"If I punch a mas now, I will definitely get a dispensation from him" I said a little pressing and then glanced at Amara at a glance. "Detach quickly, your son is awake" I whispered as I continued to try to distance himself from Mas Tama.

"Listening to my words, the conspiracy seconds his hand was released. This man looked riled up, one hand ruffled his waist, while the other hand restored his hair.

"Darling, are you awake?" I try to calm down.

"Ara was happy to see daddy hugging mommy for so long"

I'm clumsy, my face must be blushing now.

"Papa Aksa and mama Sasa also like to hug, Mita said her sign is affectionate a lot"

"Did your daughter like to talk like this?" whispered Tama in my ear. "Sometimes I like to be confused and it takes a long time to digest his words that like to be repeated"

Not yet able to answer, Amara keburu interrupting me. "Daddy whispers what?"

"Oh, there is no dear" replied mas Tama. His hand rubbed my waist softly.

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