Playground

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This silent night so disturbed me, the bone-chilling cold air made me groan . Pining for holding back the longing. Funny no, I told her to stay away for a while but I was also the one who was tormented by missing her.

I remember the good times we spent together. The time when he fought so hard for me, I finally collapsed and accepted.

At that time he was so sweet, he left his playboy predicate just to get me. I guess he really left that bad thing but I didn't think after I became his wife he was so willing to duke me out with another woman.

Maybe in his love for me there is an obsession that makes him feel that I am no longer as perfect as I used to be when I was not his wife.

For a week I ignored him, my father and my two in-laws have returned to Banyumas. I was at home alone with Hito, my husband's son, the result of his mischief while still in high school, when he was so famous for his playboy. While during the day the driver will come to pick up hito and take care of him until I go home.

I was also confused by myself, why would I care for him even treat him like my own flesh and blood. Again my conscience triumphs over my intellect. I can't bear to see a kid as small as hito tossing and turning, so he better be with me.

Many neighbors who feel astonished or even pity on me, they feel I am too innocent and innocent because I am just being treated this way by my husband. I just smiled, the most important thing is that God and my family support me.

The days passed quickly, without feeling like I had a month in honey. I kept my husband quiet. I ignored the phone and the message. Let me save a little sin, until this heart is truly ready and capable. During that time I was busy with taking care of hito, caffe and my online store and boarding houses.

After that I will check the hito assignment, to check his books and the next morning I will chat with him while repeating the lesson yesterday or learn the chapter he will learn in school that day.

Fortunately I was surrounded by good people, and more fortunate still the house of brother clara and sister citra not too far from my home. They always visit me how many days in turn, or on weekends I will visit them while unwinding, refreshing hehehe.

Once a weekend I took hito a walk to the mall there I saw mas dzaky was walking also with his young wife.

"You're happy, you may have forgotten me." My mind at that time. When I saw his boisterous laughter, his attitude that greatly spoiled his young wife.

That's what made me insecure, my confidence just disappeared. I feel like I've been dumped in the trash by him. I feel like I'm no longer needed.

Should I ask for a divorce from her? But I was the one who ignored him for a month. All the fret, the grief has enveloped my heart ever since. Until I get busy with all my work.

My heart still hesitates, I am so lazy to act. I still need time to convince myself.