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"Goodbye mas rei, I'm willing to let you go. May you be calm and happy by His side." My mind while rubbing the navel that is still wet and filled with flowers.
"Sorry ma, I can't stay here, I won't be able to , please understand. One day if the cyst is ready the cyst will definitely stay here again." I answered when mama Rita asked me to stay at her house after returning from the funeral of mas reihan.
"Okay baby, forgive mama who did not understand your situation. Mama thought you'd be better off sleeping in Reihan's room."
"Yes ma is okay. Cista pamit ya ma, cyst must immediately return to Bandung."
"Yes baby, be careful. Mom will visit later ."
I've booked a train ticket that's leaving in an hour. So after saying goodbye, Mr. Dzaky immediately drove me to the station. I chose to go straight back to Bandung because I wanted to escape from this loss, I wanted to busy myself so that time did not feel passed.
At night I arrived in my room, lying on the bed after cleaning myself. I tried to close my eyes, hoping to go to sleep soon so that the longing to meet reihan disappeared inedible dreams. But until midnight I could not sleep, the shadow of the reihan mas still clearly visible in my eyes. Beautiful shadows that have passed together. Mas rei I miss.
***I miss
miss your love
miss your love
miss your smile and cheerful laughter
I miss everything about you
why did you leave
your pergimu is my pain
what I should do
my world is mourning
disdained
when these eyes are just staring at you
when I was just waiting for your news
awaiting your presence
forever..... .
may I wish this was just a dream
hope you come back
back here
come back and don't go
no, I can't hope
god's destiny is certain
his power
go love, I sincerely lead you in eternal peace by His side.
my love
your love
true and eternal love***
My feelings for mas reihan can not just disappear, every time I do not have activities I will just daydream. I remember and remember all the memories we had together.
Mas rei is my first love, it is said that first love will be difficult to forget. Yes I think it's true because I'm experiencing it, feeling how hard it is to forget or at least throw the shadow out of my mind. It's hard, it's hard. He will not forget, will not be replaced and will still fill the space in the heart.
Mas rei is an eternal love that will be remembered all the time, my life and death. May we be united in eternity.
My new life will begin, I step my feet hesitantly up the spacious and flower-filled campus courtyard around him. It is beautiful if our mood is beautiful but for me it is not as beautiful as yesterday.
The laughter that used to always adorn my face disappeared like in the swallow of the earth. I seem to be a new person who is cold, ambitious, mysterious and not easy to trust people. I will only be who I was when I was around the people closest to me. It's like having two different personalities.
I decided to focus on college to graduate soon, I rejected all the men who tried to approach me. I only have very few male friends, I can even say that the entire number of my friends is no more than ten people. For me having a little friend would be better than having a lot of friends but fake.
